Quote from: birkin on May 26, 2014, 10:10:16 PM
I sat in my bed and cried over not getting that job. This one definitely hurt the most. I spent 4 or 5 hours redoing my resume and cover letter, studying the job itself, making sure it was perfect, only to not even end up with an interview.

Now I'm really not sure what to do. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to find out for sure if I have carpal tunnel, though it's pretty likely. That's not good, because if I have to take a manual job (i.e., cashier) my wrists could end up permanently damaged. So much for admin and manufacturing jobs too, as those would be too hard on the wrists. I'm only controlling my computer through voice control right now, and minimal typing and clicking. If I typed this post by hand, my hand would be on fire right now.

I'm thinking this reminds me that I should really see if I have early osteoarthritis, which also seems likely.  I'm also thinking I should ask you what your favorite Resident Evil game is after noticing your username and sig.  Mine are the REmake of the original and RE2.  Great games...most of them that is.

and I'm sorry to hear that, looking for a job sucks...

i'm thinking i cant find a perfect profile pic to match me lol

Quote from: Brianna Terryal Onyx on May 26, 2014, 10:18:06 PM
i find that my interviewers wont hire me is because i was in a state of self doubt. highly agitating really

I wish I could even get an interview.

Quote from: TheQuestion on May 26, 2014, 10:18:53 PM
I'm thinking this reminds me that I should really see if I have early osteoarthritis, which also seems likely.  I'm also thinking I should ask you what your favorite Resident Evil game is after noticing your username and sig.  Mine are the REmake of the original and RE2.  Great games...most of them that is.

My favourite  is 4, 5 is a close second. What's yours?

Quote from: birkin on May 26, 2014, 10:26:56 PM
I wish I could even get an interview.

My favourite  is 4, 5 is a close second. What's yours?

The Gamecube remake of the original and Resident Evil 2

I'm thinking stuff I want to talk about, but I have no one to talk to and I can't find the words.

Quote from: Edge on May 26, 2014, 10:52:55 PM
I'm thinking stuff I want to talk about, but I have no one to talk to and I can't find the words.

aww, you can always talk to me onii-chan lol. i'm a pretty good listener though i may not know what to say to make you feel better

I don't feel bad necessarily aside from some dysphoria.

Quote from: Edge on May 26, 2014, 10:56:06 PM
I don't feel bad necessarily aside from some dysphoria.

thats the monster that cant seem to be put down lol. i'm dealing with dysphoria to but its fairly minimal compared to normal. maybe becuz its my upcoming appointment for hormones. idk but whatever it is, i hope it keeps up.

I have two types of dysphoria. It's not as bad as it was when I was younger.

Quote from: Pikachu on May 26, 2014, 09:40:30 PM
Thinking I'd give anything right now to just have a friend here to hold me as I cry and tell me everything's going to be okay...

Everything's going to be okay

Hugs

Quote from: V M on May 27, 2014, 02:00:13 AM
Everything's going to be okay

Hugs

Thank you. You might not understand why Im thanking you, But im sure Pikachu does

"Is it weird that in 13 months of HRT I haven't ever had a migraine? And neither hot flashes"

That's what I was thinking. I though at least the migraines would be something normal for a woman, but... Nothing.

i'm thinking i might lose my head. found out i have to go see my endo. well at least it will be faster

The best ever fireworks display!

http://www.youtube.com/embed/_LpMB1OZ53g?feature=player_detailpage%22%20frameborder=%220%22%20allowfullscreen%3e%3c/iframe%3e&autoplay=1

My father may act like he's all hard and doesn't mind being alone and prefers it after his girlfriend of 6 year and him split up, but deep down I think he doesn't want to be alone. I'm not going to spend over 5 grand in decorating my house just to "not mind being alone" like him.  To be honest I don't think he could cope without a woman, even if it was just for sex.

I guess the people doesn't fall far from the tree, but at least I'm honest in my desire for companionship.

i've gotten to the point where i'm thinking does the pro's outweigh the cons becuz all i'm getting is heartache, gatekeeping and just absolute mental draining. wish i had a teddy bear to cry into until i fall asleep god how i hate being alone sometimes

I'm thinking about strength.

Quote from: Edge on May 27, 2014, 04:17:09 PM
I'm thinking about strength.

when you get it, sends some my way because my soul is on the verge of breaking. cant even do my work properly 

Quote from: Brianna Terryal Onyx on May 27, 2014, 04:20:13 PM
when you get it, sends some my way because my soul is on the verge of breaking. cant even do my work properly 

I have it in spades. Unfortunately, I can't give it to others unless you happen to find other people's strength inspiring.

I was planning a whole thing that I was going to write down when I got home and now I forget it all and my brain feels like mush.