Jill - you stand out to me as somebody whose posts I relate to. So thank you.

haha! i am now on of the 7 rulers of the underworld xD great. what was that old man thinking. anyways, i have invites to my coronation xD

My boss man has me coming in at 11:30 a.m instead of 3:30 p.m.  tomorrow. 

I feel so manly calling him my boss man.

hey malachite, i think your dethronement is at hand once i take the seat as one of the 7 kings of the underworld xD

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal on June 04, 2014, 07:44:02 PM
hey malachite, i think your dethronement is at hand once i take the seat as one of the 7 kings of the underworld xD

Have fun with that, lol.

Quote from: King Malachite on June 04, 2014, 07:46:22 PM
Have fun with that, lol.

it'll be easy xD i have control over the national registry of royal lines and kings xD tehehehehe....but, i cant do that because it needs to be voted on so your safe.......for now 

hmmm sure why not?   

*giggles* tehehehe 

I'm a metalhead and horror fanboy who thrives in chaos. is going to school to be a mad neuroscientist, and who wants to be a witch and a supervillain.
I like being me.

I wonder if there's a word for someone who really likes dark stuff who isn't a goth. I hate goth subculture mostly due to the ones I've met.

Quote from: Jill F on June 04, 2014, 05:46:51 PM
Right now I'm not really in such a great place.  I'm guessing it's really because I'm on the wrong end of my hormonal cycle right now, but sometimes I wonder if my presence here is actually doing any good for me or anyone else.   I probably trigger a lot of people without realizing it.  I try to help out as much as I can and give back to the community that has helped me immeasurably, but I feel sometimes like I just end up making things worse.  I try to add as much levity as I can here, but I sometimes wonder if people take it as a kind of mockery.  I also get very snarky sometimes.  I can't help it, it is just who I am.

I was almost dead not so long ago, and by some miracle, everything seems to be resolving itself now.  I am basically a sunny, happy person now, when dark clouds once seemed to follow me everywhere.  I was this dark, bitter, sarcastic a*hole that people once walked on eggshells around.  I like who I am so much more now, as do most people.  Susan's made me realize that as far as MTFs go, I'm actually pretty "standard issue".  In fact it's the only place I've ever been where I did not feel like a complete misfit.  Some days it makes me feel a lot better about my future and helps to quashes that "fear of the unknown" that I have always felt, and some days I end up crying a lot because I care so much about all of you and know deep down that I am probably powerless to help alleviate your pain and anguish.

I really do love all of you, but I'm thinking I actually might be doing more damage than good here just by being me and being honest.

If I ever made anyone feel worse, I am truly sorry.   Maybe I should just stick to what I do best and caption avatars occasionally?

Oh Jill, you don't know how much I like and appreciate you, your personality and the levity you bring at times, don't you dare go anywhere my friend. And be advised that we all get those same feelings about ourselves and how we are received by others, it's no biggie hon, that feeling is BS and it will go away eventually, it's just the devil screwing with your head. ((Hugs) the Shanster

I LOOK LIKE A COW!!! ugh!

Quit beatin' yourself up Jill, several folks including myself think you're pretty cool   

I'm thinking I forgot to take something again today.  That might explain things.  Orchi can't come soon enough.

Hang in Jill, lots of us love you - dare I say even the Aussies!!

I wonder what happened to Jamie D. 

wish my fangs were longer always the female vampires that get the shorter fangs than the males -.- its not right. DISCRIMINATION I TELL YOU!

Jill, we've never really talked but when I see your name I get a warm feeling. I'm always interested in what you have to say.

Quote from: MacG on June 04, 2014, 12:34:41 AM
Whenever I see "WPATH" I think WarPATH!

Me too!

hmmm... what I was thinking? oh yeah, completely fried from the crazy ass day.

And.. tomorrow I'm going to try to go to a barber shop again. I'm way too stubborn to give up because a guy is an ass.

I'm thinking I missed more doses than I thought.  Mess with my routine, get drunk a few times and this is what happens.  I just found 3 dutasterides that I forgot to take this last week and I'm guessing I forgot my E and P more than once lately.

That's it.  After the orchi, I'm switching to pellets.

Sorry if I've been a downer, folks.

You can't leave, it just wouldn't be the same. You certainly never brought me down, gave me things to think about though. Usually right after that you do something funny. Takes practice to post in just the right places so that it happens that way.

Quote from: King Malachite on June 04, 2014, 11:04:43 PM
I wonder what happened to Jamie D.

Jamie deleted their account. But i'm still in touch. They're doing fine.  I can give them a message if you like.