I am just soo... I had my second Endo appt today. Tho I told him, in my first appt three weeks ago, I decided to revert, to keep my family (that's another post), and that I was on herbs for 7months, (he said, they don't work.. Well, I didn't get these boobs eating carrots, 'mate). I wanted to go on a low dose/micro dose to balance me, ease this pain inside, especially now that I had stopped my herb program (3 weeks ago). He said I have to work out my social aspect before he will give me anything, "so come back in a month".
He would not give me anything. I am beyond ... distraught, upset, bummed, I cried leaving the office. even tho I had stopped, I still.. wanted.. needed.. my mind, is so messed up. I'll show him, I still have a months worth of my herb program left. The AndroEase and Feminol will take the edge off, I will have them to fall back on, to stay with them to low-dose cope.
I was so hoping to get real E, to sleep, to ease this pain inside, to stop this battle, between good, and evil.
A month.. a month of little sleep, aches, headaches, anger, anxiety, rage.