50's is nice, 60's is warm, 70's is hot, and 80's is Hell on Earth. Come back, fall and winter!

Quote from: Pitch on May 25, 2014, 03:58:39 PM
50's is nice, 60's is warm, 70's is hot, and 80's is Hell on Earth. Come back, fall and winter!

^Keep your winter.

Quote from: Shantel on May 25, 2014, 01:25:29 PM
Poor child! Keep us posted on that issue, maybe you'll be surprised.

Actually, it's been going well so far.  My mom had her sisters come over for a little get together.  Everyone is nice, but I'm now sure my mom told everyone or they at least figured it out.  The aunt that I was fearing would notice something used female pronouns with me (called me both her and she) and acted like it was an accident.  I'm guessing that's her way of telling me that she knows. But other than that it went well.  I don't know why I'm so ashamed to be myself.  Got to get over it.   Oh and another sign was my mom came over and gave me a big hug after speaking with her sisters and one of my other aunts sort of looked at me a certain way.  Nothing is bad, just got to get used to the fact that people know and that's it.   

Quote from: learningtolive on May 25, 2014, 04:49:29 PM
Actually, it's been going well so far.  My mom had her sisters come over for a little get together.  Everyone is nice, but I'm now sure my mom told everyone or they at least figured it out.  The aunt that I was fearing would notice something used female pronouns with me (called me both her and she) and acted like it was an accident.  I'm guessing that's her way of telling me that she knows. But other than that it went well.  I don't know why I'm so ashamed to be myself.  Got to get over it.   Oh and another sign was my mom came over and gave me a big hug after speaking with her sisters and one of my other aunts sort of looked at me a certain way.  Nothing is bad, just got to get used to the fact that people know and that's it.

Wow how cool is that huh? I'm so pleased for you sweetie, yes you need to chill about all that unnecessary anxiety, I've seen your photo and frankly you look pretty and female to me, so I can't see why your own relatives would see anything different either.

Quote from: Shantel on May 25, 2014, 06:26:31 PM
Wow how cool is that huh? I'm so pleased for you sweetie, yes you need to chill about all that unnecessary anxiety, I've seen your photo and frankly you look pretty and female to me, so I can't see why your own relatives would see anything different either.

Thanks Shantel, that's sweet of you to say.  And you are right about how I can be.  I have some really bad anxiety and depression, so I admit that I can be a little paranoid and nutty.  The good news is I am improving, just insanely slow.  But mainly it's the whole in between stage and uncertainty of it all.  I'll get past it all one day, give or take 100 years, lol.

Well, I still don't have my port side rear tire fixed yet. no boating til I do, and since I'm getting my gender change on my drivers license Friday I'll need get it fixed before then if I want to go out next weekend. My gender change on my license is most important to me though, and it will come before anything else.

But worse, my two best friends in the world seem to have dropped off the face of the earth. I'm getting very worried about them.

Ally

Memorial Day

It is a day of remembrance, many people including myself have lost family and friends and some of my neighbors take it pretty hard and have a really difficult time coping 

It is not a holiday and the the Memorial Day sales that all the various retailers put on are nothing less than disgusting to me   

Anyway, that's my gripe 

Quote from: birkin on May 21, 2014, 09:14:06 PM
Lauren and Malachite, I feel you there. I'm either overqualified, or underqualified (as in, I have education and some experience, but they want 5+ years). And when I find one I am qualified for...they want you to have your own car. -_- Even when the job doesn't require travel or driving lol. I think they just want to weed out applicants who take the bus, since they may have had people using transit as an excuse to be late. I swear, as soon as I have a job, and I sort out my finances, I'm investing into a vehicle first, and then first aid/CPR/suicide intervention training right after. That way if I need a job I have more options in the future.

That's horrible.  Such discrimination against non-drivers.  I hope you're able to get a vehicle soon.  :/

Work went pretty well today, long day tho, finally in the hotel, in a cami and leggings to relax and fall asleep in..

I got a call from one of my girl cousins earlier today, one who knows what I'm going thru.. I thought it was my cousin L, but it was actually her younger sister, but they sounded exactly alike,  she said "Hi ______, do you want me to call you that, or do I call you Paula?  I can call you anythnig you want, I love both names, but I want you to feel ok.."  Still thought it was L, we chatted for a few more minutes, still calling her the wrong name, she said she was working nights for a long time, and I can call anytime..  It wasnt until -after- we hung up, did I realize it was not L but her sister.. so I called her back, and texted her, saying I was really sorry, calling her wrong name, and how she sounded soooo much like her sister..  I felt really bad, because, well, their whole family is really supporting me, more than my own, and it means the world to me, and I felt bad i didnt know who I was talking to.  I since changed the contact name for her phone number so it shows both name and face correctly.  she laffed it off.. but I still feel bad about it.  Small as things go, but being called the right name, is a big thing for me.

4am just getting home from the emergency vet with my dog. Ugh what a long night, thank god I'm off tomorrow or today whatever good night.

I was told that I am not trans because According to this guy I have spoken to over the last week,  I am emotional. He said this because I had asked him to stop calling my phone at unreasonable hours of the morning like 2am 3am. He didnt like it when I told him it is rude and disrespectful abd proceeded to say that im not trans because i am emotional and that I should put my phone on silent like normal people! I then asked him to leave me alone and that im not normal and dont want to ve normal and that he has no right whatsoever to discredit my being trans because of his rude and unasked for behaviour. I called my mobile phone company and asked them to block the fools number. This guy was a Cop, and thinks he knows way too much about issues that he has proven to not actually know anything about. He kept pestering and pestering and it was unbearable!

Friend showed up very late with girl problems and we talked for hours. That would not be a problem except that it's 4am and I usually wake up at 7 or 8 no matter what time I go to bed. I should be happy for now and unhappy later but it's hard not to be unhappy in anticipation of future stress.

Quote from: bubbles21 on May 26, 2014, 06:19:02 AM
I was told that I am not trans because According to this guy I have spoken to over the last week,  I am emotional. He said this because I had asked him to stop calling my phone at unreasonable hours of the morning like 2am 3am. He didnt like it when I told him it is rude and disrespectful abd proceeded to say that im not trans because i am emotional and that I should put my phone on silent like normal people! I then asked him to leave me alone and that im not normal and dont want to ve normal and that he has no right whatsoever to discredit my being trans because of his rude and unasked for behaviour. I called my mobile phone company and asked them to block the fools number. This guy was a Cop, and thinks he knows way too much about issues that he has proven to not actually know anything about. He kept pestering and pestering and it was unbearable!

This happens way too much to too many people. Nobody but you gets to decide what your gender is.

Thats exactly right felix.

Quote from: bubbles21 on May 26, 2014, 06:19:02 AM
I was told that I am not trans because According to this guy I have spoken to over the last week,  I am emotional. He said this because I had asked him to stop calling my phone at unreasonable hours of the morning like 2am 3am. He didnt like it when I told him it is rude and disrespectful abd proceeded to say that im not trans because i am emotional and that I should put my phone on silent like normal people! I then asked him to leave me alone and that im not normal and dont want to ve normal and that he has no right whatsoever to discredit my being trans because of his rude and unasked for behaviour. I called my mobile phone company and asked them to block the fools number. This guy was a Cop, and thinks he knows way too much about issues that he has proven to not actually know anything about. He kept pestering and pestering and it was unbearable!

There are zillions of people thinking differently. It is his own belief and business, and it does not matter.

barbie~~

Quote from: V M on May 25, 2014, 11:44:03 PM
Memorial Day

It is a day of remembrance, many people including myself have lost family and friends and some of my neighbors take it pretty hard and have a really difficult time coping 

It is not a holiday and the the Memorial Day sales that all the various retailers put on are nothing less than disgusting to me   

Anyway, that's my gripe 

That's a really good point.  Something about the commercialism is very distasteful and disrespectful to those who severed and lost their lives.  Though, I do believe the day itself is a good thing to reflect on.  Remembering those who gave everything for us is very important no matter who you are or what you believe.     

You actually reminded me of something different yet related- the fact that the 9/11 museum is selling a whole bunch of merch.  I was 12 year old kid when the World Trade Center was attacked.  I'll never forget being in school with a bunch of kids that were crying and terrified in fear that their parents or other family members that worked near or in the towers were dead.  It was absolutely horrendous and one of the worst days of my life.  Two months after that, I see a bunch of companies selling a bunch of merchandise and trying to make a buck on the tragedy.  I was so disgusted then, and now to see the museum is doing the same just makes me a little ill. 

Quote from: bubbles21 on May 26, 2014, 06:19:02 AM
I was told that I am not trans because According to this guy I have spoken to over the last week,  I am emotional. He said this because I had asked him to stop calling my phone at unreasonable hours of the morning like 2am 3am. He didnt like it when I told him it is rude and disrespectful abd proceeded to say that im not trans because i am emotional and that I should put my phone on silent like normal people! I then asked him to leave me alone and that im not normal and dont want to ve normal and that he has no right whatsoever to discredit my being trans because of his rude and unasked for behaviour. I called my mobile phone company and asked them to block the fools number. This guy was a Cop, and thinks he knows way too much about issues that he has proven to not actually know anything about. He kept pestering and pestering and it was unbearable!

If he persists perhaps a formal complaint to his head honcho will suffice, they may decide that he's not suitable in that profession and he'll have to find a new job elsewhere. When a something is irritating me I reach in my tool bag and bring out my biggest hammer and <WHAP...SPLATTER> it's handled.

Grandfather in the hospital, again.

I am not doing well. I hate being nuts.

Quote from: MyKa on May 26, 2014, 04:08:43 AM
4am just getting home from the emergency vet with my dog. Ugh what a long night, thank god I'm off tomorrow or today whatever good night.

I hope your dog is ok

Feeling talentless, useless, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on May 26, 2014, 01:56:07 PM
Feeling talentless, useless, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

Cheer up hon, we all go through that, it's a cyclical thing!