Well, by orders of my therapist, i must go to the hospital.  If i dont update tonight than its because they kept me. Cya all soon

Take time to get well again.

Hugs

i dont like the look of this,

hopefully my mind is just on overtime,if it is,

come back soon Brianna xxxx

Good luck sweetie. I hope you can get the help you need. 

Ditto. Good luck Brianna. I hope you get everything sorted out.

The doctor didnt see me as a flight risk so he let me go.

You inspired me to cook you some dinner. Unfortunately, it doesn't travel electronically very well.


so,...how about a furry KAT hug?

I'm highly upset but they didnt downplay me this time

I imagine it feels good to be taken seriously.

Not as relieving as i thought. It makes me feel worse

Why do you think that is?

Idk. I'm in a state of utter regret right now

Regretting going to the hospital?

Regret even opening my mouth. Sure i wasnt happy  but i could of just poured more concrete on this and lived though eventually the strain would be to much but non the less. All i'm getting is unabswered questions and just being tossed from one doctor to the next

I can understand not wanting to be bounced around, it is hard to trust anyone when you don't know if you will even see them again.

I do think you need to open up to someone though. You have been through a lot and it takes time and someone who knows how to help you to get through it all.

You are worth getting help, you have new friends that care. Keep making appointments with your therapist. No one said it would be easy.

Enough advice, I talk too much some times.

no, you dont talk to much. its me just feeling ugh. i know its not easy nor do i expect it to. its just i'm tired of being bounced around when clearly it only increasing my already weakened state. i dont want to hope back on this ride once i get off. once i get off, i'm off for good even if it does eventually kill me from the strain

Let's hope this therapist proves useful then. I really would like to see you get in a better place.

he's helping, its just me

maybe i should just go away for awhile. i'm just to down to drowned to think anymore

That down til your head is nothing but fluff feeling do you mean? If so, I been there. I'm not sure how I got out though. I'll have to think about that.

No need to leave where you have friends though. Don't separate yourself from those who care.