I need something nice to happen to me today.   So far today has pretty much blown goats other than the fact I got to have brunch out with one of my best friends.  I really can't wait for my vacation next week.  Getting away just can't come soon enough for me right now.

Circumstances seem to have been laughing me in the face lately and I just got shafted yet again. 

I'm a slut and a b-ch with a bad personality and a sick f-d up brain. I'm sick of myself. At least I'm pretty, if I try. There's that. Everybody's like ohh, you should model lol. My mom was just telling me that today, actually..she was like "you could be a supermodel". Funny. That requires such..aspiration and like...drive haha. I don't have any of that. All my pretty face is gonna get me is on my knees. Or my back. Or hell, in recent developments on top of someone else hahah.

And nobody really cares. I'm ranting here cuuz...I dunno why lol! But I don't expect any of you to care, so I'm sorry for always b-ching and moaning, here. The only people that care are the ones who wanna touch me...and even then, they only really care if they *can* and in the end that's all they really care about. But in peoples defense I don't give much to love. So yeah.

In other news, some guy asked me if I had lip injections today, loolwuut xD i was like 'heeell naw, fool, these are aall mine' haha

Quote from: Abbyxo on May 16, 2014, 05:28:02 PM
In other news, some guy asked me if I had lip injections today, loolwuut xD i was like 'heeell naw, fool, these are aall mine' haha

is everything ok? lol, your getting me worried

Quote from: birkin on May 16, 2014, 04:17:39 PM
*strokes my chin* "Oh, I missed a spot."

"Wait, no I didn't, I left that part unshaven because I'm  trying to grow a goatee."

Like Tony Stark?

I wish! Unfortunately, it doesn't travel too high up the front chin - just kind of peeks up. My mustache is also questionable, so I may end up with one of those "just on the chin" beards. We'll see.

Quote from: birkin on May 16, 2014, 05:35:01 PM
I wish! Unfortunately, it doesn't travel too high up the front chin - just kind of peeks up. My mustache is also questionable, so I may end up with one of those "just on the chin" beards. We'll see.

Just please don't do the chin strap beard.   Around here, those are for d-bag hipsters who think their pork pie hats make them look cool.

Don't worry lol. I won't. I hate hair around the ears.

It gets better.  It can only get better.  This crappy week will be over soon and next week will be awesome.  IT WILL BE AWESOME, right?

Quote from: Jill F on May 16, 2014, 07:45:20 PM
It gets better.  It can only get better.  This crappy week will be over soon and next week will be awesome.  IT WILL BE AWESOME, right?

HELL YES! 

I'm also wondering about how straight women seem to have a...different...reaction when their "husband" transitions to female. I've seen again and again where they get angry, feel betrayed, so on and so forth. Straight men don't seem to feel betrayed when their "wife" is FTM, even if they feel less attracted to them as a result. And lesbians seem...well, weird about the transition, but they don't seem to exhibit the same sense of betrayal, almost bordering on hatred, that straight women do.

So I have to wonder what's up with that.

Quote from: birkin on May 16, 2014, 08:36:48 PM
HELL YES! 

I'm also wondering about how straight women seem to have a...different...reaction when their "husband" transitions to female. I've seen again and again where they get angry, feel betrayed, so on and so forth. Straight men don't seem to feel betrayed when their "wife" is FTM, even if they feel less attracted to them as a result. And lesbians seem...well, weird about the transition, but they don't seem to exhibit the same sense of betrayal, almost bordering on hatred, that straight women do.

So I have to wonder what's up with that.

Uh - probably has something to do with the motives of others like the pretty little chickster in line ahead of me at Starbucks who was showing off her big diamond engagement ring to her wide eyed girlfriend as she said, "He makes a great income and can really take care of me!" I didn't hear the word "love" or anything like that mentioned in the conversation.

Quote from: birkin on May 16, 2014, 08:36:48 PM
HELL YES! 

I'm also wondering about how straight women seem to have a...different...reaction when their "husband" transitions to female. I've seen again and again where they get angry, feel betrayed, so on and so forth. Straight men don't seem to feel betrayed when their "wife" is FTM, even if they feel less attracted to them as a result. And lesbians seem...well, weird about the transition, but they don't seem to exhibit the same sense of betrayal, almost bordering on hatred, that straight women do.

So I have to wonder what's up with that.

Ya know, I have no freaking clue.  My wife is pretty dudely/andro anyway, doesn't have religious or family hangups, kinda bisexual, truly my soulmate and said that she fell in love with a person and not a gender.  I'm really the same person, but just "new and improved" now.  I even have that "new girl smell" going for me.  The funny thing is that if she became "Ken" (yes, she said she would have wanted that name if she was a guy), I would have probably had to process that one for a bit but ulitmately I'd be fine with it.  Hell, she can already grow a way better 'stache than I can anyway.

Quote from: Jill F on May 16, 2014, 08:50:04 PM
Ya know, I have no freaking clue.  My wife is pretty dudely/andro anyway, doesn't have religious or family hangups, kinda bisexual, truly my soulmate and said that she fell in love with a person and not a gender.  I'm really the same person, but just "new and improved" now.  I even have that "new girl smell" going for me.  The funny thing is that if she became "Ken" (yes, she said she would have wanted that name if she was a guy), I would have probably had to process that one for a bit but ulitmately I'd be fine with it.  Hell, she can already grow a way better 'stache than I can anyway.

+1 I feel the same way, though it's highly unlikely here. We've talked about how I would be able to deal with it if she had a bilateral mastectomy at some time for health reasons and I said that I married a person not a set of boobs, it wouldn't make any difference. So I guess it comes down to those who have shallow motives over those who are committed come hell or high water.

Quote from: Shantel on May 16, 2014, 08:58:25 PM
+1 I feel the same way, though it's highly unlikely here. We've talked about how I would be able to deal with it if she had a bilateral mastectomy at some time for health reasons and I said that I married a person not a set of boobs, it wouldn't make any difference. So I guess it comes down to those who have shallow motives over those who are committed come hell or high water.

Oh, don't get me started.  One of my wife's law partners is such a pig that he bought his wife a BA for her birthday once that she didn't even ask for.  Then he brags about it and likes to "show her off" to people.  That litte guy is clearly overcompensating for a perceived shortcoming.  Men who essentially reduce their SOs to a "walking rack" should be force fed their own sh*t.

On the subject of significant others, I have no idea. I imagine if I came out as trans to some of my cis male ex's, they'd have a huge problem with it though. Ironically, my most abusive ex is perfectly fine with me being trans.

I wonder if I should ask for hair advice or if that would make me seem too weird.

i'm thinking i want a salted pickle o.o

Abby, if it makes any difference I care

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I should probably take a shower or a bath. I'm slightly drunk which doesn't happen often with me. maybe I'll get a bit drunker before I shower or take a bath. I decided to roll around on some rocks that were full of barnacles and I'm cut up big time.

Is there something like sleepstudying?

So Far Cry 4 has just been announced and it's supposed to be released on Nov. 18.  Because Ubisoft is the publisher, mark my words: Far Cry 4 WILL be pushed back to "work on the game a bit more".  I'm telling you that Ubisoft WILL do it.

malachite it seems like more of your letters aren't working.

I'm annoyed I woke up so early but I might as well make use of it.