Hi.

I am a extremely desperate and low income (flat broke) soul. I have lived with transexual feelings (MtF) since teens. Throughout my life, I have experienced teasing for my 'odd' ways. I suffer social anxiety disorder and am reclusive.I am almost 29 (and mpb is 'manning up' my long hair real well...)and nothing has been gained in my life, I truly believe my dysphoria is part of the reason. My mother (who I still live with) is in no way the accepting type. She is getting sick of my mooching as is.

My point is this: In two days we are going to a free clinic in Baltimore.I am going to see what I can do to end my anxiety and maybe have them give me schooling help, and training for a job. I was wandering... since I will be seeing a therapist. Should I go for broke and reveal my issues? Would they help? I am starting to go hysterical in my mind because the big 3 0 is coming. I don't want to suffer anymore , living a nothing life. What should I do? Risk it all?

Thank you girls for whatever advice you have.

First, Welcome to Susan's.

Now, I think talking to a therapist you are going to see about your issues would be a good idea. If they don't seem to be able to help you, ask for a referral to someone who will.


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Quote from: TiffanyForever29 on May 31, 2014, 11:53:10 PM
Hi.

I am a extremely desperate and low income (flat broke) soul. I have lived with transexual feelings (MtF) since teens. Throughout my life, I have experienced teasing for my 'odd' ways. I suffer social anxiety disorder and am reclusive.I am almost 29 (and mpb is 'manning up' my long hair real well...)and nothing has been gained in my life, I truly believe my dysphoria is part of the reason. My mother (who I still live with) is in no way the accepting type. She is getting sick of my mooching as is.

My point is this: In two days we are going to a free clinic in Baltimore.I am going to see what I can do to end my anxiety and maybe have them give me schooling help, and training for a job. I was wandering... since I will be seeing a therapist. Should I go for broke and reveal my issues? Would they help? I am starting to go hysterical in my mind because the big 3 0 is coming. I don't want to suffer anymore , living a nothing life. What should I do? Risk it all?

Thank you girls for whatever advice you have.

Hi Tiffany,

By all means, talk about your concerns to your therapist, but don't stop there. There is a lot of other help in your area.

I live not far from Baltimore. Baltimore has a lot of supports for transgender folk. There is a clinic called Chase Brexton that has a lot of experience dealing with Trans issues.

Whatever you do, stay away from Johns Hopkins Hospital. They'll talk a good game, but they're really still in the dark ages.

There is an agency called Hearts and Ears (http://www.heartsandears.org/) that has a lot of resources for LGBT folks. The lady that runs it, Jessica, has done a lot for the trans community in Baltimore. I highly recommend you contact them.

I'll try to keep an eye on this thread. Leave another post if there are more questions I can help with.

Quote from: TiffanyForever29 on May 31, 2014, 11:53:10 PM
Should I go for broke and reveal my issues?

Therapist's can't help if they don't know what the problems are, period. This sounds like the perfect time to face any possible roadblocks to a happy life. Go for it! 

Tiffany,
         Like the title of the soap, "One life to live" you just need to consider if you want to exist as is or live it to it's fullest. We can do all the advising in the world, but the decision is yours alone hon, we can't do that for you.

If this is the issue you want to deal with, then you should probably tell the therapist. That's why you go. It is a crappy way to spend time chit chatting about the weather. Like Shan says though, it is your life. I have to face it every day but the thing I know for sure is that I feel better now than I did last year or the year before that.

Yes, go for it!