but good also for a friend of mine who discovered that not that Im transgender which I deny others knowing usually but he saw me doing laundry and he didn't get it at first why I did it how I did it which unlike guys who he told me just throw it all in or something whatever he means. I told him I always separate everything by colors and underwear, socks and on. He couldn't get it till later after I told him that I never have seen guys do laundry, Ive only seen girls do it and I told him how they do it is how I learned. He later called me up saying he gets it and that it's the separating your delicates thing and it made me happy to see him finally understand. I told him earlier today I dont know what guys are thinking usually except for the basics and that I never learned how do guy stuff usually unless my dad taught me. It was cool to see him get it!! Nobody except you guys and an internet friend know Im trans. My friend doesnt know or think as in suspect Im trans and Im pretty good being one of the guys but it's tough to be what half or more my brain knows Im not.

I actually have let people see me more and more and so as in who I am meaning the girl part of me more and more allowing people to know Im not all who you thought I am. Im not meaning transitioning or people knowing Im trans but other things like having long gorgeous hair and laser the hair permanently out of my face, chest and arms and if I do some girly things and someone thinks I'm a freak, I don't care. Why should I be afraid to express my girl self when my brain is over half female I ask society? That's like condemning a dog for acting like a dog. No Ive let Larisa be seen to the world a bit more the past years.

I'm guilty of mostly throwing them all in together.