My experience is very atypical, so I like to post elements of my story so other people who also don't fit the traditional mold don't feel like they're alone.

My biggest issue early on is that I didn't see myself as a woman in a man's body, I had never cross-dressed, and I didn't have debilitating dysphoria, so I assumed I couldn't be MtF.

Now I know that there is immense variety in our experiences, mostly from reading this site. I want to make sure everyone has that information.

I try to avoid giving advice unless I think there's something that someone desperately needs to hear. I mostly try to talk from my own experiences.

Quote from: Sephirah on May 07, 2014, 12:20:12 PM
I say probably 20% of what I should, and about 5% of what I want to, lol.

I'll leave it there.

Lol, you have a better filter than me, but yeah

Here I am having a meltdown on another thread and you all helping me AGAIN.

Don't hold back girls, no matter what is said, the caring speaks loud and soothing and clear.

Quote from: Satinjoy on May 07, 2014, 01:07:24 PM
Here I am having a meltdown on another thread and you all helping me AGAIN.

Don't hold back girls, no matter what is said, the caring speaks loud and soothing and clear.

Sorry to hear your having troubles Girlfriend. Anything I can do to help?

Ally

No dear, the crisis is past, the special people of trans here intervened, and I survived another day and agonizing night with a new appreciation of the power and the danger of dysphoria.

It was a dangerous night.  I have much to be greatful for.  I also have had a major breakthrough concerning who I am trans and where this is all headed for me.  I still have a shot at a happy life here.  I still have a wife.  I did not drink.  I did not flee.

I appreciate your offer.  A lot.  Ally you have a very special innocence about you that is priceless by the way and it shines through in your posts.

God Bless.

Self deception kills.  Please girls be true to your selves and know who you are inside, standing firm and protecting that core.

And if people had held back and not spoken out while I was so close to the edge, I might not be around right now, I could have been in a psych ward or worse.  The risk of sharing for them was well taken.  All of them helped, whether the points were on target or not, for it was the caring and outpouring of support and concern that got me through the night until I could get wise to what was going on with me.

Blessings to all here and to our silent watchers.  See what we have to endure?  Join us, nobody need be alone.

Quote from: Satinjoy on May 08, 2014, 04:17:31 PM
No dear, the crisis is past, the special people of trans here intervened, and I survived another day and agonizing night with a new appreciation of the power and the danger of dysphoria.

I appreciate your offer.  A lot.  Ally you have a very special innocence about you that is priceless by the way and it shines through in your posts.

God Bless.

Blessings to all here and to our silent watchers.  See what we have to endure?  Join us, nobody need be alone.

I'm very happy your still with us and your crisis is over. I've been there on that edge and I know how scary it is. Sounds like you beat the monster well. Take care Girlfriend. And remember I'm only a pm away if you need to talk.

Thank you for the lovely compliment sweetie.

Hugs,

Ally