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Standing on the precipice of life and staring into the black abyss

Started by justpat, May 26, 2014, 12:26:15 AM

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justpat

   All I see is relief,from pain, emotions and expectations gone wild and chaotic.The feeling of being alone, even in a crowd of friends because no matter what, I am different and have been this way all my life.I am tired and in a millisecond could find relief---permanently---its in Gods hands now. 
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Cindy

What's up Hon?

If you are feeling suicidal please call a help line.

There is hope Honey

Cindy
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Alainaluvsu

You don't have anybody who would miss you? Not even a pet? I find that very hard to believe.
To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are.



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Evelyn K

JP you've been here for awhile. What's going on tootsie roll? Where's wifey at?

Tomorrow is memorial day! Anything interesting planned?
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Jessica Merriman

I would miss you and you know that's true.  :( Can I help at all?
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Allyda

Quote from: justpat on May 26, 2014, 12:26:15 AM
   All I see is relief,from pain, emotions and expectations gone wild and chaotic.The feeling of being alone, even in a crowd of friends because no matter what, I am different and have been this way all my life.I am tired and in a millisecond could find relief---permanently---its in Gods hands now.
Pat, you know better! you have me for one who cares about you deeply. Where is this coming from? I'm sorry for saying this here but your not answering my phone calls, emails, or pm's and I've been worried sick all week! Just ask Auntie Shan if you don't believe that!

I'm going to try again to call you later. Answer my phone call please? If you don't feel like talking on the phone email or pm me. I swear I never thought you of all people would put up a post like this. Sorry but I'm worried about you -and a little mad to at your refusing to answer my phone calls or pm's. You know dam well how much I care about you and your SO.

Ally
Allyda
Full Time August 2009
HRT Dec 27 2013
VFS [ ? ]
FFS [ ? ]
SRS Spring 2015



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Shantel

Quote from: justpat on May 26, 2014, 12:26:15 AM
   All I see is relief,from pain, emotions and expectations gone wild and chaotic.The feeling of being alone, even in a crowd of friends because no matter what, I am different and have been this way all my life.I am tired and in a millisecond could find relief---permanently---its in Gods hands now.

C'mon Pat let's not do this hon perk up! You know this is not the way to go and that the Big Kahuna isn't going to honor it, please shape back up enough to dial up the vet hotline and get some help quickly. I know you are a can-do type honey, just do it OK? We love you hon, your Auntie Shan is counting on you now. xoxo
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stephaniec

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JulieBlair

Patty,
There isn't anything wrong with you that a smile, a hug, and a kiss won't cure.  Every time we talk I leave feeling refreshed.  Every time we write you teach me something new.  I don't know anyone else with a ten foot stuffed alligator on her bed.  What on earth would I do without you?  So here is a smile girlfriend ;), here is a hug "*!HUGG*!" and here are some kisses XXXX. 

Our friendship spans the internet, and goes all the way to the electrolysis clinic.  Doesn't get much more personal that that! So don't make me fly 3500 miles this afternoon.  Let's save that for sometime when I don't have to bathe in bug dope just to walk to the end of the driveway.

I suspect that your angst has something  to do with Memorial Day.  We have all lost friends and comrades, but to remember and to honor is not to mourn them once again.  To reflect on personal injury we need not relive the terror. Bodies age, minds can stay fresh.  I'm there with you my sister, now and always.

Julie
I am my own best friend and my own worst enemy.  :D
Full Time 18 June 2014
Esprit can be found at http://espritconf.com/
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Jessica Merriman

Patty please answer Ally's calls! I need to know you are OK. Please?! Not knowing is the worse. :(
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Alainaluvsu

Last active on the time and date of this post. Not good...
To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are.



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Evelyn K

(sorrowful sigh)

Hopefully someone with her phone number has called in for a wellness check.

JP - let us know you're alright.
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HoneyStrums

I See this and cry. Why? I cant say i knew them, but still i read this and i feel helpless. I m a world away and wish for nothing more then to have been wear they were while writting this post.

And I read on, and for every post see someone els hurting. Another person I cant hug and help through this time. I Dont know what if anything I can do.

My heart goes out to everyone here OP and all. Please talk to people if you all need too. And more importantly hold on for replies.

I Hope your ok Ally
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kelly_aus

If someone knows where she lives, even roughly, a call to the local PD for a welfare check wouldn't hurt.

I've done it myself in the past for a member of this site.. It was kinda fun working out which of the UK police services I needed to call - got it wrong and was pointed in the right direction..
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JulieBlair

I talked to her a few hours ago.  She was ok then.  I'll call again now.
I am my own best friend and my own worst enemy.  :D
Full Time 18 June 2014
Esprit can be found at http://espritconf.com/
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JulieBlair

She is gonna be fine.  Anybody getting into the shower with an epilator, hasn't given up.  Thanks everyone for being there, you are simply the best.  Love you all. She will be on in a couple hours.
I am my own best friend and my own worst enemy.  :D
Full Time 18 June 2014
Esprit can be found at http://espritconf.com/
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Evelyn K

Thank god. I don't know her personally, but she's one of our own. One of the great many, and we are gaining momentum. She needs to know she is *not* alone.
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JulieBlair

Evelyn,
You are one of the special ones around here that keep me coming back.  Thank you.
j
I am my own best friend and my own worst enemy.  :D
Full Time 18 June 2014
Esprit can be found at http://espritconf.com/
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Evelyn K

JB - I am not. I can't even touch the amount of empathy you have and are able to articulate. When you comfort, you really do sway the room.

Thank *you*.
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Allyda

Quote from: JulieBlair on May 27, 2014, 08:02:15 PM
She is gonna be fine.  Anybody getting into the shower with an epilator, hasn't given up.  Thanks everyone for being there, you are simply the best.  Love you all. She will be on in a couple hours.
Thank's Julie for posting this. I've been worrying myself sick up here for this past week. Pat and I usually talk daily, and I'm very close to Pat and her SO. Her not answering my phone calls for a week and then all of a sudden this post two days ago put my worry into overdrive. So I thank you very much for easing my worry a little. Pat still hasn't called me back, so I'm still worried, but you have eased that worry a little and again, for that I thank you.

If she doesn't call or pm me, I'll try to call her tomorrow. Hopefully she'll answer my call.

Again, Thanks.
Ally :icon_flower:
Allyda
Full Time August 2009
HRT Dec 27 2013
VFS [ ? ]
FFS [ ? ]
SRS Spring 2015



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