Hey all,
I'm Sean, mid-age guy new to the site. This is my first post and I'm learning the ropes as I go. I'm a standard "gender dysphoric", assigned female at birth, but realizing at a very young age that wasn't my real gender. When I was young it was a huge deal requiring lots of money (that few of us had) to transition, and now that I'm older I have health conditions that prevent me from doing so. So I strive to live with a lot of fun and hope, and on the surface I mostly make it. But I've also spent a lot of time and energy - in my current and past life - trying to dissociate from the realities of my dysphoria, and when I don't make it in that I crash hard. So I'm trying to find ways to support myself, live better and happier, with who I am, despite what I cannot do. And that's why I started looking on the internet for resources where I can learn from others and maybe feel better about myself, as locally there don't seem to be any.
Since I can't medically transition, perhaps I shouldn't be here, though? I know most people (at least from appearances on the internet) are able to do so, and that's where most people's thoughts and plans are. So if I'm not a good "fit" here, please let me know. Don't want to crash anyone's party

Sean