My name and gender change will be official within the next couple weeks, I'm so excited to be at this point! Though I'm feeling a bit upset, it's all normal. The initial excitements of transition are finally over, being a woman is now normal. I don't have much more to worry about, I'm starting to settle in and I can just about live peacefully as any other girl. I'm not worried about being clocked as I pass, a janitor apologized to me yesterday for holding me up from the women's bathroom loll. For lack of a better word I'm passing, for once in my life I can finally feel at peace with myself. The only thing I have left is bottom surgery next year and I'm already thinking, now what? I have pretty much met my goal and I feel a bit empty now that I really don't need to work much on my transition.

I think this is why they say "its about the journey, not the destination". I guess its something we all must come to at some point. It really depends on you.

I personally can't wait to get to your point, Simply because I kind of crave the life of the average girl, not for the sake of society, but for the sake of that "inner peace" you described.

In a way, you can look at it this way: you never really stop transitioning ~ so look for other ways to improve yourself

It's such a weird feeling, just a year ago when I was on a few months into hurt I never thought I would "pass" or actually be a girl but a year later I'm totally happy. It took a lot of hard work, so many tears, so much joy and basically being an all around emotional roller coaster. I've lost so many but gained some great friends and have began truly knowing what love is.

Hugs for you, Riley!  Emily's right, I can not wait either!

Right now I'm in the "i'll probably never pass", hard work and tears part, slowly moving into the joy part. I've begun losing my friends but by choice because they were poisonous to my transition. I told my wife the other day, "I know im crying now, and I have this unending fear that I will never blend... but I just hope I'm wrong... I hope I can look back and realize what a fool I was to think I'd never reach my goal."

I suppose its like any other experience in life; sometimes the only way you can believe it, is to experience it yourself, despite everyone telling you "you will be fine.", reaching the point of being happy is what it  takes to stop a moment and look back and think "I wish I would've known this back then, maybe I wouldn't have stressed on it so much."

Ive actually taken a liking to intense work-outs xD it takes my mind of my transition while at the same time being a productive activity that makes me healthier and more fit in its practice I guess its one of those things that my brain goes "if I never pass, at least I'll be physically fit."

But you look young and pretty loll. This is me pre transition, September 2011.


March 2012


I looked old and was balding. Hormones work wonders but they take forever and it takes a lot of effort. I'm the poster child for regrown hair! Let the hormones take their time :]

0_0 wow... What a transformation!

I guess I worry more about my body than anything really. I have this bad habit of believing that all my pictures are false even though I don't edit my pictures save for a bit of extra lighting to make it a bit more visible. I almost make myself believe that my pictures of me aren't really of me xD

You know how they say that when you take a picture of someone, you capture their soul, I guess I feel like in pictures, my soul shines bare, and in person I make myself believe that I look like someone else entirely. I know, I'm crazy lol

But I digress, you have such a pretty face ^.^ i can't wait for this year to pass.

As per the original topic of the post; pick up an instrument or get singing lessons hehe

I'm really amazed at my own transition, havig that body I never thought I'd pass. I was convinced I needed a wig for life and all of these surgeries but now I can see I am in no need of anything. It's been a blessing and you gotta be patient with transition.

I have been playing guitar for years already lol, I am now ready to live my life.

Reaching the 'end' of your journey isn't really the end of anything.. It's really just the start of something else - LIFE!

Quote from: kelly_aus on May 13, 2014, 05:39:41 PM
Reaching the 'end' of your journey isn't really the end of anything.. It's really just the start of something else - LIFE!

ditto

I'm really glad it's going well Riley.  And don't feel empty, there is still much for you to experience.