Quote from: Shantel on June 03, 2014, 07:31:15 PM
I can so relate to your pain Jill, every time I get a little ahead a boulder drops out of the sky.

Do you know where it's landing exactly?  Either that or wake me up at the end of summer.

Quote from: Jill F on June 03, 2014, 06:37:41 PMWriting checks.  A lot of them.  For HUGE amounts.

Fed taxes
State taxes
Mortgage
Homeowner's, fire and earthquake insurance
Car insurance
City of Los Angeles
Landscape
Orchi doctor
Credit cards online.

So we bottom out on the 15th and get to live on credit until September.  Good thing our Vegas trip is mostly paid for other than food.  I hate June.

Maybe this belongs in the AAARRRGGGH! section?

Same issue here. Well, with bills at least, not the writing checks. Time to pay rent, utilities (I was told utilities included in rent, that evidently didn't include electricity and gas, $60 a months (seems WAY too high),) medical bills that my insurance wouldn't cover (specifically one from the first doctor I saw here, the moron one, who also put trans on my record, which has given me all sorts of problems with insurance, even though my current doctor took it off) and one for $9.34 from my blood test. Really? Just $9? The insurance has to be THAT picky?
Point in case, it's some $500+ I owe, of which I can pay about 1% of, since nowhere I apply wants to hire me.
Going to check with dad if it's OK to take out a bank loan to pay for it, and a little more to pay for food and stuff for the next month or so. Some lesson in self sufficiency he's teaching me.

2 months, I've not spoken to my sister since our fight (I emailed her including an apology), fast forward to today, "I" had to be the one to contact her YET AGAIN! Via email again. I was hoping she'd contact me but, well.. ... I'm just saddened and hurt by this and how she's treated me. Now I wonder if she'll f'n call/reply to my email or not..

I didn't get the monitor technician job I wanted.  Actually according to the email, no one did because they decided against filling the position....again.  The point is that I didn't get the job.  *sigh*

I don't know really, just started crying just outa the blue. I was feeling pretty good today, so what the hell happened? Feeling scared right now. Just too much thinking about my future. I need to find something to do to get my mind temporarily off of it.

My supper.

I was real angry earlier when this all happened but now I'm just sad and somewhat upset about it. So I cook myself some delicious hot dogs and was going to make them chili dogs as the last two months I've only had hot dogs. I'd bought some chill so, when I finally opened it up to heat it up, BAM!  It had grayish spots in it and to make it worse, where as it should have looked like chili, it was all packed into the can as if it was a can of dog food that you have to break up using a spoon. NEVER have I gotten a can of Hormel chill like this one, and I am NOT happy about it. It's difficult getting to the store so, either I ask someone to take me there or I just lose money.. not to mention I'd have to eat the same old hot dogs for the 3rd month in a row! (The gray spots, I've ran into once or twice before with this brand.. plus I'd forgotten to get chill last time) But, that's not all. My soda drink that's red spilt onto the carpet and my bed sheet, luckily no stains but I'll have to wash the sheets and such tomorrow. And, just to spite me, my food got cold and needed heating back up. Boy was I mad at this point. lol Just finished supper and now to get ready for bed, probably going to lose some sleep sadly.

Quote from: Shana-chan on June 03, 2014, 11:06:13 PM
My supper.

I was real angry earlier when this all happened but now I'm just sad and somewhat upset about it. So I cook myself some delicious hot dogs and was going to make them chili dogs as the last two months I've only had hot dogs. I'd bought some chill so, when I finally opened it up to heat it up, BAM!  It had grayish spots in it and to make it worse, where as it should have looked like chili, it was all packed into the can as if it was a can of dog food that you have to break up using a spoon. NEVER have I gotten a can of Hormel chill like this one, and I am NOT happy about it. It's difficult getting to the store so, either I ask someone to take me there or I just lose money.. not to mention I'd have to eat the same old hot dogs for the 3rd month in a row! (The gray spots, I've ran into once or twice before with this brand.. plus I'd forgotten to get chill last time) But, that's not all. My soda drink that's red spilt onto the carpet and my bed sheet, luckily no stains but I'll have to wash the sheets and such tomorrow. And, just to spite me, my food got cold and needed heating back up. Boy was I mad at this point. lol Just finished supper and now to get ready for bed, probably going to lose some sleep sadly.

That sucks, don't eat it if you can't trust it to be safe.

News from last week just gets worse. 

I need a drink yet I don't drink......
Very angry.

Quote from: Jenny07 on June 04, 2014, 03:48:19 AM
News from last week just gets worse. 

I need a drink yet I don't drink......
Very angry.

Bummer. Is this bad news from work?

I seem to be going through an awkward phase IRL: I seem to have caught a case of foot-in-mouth disease, and I'm embarrassing myself left, right and centre.

Gah. I need to find myself a little hole to crawl into until this passes.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on June 04, 2014, 04:47:13 AM
I seem to be going through an awkward phase IRL: I seem to have caught a case of foot-in-mouth disease, and I'm embarrassing myself left, right and centre.

Gah. I need to find myself a little hole to crawl into until this passes.

Welcome to my world dear! My SO tells me how amazed she is that I can continue to walk and talk with both feet in my mouth, but it does go eventually.

Quote from: Shantel on June 04, 2014, 08:45:41 AM
Welcome to my world dear! My SO tells me how amazed she is that I can continue to walk and talk with both feet in my mouth, but it does go eventually.

After four decades and counting of saying the wrong thing and embarrassing myself, I've resigned myself to the fact that my life is about going from being an awkward kid to an awkward teen to an awkward adult to an awkward old so-and-so.

But you're right; the feeling of embarrassment does diminish with time. Until the next time.

I don't feel like doing anything at all today. A rainy day just adds to that. That's not inherently bad in itself.

What's bad is the kitchen and bathroom need cleaning. The latter is solely my responsibility, the former, I cleaned last time, so I think my roommate should do it this time. Of course, she doesn't see what's so bad about it, and won't clean it.
I'm really fed up with her, for several reasons. The only reason I tolerate her is because I love her cats. I hate practically being her mother.

I've been sleeping too much lately. It's making me tired.
I keep telling myself I'm going to make a schedule and stick to it to get the stuff done that I want to and then end up doing other stuff instead.

Quote from: Shantel on June 03, 2014, 11:16:21 PM
That sucks, don't eat it if you can't trust it to be safe.

Oh I didn't nor will I. Probably going to throw it away but, I think I may not eat Hormel chili anymore especially if this happens just 1 more time.

Quote from: Shana-chan on June 04, 2014, 04:50:02 PMOh I didn't nor will I. Probably going to throw it away but, I think I may not eat Hormel chili anymore especially if this happens just 1 more time.

My mom makes some pretty good chilli (2 types, her normal southwest style, with chunky meat, vegitables, and beans, and the one I've come to like more, the smoother, spicier (not hot spicy, just has a good blend of spices ) Cincinatti-style, which is really good for chilli dogs) I'd ask her to make some and can it up for you, but it doesn't have preservatives or anything, making canning and shipping kinda pointless.

Darn it, you've made me want Skyline Chilli right now. Too bad I'm a few hours from Ohio

At work, I'm down the isle working out hair accessories and pull out these really cute headbands so figured, let me see how this fits me, so I use a nearby mirror and try it on, a moment passes and my boss is standing at the end of the isle watching me, he remarks, "Its not you." I reply back, "It could be if I fix myself up pretty." He says back with a slight chuckle, "I'd love to see that." Why'd he have to say such a thing? I'm pretty sure he didn't mean any harm, probably just trying to embarrass me (letting me know he was watching me) with what he thought was light-hearted humor. But I was crushed by it.  Damn stupid man. 

Thinking about how my sis was there for me in some of my darkest hours, now realizing how she's no longer here for me.. (I'd best get my mind off of this..)

Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 04, 2014, 05:12:08 PM
At work, I'm down the isle working out hair accessories and pull out these really cute headbands so figured, let me see how this fits me, so I use a nearby mirror and try it on, a moment passes and my boss is standing at the end of the isle watching me, he remarks, "Its not you." I reply back, "It could be if I fix myself up pretty." He says back with a slight chuckle, "I'd love to see that." Why'd he have to say such a thing? I'm pretty sure he didn't mean any harm, probably just trying to embarrass me (letting me know he was watching me) with what he thought was light-hearted humor. But I was crushed by it.  Damn stupid man. 

Hey! Don't worry what your boss or someone says to you regarding what looks good on you or not. My dad had the nerve to make a rude and uncalled for comment about how my hair clips looked HORRENDOUS on me (This was before I came out to him btw) which literally made me burst into tears and have dark thoughts and so on. (Thankfully, my sis was there for me... ...) however, I now realize his opinion on what does look good on me doesn't matter. If YOU think it'll will look good on you then GO FOR IT! Even try and show your boss up (that he was wrong) but even if he still says it doesn't fit you, don't let it get to you! He's not you after all and as they say, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder."

Quote from: Lauren5 on June 04, 2014, 05:01:42 PM
My mom makes some pretty good chilli (2 types, her normal southwest style, with chunky meat, vegitables, and beans, and the one I've come to like more, the smoother, spicier (not hot spicy, just has a good blend of spices ) Cincinatti-style, which is really good for chilli dogs) I'd ask her to make some and can it up for you, but it doesn't have preservatives or anything, making canning and shipping kinda pointless.

Darn it, you've made me want Skyline Chilli right now. Too bad I'm a few hours from Ohio

And now you've made me want chili dogs all the more tonight, so guess we're even now. lol xD

Quote from: Megan Joanne on June 04, 2014, 05:12:08 PM
At work, I'm down the isle working out hair accessories and pull out these really cute headbands so figured, let me see how this fits me, so I use a nearby mirror and try it on, a moment passes and my boss is standing at the end of the isle watching me, he remarks, "Its not you." I reply back, "It could be if I fix myself up pretty." He says back with a slight chuckle, "I'd love to see that." Why'd he have to say such a thing? I'm pretty sure he didn't mean any harm, probably just trying to embarrass me (letting me know he was watching me) with what he thought was light-hearted humor. But I was crushed by it.  Damn stupid man. 

Could it have been a flirtatious comment?

No, I'm pretty sure not. Just a stupid remark. One day though I'm going to have to go into my store while he's there during a time when my mom and I are out shopping and make sure I dress up really nice, just to see show him up, that I can be pretty, when I'm not working.