I mean the more I progress and look much better the more I can't wait to turn peoples worldview upside down.

Usually these people are those who where just doubters in general.

I've certainly screwed with a few people's minds since going full time and springing myself on them out of nowhere. Depending on who it is it can be a lot of fun!

I wouldn't say I have ever looked forward to it (I wish I did) but going into the big reveal I have always been too filled with dread and trepidation to feel anything else.  But some reactions have been pretty priceless and totally funny to watch once the moment has actually come.

At one point I wanted to surprise my dad just to see his face. He and I have never really gotten along and we haven't spoken in a few years now. My mother and I both agree that this is something that he will not take well.

As for others, hym.... Not many people are left who don't know about me or who don't see me every day. That kind of ruins the surprise. The last person on my list is my son. He's seen me as me before but he thinks nothing of it and to be honest around him it's hard not to be daddy. But one day I'd like to relax into who I am around him and... I just want him to look at me and tell me how pretty he thinks I am. That would mean a lot to me and would be better than rubbing it into the faces of everyone who ever made me feel small for acting feminine around them ever could be. 

Nobody saw this coming.   Nobody.   Saturday is going to be interesting.  There will be people at my b-day party that I haven't seen since I was a 285 pound slob with a beard.  Everyone knows, but not all have seen for themselves.

What's really weird is interacting with people who knew me before and don't recognize me now.  I always wonder if I should say something or let the pass stand.

Believe me I've been tempted to send a pic or two like my avatar to a few of the guys I used to know that teased me when I was younger
  And I've also thought of coming out to some of the nice girls who were kind to me when we were younger and were just as nice at my high school reunion a couple years ago, I think they would handle it just fine.

I've sent a couple family members pics at my best and some were surprisingly supportive. My brother said I looked amazing and his friend thought I was sexy (I met his friend when I was like 16, is the weird part...hardcore drug adducted tattoo artist).

I have a family wedding to go to in Sept soo, I'll be even more different by  then. I plan on getting my hair (which should be a nice length then) done, wearin somethin slutty, pushing ma boobs up to kingdom come, and pulling out aaall the stops, makeup wise.

Yeah I cant wait to mindflip my relatives who live affar and old friends
the thing is that we expect them all to be all like "oh wow you ve changed so much amazing etc"
but im sure some of them will also be like "oh wtf ,,,ok,thats wierd , ok yeah you ve change, god k let me go already "

or somethin :/

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*edited creatively for language ; )*

Quote from: Jen on April 28, 2014, 11:36:21 PM
I wouldn't say I have ever looked forward to it (I wish I did) but going into the big reveal I have always been too filled with dread and trepidation to feel anything else.  But some reactions have been pretty priceless and totally funny to watch once the moment has actually come.

I actually want to come out and be a complete mindF to this forum but gorgeous gals like you in the photo threads raises the bar (5 or so notches) along with my InSeCuRiTy! 

Still. Got. Work. To. Do.

Ugh!

It hasn't exactly been fun for me.  Usually, I'm dreading any reaction from people I haven't seen in a few months and it turns out okay.  Most of the time they have this look on their face that says "what the hell is going on with him" and then they put on this phony voice that indicates they know something is going on but they would prefer ignoring the elephant in the room.  It's funny you mention this thread now because it's my mom's birthday tomorrow and I'm going to see some people that I haven't seen in a few months.  I've changed even more since then.  I don't know how much longer I can hide or pretend nothing is going on. 

  I've been slowing shifting my appearance over two years but I'm still in guy-mode to most people.  Recently I was at a get-together with some old colleagues.  One of them hadn't seen me for almost that long and didn't even recognize me until I finally approached them and said hi.  Just imagine how much they would have freaked out if I'd gone as female.  Maybe in the future I can shock them for a second time!

I am in Orange County CA and will be meeting a group (40) of people I have not seen for a year (11 months of which I have been on HRT amd I have not cut my hair for 14 months). I will have male slacks and a shirt. I have been told I look different and in a few hours I will see. These people are very astute. The next few days will be fun!

By the way, Orange County is so much nicer than Philadelphia! Clean, warm, sunny, well maintained and has mountains and surf close by. If it was not for the pretzels I would pull up anchor and head west for good

   I have stood next to people at stores that I worked with for 30+years that had no clue who I was, as long as I don't speak. Then I have met people for lunch that I have not seen in over a year and they---well--kodac moment ! My daughter calls it shock and awe-- s--t!    It does sort out true friends from the rest of the herd.

Yeah, I can't wait. Soon as I start estrogen =/

Quote from: Evelyn K on April 29, 2014, 04:16:23 PM
I actually want to come out and be a complete mindF to this forum but gorgeous gals like you in the photo threads raises the bar (5 or so notches) along with my InSeCuRiTy! 

Still. Got. Work. To. Do.

Ugh!

Thank you, but truly, insecurity is an inside-our-heads thing and more often than not is completely unwarranted.  I live inside my head sometimes with all these whirling distorted pictures of reality and overcoming self-doubt is a constant (meaning it never isn't happening) struggle.

I don't want to burst any possible happy bubbles of vengeance, but a short tale for you..

Last November I went to my 20yr HS reunion.. I'd not been to the 10yr.. Or any others.. But I thought I'd go to the 20th.. After all, I had some news. 3 people on the guest list knew about my transition and I know none of them talked..

The lack of surprise and mind frackery was a huge disappointment to me. There was one guy who refused to believe I was who I said I was.. A handy friend with a Yr 9 school pic on his phone sorted that one.. But no one cared.. No one was surprised.. One of the girls turned to me and said, 'No one would have been surprised in HS had you told us you had a vagina.. You were always one of us..'

Six of the guys I'd had a lot of trouble with in HS were the first to leap to my defence when some nerf herder tried to smack me with a plastic glass.. (Dude, if you're gonna glass me, use a damn glass!) Attempts to thank them led to me being told 'No thanks are needed, we'd have done it for any of the girls..'

So no real surprise and no mind frackery at all.. Just a whole lot of acceptance and support I didn't expect.

No, not really. I don't worry about people I don't see very often. It's the people I'm close to that don't seem to notice how much I'm changing that worries me. I wish I didn't have to upset anyone.

Quote from: kelly_aus on April 30, 2014, 12:38:40 AM
I don't want to burst any possible happy bubbles of vengeance, but a short tale for you..

Last November I went to my 20yr HS reunion.. I'd not been to the 10yr.. Or any others.. But I thought I'd go to the 20th.. After all, I had some news. 3 people on the guest list knew about my transition and I know none of them talked..

The lack of surprise and mind frackery was a huge disappointment to me. There was one guy who refused to believe I was who I said I was.. A handy friend with a Yr 9 school pic on his phone sorted that one.. But no one cared.. No one was surprised.. One of the girls turned to me and said, 'No one would have been surprised in HS had you told us you had a vagina.. You were always one of us..'

Six of the guys I'd had a lot of trouble with in HS were the first to leap to my defence when some nerf herder tried to smack me with a plastic glass.. (Dude, if you're gonna glass me, use a damn glass!) Attempts to thank them led to me being told 'No thanks are needed, we'd have done it for any of the girls..'

So no real surprise and no mind frackery at all.. Just a whole lot of acceptance and support I didn't expect.

That's been my experience too. People have rarely been that surprised (with the exception of my immediate family ironically), and in general the attitude has been very supportive. My tenth high school reunion is coming up next year, and I'm seriously debating if I should go. High school was really the period when I was in the deepest denial about who I really was, and the person I was in high school is not something I'd ever want to return to, nor is it something I want to be reminded of. The version of me my friends in high school met is so different from who I am now, it would be less like a reunion and more like meeting me for the first time. Which could still go well... or it could just end up being uncomfortable and awkward.

Eh... I hate to be a cold shower but I never really dropped jaws or anything like that when I see people for the first time. What drops peoples jaws is getting them to see my transition video and they remember what I used to look like.