Quote from: Shantel on May 15, 2014, 03:15:17 PM

Don't be sad, you have a long way to go yet, cheer up and know that you have graced these pages here at Susan's in remarkably beautiful style and we here are all happy that you were born and we are happy to know you as much as we are able. Happy Birthday Barbie Doll!

Thanks, Shan!
Yes. I will continue to try to defy my biological age. My wife prepared some special food for my birthday.

barbie~~

starting testosterone to detransition for the sake of my wife

Quote from: anita.brown on May 16, 2014, 05:51:22 AM
starting testosterone to detransition for the sake of my wife

Good luck Anita, I did that some time back, it's complicated....wishing you well though!

I just used the "F Word" (not the ->-bleeped-<- one) to reply to an OKcupid creep that proposed to meet and have me topping him. Is one of those things I fully try to avoid given my circunstances and being more lesbian than bisexual right now, but sheeesh. Guys asking me to go al porn ->-bleeped-<- on me trigger my hair temper.

I just lost my job.

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 11:02:25 AM
I just lost my job.

God, I am so sorry for that.

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 11:02:25 AM
I just lost my job.

Sorry hon, what happened?

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 11:02:25 AM
I just lost my job.

Is it not easy to get another job?

barbie~~

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 11:02:25 AM
I just lost my job.

I can relate. HUGS Rainbow.

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 16, 2014, 11:02:25 AM
I just lost my job.

I'm very sorry to hear Rainbow. Hopefully it won't be long before you find a better higher paying job. Hang in there.

Hugs

Ally

Jobs are overrated.

QuoteRe: What made you unhappy today?

F'n  goldfish crackers. I can't stop eating them.

Pharmacies and credit card companies/banks. Been too long already and it seems as if its going to be a hell of a lot longer without too.

My friend Reaver left this evening. I'm very sad to see him go, and I'll miss him dearly. Now with the exception of my SO I'm alone again...........

Ally

My insurance is raising my pharmacy charge and refusing claims left and right without telling me beforehand or why.
Great job, Tricare. Pick on the transwoman because she has no rights. Can't sue for discrimination.

I understand the point of this thread but I think dwelling/overthinking the bad things are keeping us in a hard place for longer than we need to be. Try to shift your thoughts to a positive light! I know it's hard ladies and gentlemen bet go do something you love! Do some art, listen to music, sing, play an instrument, dance like a loon in your room! Try to work something super silly into your daily routine and it'll break the overbearing monotony of life!

I love you all!
Nether

Oh Jill, I totally feel for you and completely understand. I had a friend kill himself and I was so upset about his kids. I was so mad. And over the years I've healed but I still don't understand how he could leave his kids like that. It took me a long time to get over it. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.

Quote from: Jill F on May 14, 2014, 05:57:39 PM
***WARNING- THIS IS HEAVILY DEPRESSING SH*T BUT I HAD TO VENT IT***
Well, I got more details from my departed friend's cousin today, and I have to say I'm angry, sad and more than a bit depressed over it.  My old friend had a major drug and alcohol problem for many years, and finally got clean for real about a dozen years ago.  He had fought off so many demons and we were all grateful that he was no longer a danger to himself or others.  Apparently he was in a pretty serious motorcycle accident about a year ago and sustained injuries that prevented him from working as a contractor ever since.  He became addicted to prescription painkillers, xanax and who knows what else, then relapsed on the booze.  His girlfriend of many years, with whom he had an eight year old daughter told him enough was enough and finally left him earlier this week.  He was found dead by his brother alongside empty pill bottles that he had washed down with hard liquor.  Apparently this did not come as a surprise.

I feel so bad for his daughter that he apparently adored so much that I can't stop crying right now.  I really feel more for her than I do for him.  I hope she will be OK and not get permanently f***ed up in the head like my niece did when my brother-in-law died.

What a bastard.  If you were here to b*tchslap I'd be doing it repeatedly, you GDMFSOB.

It has just sunk in how much more money I will have to spend on Dr's visits, scripts and prescriptions and the increase till I reach the safety cap so I can get them for less.  Once our budget becomes law. ( It's needed but sometimes you just want to scream viva la revolution. All those politicians in the one spot and Guy Fawkes nowhere about )

My S.O., I'm actually sitting in the bacement crying, typing on my phone. I'd go get a bottle of wine but I don't have the strength right now. It's hard to live sometimes.

I'll be better tomorrow.

Quote from: nether on May 16, 2014, 05:59:42 PM
I understand the point of this thread but I think dwelling/overthinking the bad things are keeping us in a hard place for longer than we need to be. Try to shift your thoughts to a positive light! I know it's hard ladies and gentlemen bet go do something you love! Do some art, listen to music, sing, play an instrument, dance like a loon in your room! Try to work something super silly into your daily routine and it'll break the overbearing monotony of life!

I love you all!
Nether

I have been doing artwork. I do my best work when I am bummed out.

*Sigh* I don't have a life. Huh? What's that? Do I work? Why yes, yes I do and I enjoy doing it, it gives some sort of life to what no life I have but when you realize you are working and are either just barely making it by or losing a bit of money each month and can't go anywhere, have fun, spend money etc. and actually HAVE a life, well, that's just too depressing. (This also means even if I had rl friends to hang out with, I couldn't hang out with them as that costs money, money in which I don't have..) Stupid government, stupid minimum wedge. Thanks to these two factors, I am stuck between a rock and a hard place and trust me, that hard place is harder than I am making it sound. lol Sometimes I just wonder why I was ever born? Oh, did I mention I can't even afford hormones let alone to save up for surgeries and not even retirement either. If I had a cry right now button that makes me cry I would so push it right now, just to feel a bit better, till I realize by doing so, I've just wasted precious tissue which I'll have to later pay for.

If only I had a room mate, that is my only hope of saving money right now and there's practically nothing I can do to find one, let alone get one.. excuse me while I go sulk and be all depressed for a while... ...