So today started out fine enough. Like whatever, I didn't have any finals today I just had work at one and I was trying to figure out how to get to work cause I'm low on money and cabs are kinda expensive and my bike tires are flat and I either haven't been home to fix them or I just forget when I am home and my mom's not being clear with me on how I'm getting to work so I was under the impression she's going to give me a ride cause she's complaining she won't be getting a nap.
So now she's all like, "Have you called a cab yet?" and I'm like god what cause ya I thought she was giving me a ride and then I go to call the cab and she's now being a brat and yelling at me for it and saying she'll give me the ride and so I'm on the phone with the cab people to cancel and I'm slightly annoyed, whatever, and I just got a new haircut (see profile pic I'll post it on this too) and she's being a bigger brat and is like, "Nice dyke haircut." and oh god did that set me off.
Ok nothing I do is ever good enough for this woman. I work over 40 hours a week, I go to college, I'm trying to get a place with my girlfriend to get out of her damned way and she still has to pick these fights with me. So ya I got mad. I got really mad. I started yelling after she made the dyke comment and I'm cussing and cursing and screaming and kind of crying at this point and I'm just so mad and upset. I called her an ignorant tw** and a witch with a capital B and I'm just going off. Ok like I probably shouldn't have said the things I did but she's always doing these things to me. 28 years of my life is spent dealing with her BS. NOTHING I DO IS GOOD ENOUGH.
She wants to pretend I'm not trans and she wants me out of the house she wanted me to have a job (which i do) and she wanted me in college, which I am, and she just never gives me any freaking credit.
So I go to work in tears basically. But my co-workers are pretty cool and they cheered me up for a while until I got stuck with dish duty and now all I got is me and dishes to keep me company and my mind started to wander back to earlier today and I got frustrated all over again.
I just don't know what more to do anymore. It's a waiting game for me and my girlfriend to get a place at this point...
/end rant
