This is about what you should have been able to do, no matter which gender your body shape was, but for some reason just couldn't.

I mean, were there any dreams that you had when you were young, dreams that you just couldn't seem to fulfill, but which somehow you were able to accomplish only AFTER you transitioned (or started transitioning)? If so, why do you think this was so?

Yeah, use the ladies bathroom!

Quote from: Alainaluvsu on May 26, 2014, 04:18:40 PM
Yeah, use the ladies bathroom!

yea, using the ladies room without security waiting when you came out

date a lady and not be 'lesbian'. The idea of being a lesbian squicked me out real bad, even though my first crush was on a girl at school.

Wear dresses! And knee high boots!

Their is a load of thing should of been able to do.

pick flowers without being mocked.
wear pink without being called guy.
Grow my hair and have it like i wanted.
Be a princess on my birthday.
Wear skirts without being beaten. (just wear what i liked in general)
Learn to use make up how my sisters did.
get my EARS PIERCED when my sister did.
never of been forced away from who i was and have to live a life of pretend.
Not of felt shame for liking what i liked.
felt loved no matter what.

i often think if i was just olloweed all these things i might never of developed body dysphoria. so yeah i think all of the above are what caused much of the depression that come with being me.

I can have genuine interactions with people.

I couldn't before because I was attempting to play a role. Everything I did and said, was what I thought I'd do if I was playing a man.

After transitioning I m able to love more...

Quote from: LordKAT on May 26, 2014, 05:11:44 PM
date a lady and not be 'lesbian'. The idea of being a lesbian squicked me out real bad, even though my first crush was on a girl at school.

Date a girl and not be 'straight' 

Quote from: Ms Grace on May 26, 2014, 05:22:57 PM
Wear dresses! And knee high boots!

Yeah, boots are pretty cool too, though not so into dresses

As far as dreams and stuff go, I'd say just about everything. It's not that to do the stuff I want to do you have to be female, it's more that you need to be able to do and experience stuff I couldn't because of depression. Lot's of learning and experimentation to be done, money required to buy stuff. It's still early days but I'm moving forward in getting my life together and slowly the depression looses tiny bits of ground

Flirt with any guy I wanna. Tho its been awkward when they ask for my number after cuz I'm not gonna bother spilling T later...so I always have to make something up. So it can be a reminder of stuff you can't do after transition too...which is frustrating 

Be happy for real.

Talk to female friends as an equal, wear comfortable clothes, not shaving my face and arms every day.

I couldn't play guitar prehrt nowhere near as well as I began to after starting estrogen finally. Testosterone was beginning to block my creativity like never before. Not only that but my hands were always so tense, it was really difficult to relax at times. Estrogen changed all of that for the better! 

not worry about dying every single second, point blank. i can let my evil side out 

As a WIP,

Being attractive.
Being extra fashionable.
Understanding trans people and turning over my own prejudices.
Meeting Shantel.

Cry, lots.

And be brave, face my fears, be determined.

use the womens restroom, and I also semi enjoy sex now (can actually relax)

Leave lipstick stains on glasses (and sometimes faces). it never ceases to amaze me, as if it was something that could only happen and cartoons.

I have a while before surgery, but after....
I can finally have sex!

Sex would be nice but its not that important to me and certainly not a driving factor for surgery for me.

The one thing that was pretty amazing was the abuse STOPPING after I transitioned. A very young looking  blonde femmeish teen boy resulted in verbal and physical abuse from men. Transition led to men smiling at me but it took me ages to realise it was no longer a precursor to violence.

Boobs - As a pre-adolescent teen I envied women for their figures and imagined what it would be like to have a figure. Now I have one and know Bra's are mandatory support :-/

Swimmiing is simply brilliant - I detested swimming at a kid - I felt naked and hated it.