I've been on such an emotional roller coaster lately. I go from feeling great enough to walk out the door fully fem, and then it seems I sink right back into fear. I go from believing in myself and knowing this is what I want to worrying that I've just convinced myself of it all. It's very tiresome and I've found myself slipping into old habits of dissociation, which worries me. I guess I got better at repressing things than I had thought. 

 Hey,

Sometimes the fear of doing something stops us from moving forward.  Girl, I failed so badly for so long.  I literally had a woman run forward, grab her child and glare at me as she retreated. That is a fail.

But I had to be me.   I just got a friend and went anyway.  Don't let fear stop you from enjoying life.

I also worked like mad to get FFS.  Now, I pass.  But I remember the fear.

Hugs,

Jen