Hi everyone !
Firstly, i want to apologize in advance for my English !
I'm French, and even if i have learned English, i can't pretend that i'm bilingual !
Who i am ?Actually, a French guy of 26 years old, living in Paris suburbs.
I was a Web Developer, and now trying to start an Indie Game Development Career.
The storyI can't pretend that my life was bad in my young years.
I was living things normally, i was an Heterosexual person, very curious, open to the others and to the spirituality.
However, i used to have some strange behaviors in my way of thinking - i mean, according to the standards - : Since the beginning, when i started masturbating i was always placing me as the girl in my thought / phantasms. Not every time, but more in this way than in the boy position.
I had some girlfriends, and it was always because i was in love, i never used to date someone for sex, because it was not what i was searching.
My last ex-girlfriend said me a day that it was strange to make love with me, she had the impression that she was having sex with a girl. It's true that in my personality, i'm may be more sensitive and patient than guys.
Some years ago, i discovered that i was Bisexual.
One year after, i met my actual boyfriend.
I had some crisis during our relation. At the beginning of our relation, i was the "Active" of the couple. I mean, i don't have choose, that was like that for him. And you know, thanks to my natural patience and open mind, it was not a problem for me to do that. I had girlfriends before, so i thought that it was normal too.
But at some moment, he asked me to be more manly. And here was the crisis, i remember that every time he asked me to be more manly, few day later, and after trying, i was having a crisis, saying that i'm not that much manly, and that i wanted to be a woman !
This happened several time...
Then things changed in our couple. He realized that he is manly and strong and completely changed his mind, letting me having the woman role, i don't mean specially the sex, but in our couple in general.
Now free to be me, and after some thinking about what i just said to you today, i thought :
"Hey ! But maybe i'm just a woman ! Even if i don't feel bad in my living, every crisis and theses strange behavior link to this !".
Since a few time, i'm thinking about starting an HRT. But i'm also thinking to find who i am really. I think that i'm guy and a girl, but more a girl than a guy, in my everyday sensibility.
So...i'm here, maybe to have some support, advice, to find my way...
Thanks for reading
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PS: I wish my English was not so bad !
