I finally sent an email to my admissions counselor about me being transgender and wanting to go by Jace and male pronouns next year and asking about the dorm situation. Ahhh I'm not sure how to feel, I'm really nervous and excited. It's one of the biggest steps I've made so far in my transition. It finally hit me that this is real, that I am actually going to start transitioning. It seems so surreal.

Congratulations Jace! That's a huge step.

Well done! Of course it's scary to take a step like that, but you should feel proud of yourself for having the courage to ask for what you need.

Since you wrote to your admissions counselor, I assume you're just starting college... that's sort of a big scary/exciting step all by itself!

Mazel Tov!

Jace, congrats man! That's a big step indeed! I took it this year too, and will be starting next year as male and with my male name and all. I recognise you feeling; excited but also nervous. Lots of insecurities fly through my head, like what if people don't see me as really male (I am pre everything, so my voice and looks are still on the feminine side, even though I did a lot to look more masculine already), if I will act 'male enough' (sometimes I am afraid I am too chatty, emotional and sensitive for a guy (not in the sense that I cry or dramatise stuff, but I just empathise with people easily and am quite soft and talkative too). I am afraid I am not 'tough enough' and will appear like a sissy... so yeah... lots of fears too. But generally I am very happy for this step. I recognise the feeling of it 'finally becoming real' and it feeling surreal too. I think it's pretty normal!

Yeah I feel like that to Erik. I'm super chatty and while I'm fairly masculine, I still act girly a lot, especially when I get excited. I'm just hoping that everything will work out, I'm more of a I'll worry about it when I get to it type.

He emailed me back by the way and I wanted to cry I was so happy. He addressed me as Jace and was basically super helpful and understanding. I was havig second thoughts about transitioning again right after I sent that email but I know I made the right decision. There's other transgender kids that he is going to try to get me in contact with and the school is figuring out gender neutral options right now as they are brand new dorms and there's a lot of details that need to be worked out. He did ask me if I only had the choice between 3 cis guys or 3 cis girls to room with(it's 2 bedroom suite style) what I would prefer. Aah I'm so happy.

How does 3 people living in 2 BR suites supposed to work? 

Oh and groovie taking that leap and finding acceptance!

It's 3 plus me, so 2 to a bedroom.

College dorms still do that? Even to freshmen?

I could see how that could get awkward sliced either way...