i cant swim this year ugh! 3 years and i still cant touch the water. its like oxygen deprivation for me

Earache

i've been very unhappy for the longest time now and i cant seem to shake it -.-

Hay fever

Oh yes, my allergies are going bonkers with all the spring blossoms and such - Smells great, but also makes me sneeze

I feel wasted evenf if I stayed away from alcohol yesterday (I won't drink anything that hasn't been properly bottle and can guaranteed that hasn't been unadultered. Still, the combination of missing sleep hours, staying without sitting for hours, night cold and something that had me sneezing. Also, with so much people nobody could control the smoking ban, so my clothes reek, something that hasn't happened for years.

I have a laser hair removal session today.  I'm glad to be getting it done and having the benefits of it, but it hurts so much.  I'm not in the mood to be crying in pain today which is what always happens.  Ehhh.... if I didn't have to drive, I would have a few drinks to numb it.

Quote from: V M on May 17, 2014, 02:23:14 AM
Oh yes, my allergies are going bonkers with all the spring blossoms and such - Smells great, but also makes me sneeze

Tis the season! The Scotch Broom that grows close to freeway onramps drives me nuts, it's always so pungent.

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 09:10:49 AM
I have a laser hair removal session today.  I'm glad to be getting it done and having the benefits of it, but it hurts so much.  I'm not in the mood to be crying in pain today which is what always happens.  Ehhh.... if I didn't have to drive, I would have a few drinks to numb it.

Oddly enough it's getting easier.  Seems the pain subsides with each session.  Still cried in pain, but it's much more tolerable. Now the worst of it is feeling weird about walking in a laser salon.  I feel like everyone there knows that I'm trans and the building is on a very busy road so people can see me walk right in.  I overthink these things but still.  Got to get past this stuff.   

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 12:10:58 PM
Oddly enough it's getting easier.  Seems the pain subsides with each session.  Still cried in pain, but it's much more tolerable. Now the worst of it is feeling weird about walking in a laser salon.  I feel like everyone there knows that I'm trans and the building is on a very busy road so people can see me walk right in.  I overthink these things but still.  Got to get past this stuff.

XD I feel like that when I have my sessions too XD

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 12:10:58 PM

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 09:10:49 AM
I have a laser hair removal session today.  I'm glad to be getting it done and having the benefits of it, but it hurts so much.  I'm not in the mood to be crying in pain today which is what always happens.  Ehhh.... if I didn't have to drive, I would have a few drinks to numb it.

Oddly enough it's getting easier.  Seems the pain subsides with each session.  Still cried in pain, but it's much more tolerable. Now the worst of it is feeling weird about walking in a laser salon.  I feel like everyone there knows that I'm trans and the building is on a very busy road so people can see me walk right in.  I overthink these things but still.  Got to get past this stuff.

Try to remember laser wasn't invented for trans women. And that these salons couldn't stay in business just with trans women. I mean, ok, maybe in some areas. But we are a very small part of the population.

Quote from: FA on May 17, 2014, 12:20:13 PM
Oddly enough it's getting easier.  Seems the pain subsides with each session.  Still cried in pain, but it's much more tolerable. Now the worst of it is feeling weird about walking in a laser salon.  I feel like everyone there knows that I'm trans and the building is on a very busy road so people can see me walk right in.  I overthink these things but still.  Got to get past this stuff.


Try to remember laser wasn't invented for trans women. And that these salons couldn't stay in business just with trans women. I mean, ok, maybe in some areas. But we are a very small part of the population.

That's true, but believe me, the workers inside know.  Sometimes you can tell when people know.  However, they are very nice, so it's not such a bad thing.  I'm just afraid of the world knowing I'm trans.  And to be honest, if people saw someone looking like me walk into a laser place, I'm betting they would assume I'm trans.  I mean I would. It just sucks being stuck between genders appearance wise. 

Landlord won't answer the phone.

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 12:41:02 PM
That's true, but believe me, the workers inside know.  Sometimes you can tell when people know.  However, they are very nice, so it's not such a bad thing.  I'm just afraid of the world knowing I'm trans.  And to be honest, if people saw someone looking like me walk into a laser place, I'm betting they would assume I'm trans.  I mean I would. It just sucks being stuck between genders appearance wise. 

I get how you feel, I really do but one thing that helps me to stay calm regarding situations where hair is involved is that even women can have hair on any part of their body. Also that men even get their hair removed too. (Mentioning this for anyone reading it) so I try and remember that and try not to worry about it too much. Plus, look on the bright side, you won't have to get it done forever and odds are the many people who do see you, will just forget you sooner or later, odds are sooner. I mean, not like we pay much attention to all the people we see and pass by, heck I bet you don't remember too many of them, I know I sure don't.

Quote from: learningtolive on May 17, 2014, 12:10:58 PM
Oddly enough it's getting easier.  Seems the pain subsides with each session.  Still cried in pain, but it's much more tolerable. Now the worst of it is feeling weird about walking in a laser salon.  I feel like everyone there knows that I'm trans and the building is on a very busy road so people can see me walk right in.  I overthink these things but still.  Got to get past this stuff.

I made three appointments for laser skin resurfacing, and I finished the first treatment about 3 months ago. Now it is time to get the second one, and I am afraid of the pain, postponing endlessly.... My female friends say like "beauty requires pain".

barbie~~

I've been watching Clannad: After story. I have never cried this much to any other anime. I think the Clannad series has jumped up to number 3 on my all time favorite anime.

Back and leg pain and, erm, bathroom issues, starting to resurface. Been nearly 8 months since I've had much issue, now is been a week of this. Wasn't supposed to see my doctor for over another month, but I may try to get in sooner, or else, risk going to the ER and having them go all legal on me and then have insurance not cover it like they've started doing.
I keep being told is hemorrhoids,  but whenever a doctor checks, they can't find anything. I think it's the disc issues I've had resurfacing, crushing spinal nerves.

Feeling homesick. I don't necessarily want to see my whole family, it's just a different words up there compared to the hustle and bustle down here in Sydney

Rain

Males who expect us to discuss our private parts! Hell NO!