you look adorable. if it makes you feel any better i look like i was just barfed up by some slime monster -.-

O would some power the giftie gie us to see ourselves as others see us.
(O would some power the gift to give us to see ourselves as others see us.)
    Robert Burns, Poem "To a Louse" - verse 8
    Scottish national poet (1759 - 1796)

All you who think you are ugly have no idea how pretty you really are. It isn't the packaging that matters to anyone important, it is the you that is inside. I don't see any ugly there.

thanks guys...

I talked to my therapist about this and now she is gone for 4 months. She wanted me to maybe find a trans support group, and I have considered it, but I feel like it would just trigger me and I probably would end up just saying I'm an SO or something. The thing is I feel misunderstood.

I feel like I'm the only person with this internal problem ;_; im supposed to feel good about my presentation but i dont. it just makes me want to die and i am feeling so stuck.

eep. i know the exact feeling going through therapist to therapist, but most of them were lacking what i needed and the rest just gave up hope on me, thus they just slapped the crazy label on me and just drugged me, thus why my body developed immunity to any type of medication. wish i could just give you a hug and cry with you. i'm going through my little phase but whats helping now is my headphones. i just put them on and drown the world out until i can stand just a bit and handle what i need to. 

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 13, 2014, 12:26:52 PM
eep. i know the exact feeling going through therapist to therapist, but most of them were lacking what i needed and the rest just gave up hope on me, thus they just slapped the crazy label on me and just drugged me, thus why my body developed immunity to any type of medication. wish i could just give you a hug and cry with you. i'm going through my little phase but whats helping now is my headphones. i just put them on and drown the world out until i can stand just a bit and handle what i need to.

AWweee, thank you for your support. *HUGS*

And so sorry to hear about your experience with therapists. I had bad experiences before... but my current one is way awesome, but is now gone. ;O;

drowning out the world sounds gooood right now ;-; I feel like such a whiny person. I'm hung over though... drank way too much last night, gah, and I'm gonna get fat.

Quote from: sad panda on June 13, 2014, 12:33:24 PM
AWweee, thank you for your support. *HUGS*

And so sorry to hear about your experience with therapists. I had bad experiences before... but my current one is way awesome, but is now gone. ;O;

drowning out the world sounds gooood right now ;-; I feel like such a whiny person. I'm hung over though... drank way too much last night, gah, and I'm gonna get fat.

well at least you were having fun. was home trying to force feed myself or i would of went into shock due to lack of food intake and would of gotten slapped with another mental illness label -.-

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 13, 2014, 12:35:41 PM
well at least you were having fun. was home trying to force feed myself or i would of went into shock due to lack of food intake and would of gotten slapped with another mental illness label -.-

hahh ;;

I already got my garbage bin borderline dx, what else can they throw at me??

I wonder if it's normal to start to feel like you don't matter at all as you get older... lol 

you should eat something though...

<<<opposite problem

Quote from: sad panda on June 13, 2014, 12:40:58 PM
hahh ;;

I already got my garbage bin borderline dx, what else can they throw at me??

I wonder if it's normal to start to feel like you don't matter at all as you get older... lol 

you should eat something though...

<<<opposite problem

food is evilness to the max! i know. i'll just eat frozen fruits. they are small and maybe my stomach is up to the task of taken them. well its better than those days i just want to eat pints of rocky road ice cream and watch reruns of this old house lol