For me, it's like, when something catches my interest in a sexual way, I can feel it. I feel like I'm getting a hard-on and my pants/underwear actually feel tighter, however, when you look, you don't see anything out of the ordinary. It's actually very upsetting, because as a male, I'm a homo...and I'm not the type that likes to take it if you get my drift.

It kills me a little inside to feel that, what I call, invisa-dick and not be able to use it. I want to have bottom surgery, but if I still can't use it, what is the point? I've used toys with my boyfriend, and I do get some satisfaction from it, but it's not the same. He supports me in whatever direction I choose to go with the gender thing, but has stated that he's happy with me as am. He doesn't want to risk my being inable to orgasm just so he can look at a penis.

But I digress... I know what you mean by it just 'being there'. I've felt it all my life, and probably always will.

This has always been a bit of an internal arguement for the last few years for me. I don't identify as FtM and I don't want surgery because I don't want to have any permanent changes; I like my breasts and vagina sometimes. But sometimes I very very much want the male genitalia. It's all a matter of what mood I am in. Sometimes I love to be the "female" but sometimes that urge to penetrate is so strong, when I realize I can't sometimes I have an emotional breakdown. So it's pretty obvious I know what the "Phantom penis" sensation feels like, because sometimes I really do feel it there and wish it was there.

It feels like I'm making such a big deal of something I can never have, but I don't think I am. This is something that has begun to get very painful for me but I could never transition.

My biggest fantasy is to be able to switch the way my body looks, including organs as often as I like, thus resulting in a fluid gender identity and sexuality; but alas, it is only a dream that I know will ever come to fruitation.

Quote from: Phate on September 01, 2007, 06:06:02 PM
My biggest fantasy is to be able to switch the way my body looks, including organs as often as I like, thus resulting in a fluid gender identity and sexuality; but alas, it is only a dream that I know will ever come to fruitation.

      This actually sounds like an interesting idea for a series of graphic novels.  Stories in a world where some, if not all, people can change their sex things to what they feel like being.  There'd be these characters that show up to meet with their friends and the friends don't look at them twice except maybe to say, "so you're feeling like Liza today, huh?" or "so, you're lou today?".
      I like the idea of mixing it up too.

     I used to have a phantom vag, but it comes around less now. I suppose it found a better friend to hang out with.   By thw way, has anybody seen my vag?    If so, tell her I need her.        

Quote from: Rebis on September 01, 2007, 11:24:02 PM
     I used to have a phantom vag, but it comes around less now. I suppose it found a better friend to hang out with.   By thw way, has anybody seen my vag? 

Yes.

  Nfr

So, how big are your phantom members?

Do you have phantom balls too or just the shaft?

4th floor, please. Why does the elevator ALWAYS stop on this floor, er topic?

Quote from: Seshatneferw on September 03, 2007, 08:12:52 AM

Quote from: Rebis on September 01, 2007, 11:24:02 PM
     I used to have a phantom vag, but it comes around less now. I suppose it found a better friend to hang out with.   By thw way, has anybody seen my vag? 

Yes.

  Nfr

Thanks, I hadn't realized that it was up for sale.

Quote from: Seshatneferw on September 03, 2007, 08:12:52 AM

Yes.

  Nfr

lmao   there hella cheap to hehehehe   gonna buy some 4 xmas presents >

LOL    Good idea Chris!  So who are you going to give these gifts to on Christmas?  your family?  >

tink

Quote from: Nero on June 22, 2007, 09:43:04 PM
Very great thread, Wishy. So, do you feel it's presence all the time or just during sexual escapades? I feel it during those times, or rather the lack of it. I'll be putting the moves on someone, and have the urge to penetrate, then I'll be like 'wait a minute, something's missing.'
At those times, I am like a crackhead without a pipe. Product in hand, but nothing to hit it with. They've got to hit it, they're going to hit it - tearing out basement pipes and structures, tv antennas, whatever it takes. I'm resourceful like a crackhead. I don't happen to have the right tool for this project, I've got to make do. So, I do notice it at times like this.

I hear you on that one. Although I haven't participated in any kind of sexual activity for almost a year, when I was it drove me nuts that I couldn't do what I so desperately wanted to.

More recently I've felt the lack when I go to the toilet. I keep going in there, standing in front of it wondering why on earth I'll end up pissing down my leg if I try standing up.

once at around two o'clock in the morning i had to go to the washroom and i was still pretty such asleep but i stood in front of the toilet and pulled down my pants and just went all over the floor. i guess i thought i had a penis...but i woke up pretty quick when i realized what was happening

Quote from: Nero on June 22, 2007, 09:43:04 PM
Very great thread, Wishy. So, do you feel it's presence all the time or just during sexual escapades? I feel it during those times, or rather the lack of it. I'll be putting the moves on someone, and have the urge to penetrate, then I'll be like 'wait a minute, something's missing.'
At those times, I am like a crackhead without a pipe. Product in hand, but nothing to hit it with. They've got to hit it, they're going to hit it - tearing out basement pipes and structures, tv antennas, whatever it takes. I'm resourceful like a crackhead. I don't happen to have the right tool for this project, I've got to make do. So, I do notice it at times like this.

Okay, I know this thread is old and dead, but Chris posted the link to it in another (current) thread and when I read this particular comment, I *had* to respond.

Nero, I TOTALLY know what you mean about the "crackhead without a pipe" (lol... "pipe") phenomenon. When this happens I usually succumb to using a strap-on, but it's just. not. good. enough. And then I feel completely crazed and can totally relate to the crackhead analogy...

I have SUCH a strong desire to penetrate my partner with MY OWN penis... Most times this desire is beyond painful, it's absolutely heartbreaking. I'm pretty set on eventually getting a meto, because to me it feels more right for my needs (but I completely respect that for others it's not the right choice for them), but the one fear I have is that meto won't allow me to have penetrative intercourse. Gah!

i hope it does cos otherwise we're stuck with a peice of plastic for the rest of our lives. don't even care (much) what size it ends up as long as i can do something with it. and yes i've got the phantom as well