I want to work out, but my stomach is full.  It's better if I wait to let this food digest. 

So I just found out that a mother that would come to our church from time to time with her kids has a girlfriend.  I may be trans and affirming, but it still surprises me in a way just because I'm not used to people I know being somewhat out.  She also has some LBGT-friendly Facebook sites she liked on hers, which I thought was cool.  Her daughter also has a girlfriend, which I already knew about.  I'll just stop right ther with my thoughts on that as I don't want to potentially offend anyone.

So last night was...

Yeah...

i'm thinking i might have to revert back into my old coping ways if this doesnt work

Considering making a list of "100 things you should do before SRS".

I keep getting shin splints. Maybe I should give my legs a rest with the walking, but it's not like this has been more walking then I'm used to.

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 11:02:26 AM
i'm thinking i might have to revert back into my old coping ways if this doesnt work.

What are your old coping ways and do they work?

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 12:17:17 PM
I keep getting shin splints. Maybe I should give my legs a rest with the walking, but it's not like this has been more walking then I'm used to.
What are your old coping ways and do they work?

my old coping ways would get me committed to the hospital and they work but only for like an hour or less. i really wanna go swimming (serves as my destresser) but i can't -.-

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 12:27:04 PM
my old coping ways would get me committed to the hospital and they work but only for like an hour or less. i really wanna go swimming (serves as my destresser) but i can't -.-

Time to try something else.

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 12:41:34 PM
Time to try something else.

dancing in the rain barefooted in NY? lol

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 12:42:18 PM
dancing in the rain barefooted in NY? lol

lol Watch out for glass. I mean as coping methods. I'll see if I can find my old stuff and put it up here somewhere, but it's hidden in a box right now.

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 12:49:30 PM
lol Watch out for glass. I mean as coping methods. I'll see if I can find my old stuff and put it up here somewhere, but it's hidden in a box right now.

ah coping skills. i can always become a hermit and live in the mountains xD

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 12:58:54 PM
ah coping skills. i can always become a hermit and live in the mountains xD

That's tempting. The rockies of BC are particularly beautiful.

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 01:05:25 PM
That's tempting. The rockies of BC are particularly beautiful.

even though anything that has more then 6 legs, is a rodent or crawls or slithers on its stomach scares me to the point my screams would split the earth into many tiny pieces because of the bone chilling, blood curdling screams, i still like to hike so ROAD TRIP! xD

i just took a test and it showed i was extreme o.o are these tests even accurate? 

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 01:53:46 PM
i just took a test and it showed i was extreme o.o are these tests even accurate? 

Extremely what?

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 02:46:57 PM
Extremely what?

my dysphoria is on the high end of extreme due to my answers. i was just browsing around and said oh i'll see what i get and well, i got extremely dysphoric which isnt inaccurate but still, are those types of tests even accurate? 

I'm thinking about rollerblading and successfully doing tricks with the skates (in reality, I'd end up in hospital).

"Be careful what you're wishin' for
Now that you've opened up that door

You might scream, you might shout
Trying to suss it out, sinkin' low"

Quote from: Umiko Liliana on May 16, 2014, 02:51:48 PM
my dysphoria is on the high end of extreme due to my answers. i was just browsing around and said oh i'll see what i get and well, i got extremely dysphoric which isnt inaccurate but still, are those types of tests even accurate? 

Internet tests? No. That sucks that you have a lot of dysphoria though.

I wish I could share all the things I like with my friends.

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2014, 03:34:07 PM
Internet tests? No. That sucks that you have a lot of dysphoria though.

I wish I could share all the things I like with my friends.

it really does. the type of dysphoria i have is strong enough to make god hit the ground and cry a new ocean o.o but if it wasnt for this, i wouldnt of met you all  so in a sense some good came out of it and it really made me realize whats more important in my life, so i'm thinking i'm grateful 

*strokes my chin* "Oh, I missed a spot."

"Wait, no I didn't, I left that part unshaven because I'm  trying to grow a goatee."

I like it actually, so far. It doesn't look good yet, needs more time, but it's a nice balance between having facial hair and not feeling itchy and uncomfortable. The cheeks/lower neck are smooth and feel nice, but still got the hairiness on the chin.