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My low self-esteem is making me suicidial..? I don't wanna be a short male..

Started by MartyMcfly, March 26, 2014, 05:39:03 PM

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StormOfThorns

I'm 5' even and completely broke. Stuck the way I am. I've noticed there are a lot of short cis gender males. How do you think asians and mexicans feel? Sheesh. There are some things you gotta tough out. If you want it bad enough... they aren't gonna letcha on hormones if you are "unstable". Really, there is nothing to worry about. The body and brain do not stop growing/developing until age 26. The sooner you are on the hormones, perhaps you can catch it in time. I like to think of myself as ninja-height, lol. Who is gonna be the first one to be shot in a spree? The tall folks! I get asked for help all the time cause of my.. er.. stature! Ah well, sometimes you havta just go with it.
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aleon515

Ninja height?! Hmm, I like that one. Most females are taller than I am, but there are still cisguys might height. Really it is NOT at all worth feeling suicidal over. It is not the end of life as we know it.

Btw, where are you getting Asian clothes. I'd love to know that. I understand there are nice stores, but we don't have any here (surprising maybe as we have lots of Mexicans here in NM and they tend to be on the short side).

Also, you are going to be an adult sometime. Adults are much less worried about such things.

--Jay
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Arch

At a concert the other night, I ran into a number of guys who were significantly shorter than I am. Some guys are just short. And it's common for men to worry about their height. All the same, short cis guys don't have all of the other trans crap to deal with. For us, many things get blown out of proportion, and many feelings are heightened. Just recognize that there ARE a lot of shorter men out there who DO come to terms with their height and DO live happy lives, and you can be one of them if you hang in there and try to weather the storm. Eventually, you will likely care less and less. Hell, I was worried about my height while I was early in transition, and that feeling passed after I acquired more confidence--slowly. I do have the advantage of being a reasonable height for a trans man, but I was still obsessed. And now I'm not. I would love to be taller, but I'm not. I am who I am, and my confidence comes not from being as tall as I am but from WHO I am.

Give yourself time, and actively tell yourself that your obsession can pass and that height really doesn't matter all that much.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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aleon515

Well I have seen guys *shorter* than me but it's not often (but I have seen a LOT of guys, presumably cis) who were around the same height. My build is unusual for a guy but I do see it enough that it's not *that* unusual. The one time I saw someone significantly shorter, I realized he was a little person (dwarf). Actually looked up Little People of America. I am 1" too tall as a male.

I would agree with others that once you start getting read as male, it's fairly powerful stuff. You see that other people don't really give a darn.

--Jay
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Daydreamer

I'm a short guy, 4'11" or so to be exact. My doctor said it was unlikely I'd break beyond 5'2" and I stopped growing when I was like 12, so I can't be too mad.

I take comfort in other short guys (I think the one tumblr blog is fyeahshortguys or something) so I don't feel as bad. One of my friends is cis and he's the same height as me so it helps my confidence a bit knowing I'm not really alone. If your height gets you down, try shoe lifts.
"Stay tuned next for the sound of your own thoughts, broadcast live on the radio for all to hear." -- Cecil (Welcome to Night Vale)

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Exus

Quote from: StormOfThorns on April 24, 2014, 11:29:47 PM
I'm 5' even and completely broke. Stuck the way I am. I've noticed there are a lot of short cis gender males. How do you think asians and mexicans feel? Sheesh. There are some things you gotta tough out. If you want it bad enough... they aren't gonna letcha on hormones if you are "unstable". Really, there is nothing to worry about. The body and brain do not stop growing/developing until age 26. The sooner you are on the hormones, perhaps you can catch it in time. I like to think of myself as ninja-height, lol. Who is gonna be the first one to be shot in a spree? The tall folks! I get asked for help all the time cause of my.. er.. stature! Ah well, sometimes you havta just go with it.

I'm 5'1.5  or 5'2, Mexican  8)
Sure sucks to be stuck at this height, but whatever, I know mexican cis guys my height or smaller plus Mexican chicks are either my height or smaller. My current girlfriend is 5'8  ;D
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Ayden

I'm 5'6 but I have met lots if guys here in Japan who are shorter. In fact, the fathers of several of my preschool students are between 5'1 and 5'4. Those include a sports trainer with his own gym, a real estate lawyer, a police officer and an investment banker. My husbands best friend (who jokes that hes an "average white dude) is an actor in New York, stands only 5'3.

I've know so many short guys even in my own family. My cousin Chad is 30 and 5'2, my brother is 5'6 just like me. There are actually a lot of really short guys, and they all worry about their height. But I haven't known even one of them to have trouble in their lives. My uncle (5'5) jokes that being short. I would post some of them, but uncle Denver isn't exactly PC.

If it helps though, I was 5'3 until I hit about 18. People stop growing anywhere from 16-25 on average. Our skulls/brains aren't even fully fused until we get into our 20's, so it's hard to know exactly how tall you will end up being. If you do stay short, just know that there are so many guys who share your experience, trans and not.
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FTMDiaries

I'm short too: 1.55 metres, or 5'2 in old money.

Initially I let my lack of height put me off transitioning. I grew up in a country of very tall men (mostly around the 6ft mark) where shorter men were bullied and ridiculed for their lack of height. I didn't want to be picked on like that after everything I've already been through, so I went into denial.

Skip forward a mere two decades, and I was once again ready to transition. I started looking around me - really looking around me - and I noticed that there are plenty of guys around my height, and a few who are even shorter. I see them every single day. Their lack of height doesn't stop them from being men: why should it stop me?

Another way to think about it is this: think about any concern you might have that is putting you off transitioning. It doesn't matter what it is: your height, your voice, your chest... whatever. Now imagine that you'd been born a cismale with those same characteristics: would you feel forced to transition and live your life as a woman simply because you're too short? Or have a high-pitched voice? Or moobs? No, of course you wouldn't: you'd still be a man. So don't let these doubts get in your way.

And by the way... the real Marty McFly is just a smidge over 5'3. ;)





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Arch

Oops, FTMDiaries, I was applauding you and got bumped (and inadvertently clawed, ouch) by a cat. Now you have a weirdly misspelled and unfinished applaud!

Maybe I'll ask FA to reverse it so I can do it right. ::)
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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FTMDiaries






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Arch

FA Fixed it.

I can't bear to trim this guy's claws because he's disabled and needs those long, sharp front claws to get around. ::)
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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Xenguy

I'm an astonishing 5'2 ((5'3 if I force myself)) and even though I'm young, that's probably as tall as I'll ever get, even when I start T. My advice is, instead of making it a bad thing, make it a great thing! Most of my cismale friends are taller than me ((Though I have a few who are shorter than me)) So they find it incredibly surprising when they find out I can beat them in an arm wrestle, or run faster than them with my short legs. 8D

Even when my friends make short jokes ((Which I love by the way)) I can always be like "Well, I can ___ better than you!" All in a joking manner of course! And it seems to be a theme or something in my school, but tall guys find shorter guys to be stronger or more intimidating XD There's nothing like a great dane running away from a ruthless chihuahua XP
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Hex

If it helps any, google short male actors. You'd be surprised how short a lot of well known, successful and amazing dudes there are.

I'm 5'3" and I too get depressed a bit when I think about being this short and a guy, but despite that I know I'm not alone and height isn't everything.

Also before I forget, google height increasing exercises. There are some neat ones you can try to stretch your spine out a bit and help that won't do damage to you and since you(I would assume are still under 18) they might help a lot.
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Emerson


Quote from: Arch on May 01, 2014, 01:52:18 AM
At a concert the other night, I ran into a number of guys who were significantly shorter than I am. Some guys are just short. And it's common for men to worry about their height. All the same, short cis guys don't have all of the other trans crap to deal with. For us, many things get blown out of proportion, and many feelings are heightened. Just recognize that there ARE a lot of shorter men out there who DO come to terms with their height and DO live happy lives, and you can be one of them if you hang in there and try to weather the storm. Eventually, you will likely care less and less. Hell, I was worried about my height while I was early in transition, and that feeling passed after I acquired more confidence--slowly. I do have the advantage of being a reasonable height for a trans man, but I was still obsessed. And now I'm not. I would love to be taller, but I'm not. I am who I am, and my confidence comes not from being as tall as I am but from WHO I am.

Give yourself time, and actively tell yourself that your obsession can pass and that height really doesn't matter all that much.

When I isolate one attribute, like hight, I can see a lot of cismen who are outside the gender norms. It's when I think about many attributes in combination that I start to get dysphoria. Height, shoulders, hips, face structure. Few cismen are short, with narrow shoulders, with a round face...
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Skyler

I'm 5'1 i guess the only bad thing is you have to find stores that make clothes your size.......xs please :P?
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aleon515

Quote from: Emerson on May 02, 2014, 10:34:21 PM
When I isolate one attribute, like hight, I can see a lot of cismen who are outside the gender norms. It's when I think about many attributes in combination that I start to get dysphoria. Height, shoulders, hips, face structure. Few cismen are short, with narrow shoulders, with a round face...

Usually T will widen your shoulders and square off your face a bit, but really I haven't seen that many short trans guys who aren't read as male after about a year on T.

--Jay
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Ms Grace

I have a trans guy friend who is about 5', he's been on T for about five years now and if his height is a problem for him he never mentions it. Contrast that with a cis guy friend about the same height for whom his height is a constant topic of lament.
Grace
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Transition 1.0 (Julie): HRT 1989-91
Self-denial: 1991-2013
Transition 2.0 (Grace): HRT June 24 2013
Full-time: March 24, 2014 :D
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MartyMcfly

Quote from: DevonJermiah2 on April 23, 2014, 10:54:08 PM
Hey Brotha,
I am 5'3 and half and I know the feeling. For a long time it got to me, I bought the shoes, and tried other things. But what helped me was realizing there are TONS of guys who are short. Here is a good site that might cheer you up!

http://->-bleeped-<-yeahshortguys.tumblr.com/page/4

I also know that Frankie Muniez is 5'3 and hes had women left and right. lol Cheer up bro!

Dev
thanks man, that page kinda pissed me off tho, some of those heights werent even short but i guess
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JHeron

I in no way am saying you do this but someone already mentioned there is a surgical procedure that you can do if it is that important to you. Personally to me I have wanted to be around 5'7 to 5'8 all my life and being 5'3 it really does mess with my head every single day I wear insoles in my boots and am terrified to ever encounter a situation where I'd have to take them off.. It plain sucks man you know that everyone that's ever  felt like this know it but it's about how far it bothers you honestly get lifts or the surgery I am have been saving for years. It's your life and at the end of the day if you new something to change  do it.
Suffering -- had given her a heart to understand what my heart used to be.
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