I Just got upsat at my dad. for eating? We dont do anything together anymore. (its nothing trans related) Its his life style hes very active and when he gets home he just wants to relax. So I come up to my room out of his way for a bit.

Sorry its just no matter what youd think meal times would be somthing we did together...  so yeah going downstairs to find he cooked for himself got to me. Im not saying i want him to cook for me. I would just of been nice to be envolved in it. so i could off done somthing with him.

This happens a lot. he doesnt see how when this happens i feel like iv been robbed of a bit of father time. a father i love. a father i wish i spent more time with. It hurts. so yeah i got upset about it, that got him upset, that made me feel worse.

Cuddles sorrys and I love yous.  but does wanting to spend more time with my dad have to hurt so much when it doesnt happen.

Quote from: V M on May 28, 2014, 08:45:46 AM
Worrying about friends and various other people and other worries in general 

Ditto.

Pobably what sparked my episode with my dad.
hugs

Same here.  I have several friends with serious issues to deal with and I worry to no end for their well being.

*Grumble* *grouse* Stupid annoying issue getting on my nerves at work *moan* *whinge*

Hang on, there are people here who would love to put up with my stupid annoying issue so that they could have a stable income.

Never mind... perhaps it isn't so bad after all.

Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on May 28, 2014, 08:02:51 AM
I'm just going through another dip in my mood again, I think it's another chemical thing.  I don't get any real pleasure form anything, I'm easily bored and tired, etc.

I'm going through a little bit of this myself right now with the exception of the easily tired part. Hopefully by Friday I'll be back to myself.

Ally

I really feel some empathy for those of you who are down, depressed, bored and are forever having some kind of mood aberration, for some reason this never happens to me, either because I'm too stupid to recognize it or that I've been through so much, seen so much, suffered so much, experienced so much death and destruction in my past so life now in comparison is a bed of roses, I'm standing in tall clover and every day is great, even if it isn't always terrific. Best wishes to everyone down in the dumps because it's going to get better soon, cheer up cause I guarantee that you aint seen nuthin baby.

Didn't sleep, couldn't shut my mind off    I just laid there in bed sweating and now I have to get ready for my therapist appointment and try to stay coherent 

Quote from: V M on May 28, 2014, 12:42:13 PM
Didn't sleep, couldn't shut my mind off    I just laid there in bed sweating and now I have to get ready for my therapist appointment and try to stay coherent

I hate that when my mind wants to keep running in high gear all night, that sucks!

Got told today my team is being offshored all to save a few dollars and add a tenth of a cent to the shareholders dividends.

They expect me to go over and train them up on a technical role as they have no experience at all.
I have 18 years myself and that seem all worthless to them.

Just when things were going so well.

Quote from: Jenny07 on May 29, 2014, 03:58:11 AM
Got told today my team is being offshored all to save a few dollars and add a tenth of a cent to the shareholders dividends.

They expect me to go over and train them up on a technical role as they have no experience at all.
I have 18 years myself and that seem all worthless to them.

Just when things were going so well.

Pretty sad Jenny! Seems like the days when one worked for the same company for 30 years, got the gold watch and big retirement package are a thing of the past. I had to re-invent myself several times because of it too.

20 weeks of heavy sitting in class (2 10 week quarters with just 1 week inbetween) have brought my back into a constant state of discomfort and pain

Oh i need to find a job where i dont have to sit often......

If you can't laugh, you just cry.  As some of you may be aware, I've been having a really rough past two days.  Quite frankly, I feel like I've just walked into hell and bought a mental condo there.  But whatever, it's my own fault and I'll deal with what I brought upon myself.  However, I wanted just a little good news.  WEll it appears that UPS lost my delivery with my name on the package (it's been stated delivered two days and they brought two other packages for me today).  Now I have to consider my neighbors opening up a big package with a bunch of makeup with my name on it.  Yay!  If people didn't know I was trans, they will now.  And it's not like I can call ups, begging them to find my eyeliner and concealer.  God, I hate my name.  Seriously, it could be worse and it was only makeup, thank god, but I'm out of money and embarrassed even considering that someone around me or who knows me opened it up.  Sigh.  Any other day, I'd just laugh it off, to a degree, but I really don't need this right now. 

Quote from: learningtolive on May 29, 2014, 04:09:52 PM
If you can't laugh, you just cry.  As some of you may be aware, I've been having a really rough past two days.  Quite frankly, I feel like I've just walked into hell and bought a mental condo there.  But whatever, it's my own fault and I'll deal with what I brought upon myself.  However, I wanted just a little good news.  WEll it appears that UPS lost my delivery with my name on the package (it's been stated delivered two days and they brought two other packages for me today).  Now I have to consider my neighbors opening up a big package with a bunch of makeup with my name on it.  Yay!  If people didn't know I was trans, they will now.  And it's not like I can call ups, begging them to find my eyeliner and concealer.  God, I hate my name.  Seriously, it could be worse and it was only makeup, thank god, but I'm out of money and embarrassed even considering that someone around me or who knows me opened it up.  Sigh.  Any other day, I'd just laugh it off, to a degree, but I really don't need this right now.

oh one of my neighbours, did just that to me. but hers your silver lining. "I didn't order this! somebody has either messed up addresses for me and someone else or somebodies ordering things in my name and forgot to change address. either way Im going to need that to sort this out. what company was it from again? IF I wasn't so concerned my security has been breached I might have more to say about, my privacy being breached -que suspicious look at your neighbours-"

You'd think the neighbor would be ashamed to be a thief.

Quote from: learningtolive on May 29, 2014, 04:09:52 PM
Now I have to consider my neighbors opening up a big package with a bunch of makeup with my name on it.  Yay!  If people didn't know I was trans, they will now.  And it's not like I can call ups, begging them to find my eyeliner and concealer.

Simple... "It's a gift for my niece/aunty/girlfriend/mother..."

Or use the old 'Oh they put my brothers name on it' routine.

Thanks everyone.  It just sucks to have lost a package when you pay for a bunch of merchandise and feel too embarrassed about getting a refund.  I've actually had mail stolen in the past, so it's possible that it wasn't lost and was picked up by someone.  Just wish it wasn't a bunch of makeup with my male name on the box.  Oh well, live and learn. 

I lost a ring I care about very much today due to my being in a rush to get to my SO's. I know it's here in my house somewhere. I hope it turns up soon.

Ally

I have been in a love-related depression for the pass few days, and my trigeminal neuralgia has been acting up a lot lately, so I've been wallowing in my unhappiness and not getting stuff done that I need to get done  >.<

My life is not in a good plaxe