I don't know if it's just because of the rough couple weeks I had or the normal fears one goes through when transitioning.. I mean we had a death in the family a couple weeks ago and I got dumped by my gf so it's been rough this month.. But I feel like I'm doubting myself again like. Is this the right thing? I keep thinking at the end of the day it is because I look back at the pre-t days and thing I can't go back to that because I just... hated those days and I hated myself and the way I looked and sounded. I still have days of dysphoria and I cringe whenever I hear someone call me she.

I dunno. I guess I need someone to tell me I'm doing the right thing. It's hard to come by. -shrug-

Sounds like the effects of a bad few weeks. Losing a family member and a gf can't have been easy. Doubts are normal, but from what you say about how you feel about your birth gender it's pretty likely transition is the right way forward. Take care.

One of the boilerplate things about transitioning and HRT is that you can't trust your own emotions and reactions because you are tinkering with the very chemicals that make them.  Of course knowing that and fighting thru it are two different things...

But, if it makes you feel any better.  You're doing the right thing! 

Thanks. Like I get excited every time I hear my voice drop a little and when I play with the peach fuzz on my face. But like ya the last couple weeks I keep feeling doubtful of myself but I think it is because of what's going on around me right now. Like the one who passed away had a really aggressive cancer and it only took six weeks to claim him, so it hit us rather hard. And then I wasn't expecting to get dumped either so it just all hit like a tone of bricks.

When it rains it pours...

Quote from: JamesG on May 17, 2014, 11:37:39 PM
When it rains it pours...

Indeed