Quote from: Marcel on June 15, 2014, 08:35:10 AM
Birthday sucked so much. We're going out to eat where my dad wants for Father's Day yet we will be celebrating both my birthday and his special day. Apparently, I got my hopes up when they asked me where I wanted to go, which wasn't this Mexican restaurant we are going to. My uncle didn't remember to say Happy Birthday and my brother's plan in coming over last night fell through again. My mom just gave me the birthday card this morning yet she was able to give it to me last night when she got home from the airport.

I'm really not in the mood. .-.

Too bad Marcel, gee it was your day really, Mother's and Father's days are just bogus Hallmark Holidays that adults shouldn't be celebrating over their own child's birthday. That really sucks!

Quote from: Shantel on June 15, 2014, 09:50:27 AM
Too bad Marcel, gee it was your day really, Mother's and Father's days are just bogus Hallmark Holidays that adults shouldn't be celebrating over their own child's birthday. That really sucks!

Not even a birthday cake or slice was seen. Sigh.

Quote from: Marcel on June 15, 2014, 10:16:00 AM
Not even a birthday cake or slice was seen. Sigh.

((Hugs))

Quote from: Marcel on June 15, 2014, 10:16:00 AM
Not even a birthday cake or slice was seen. Sigh.

It'll be ok Marcel. I too had a crappy b-day this year, and it was my 25th one too! That isn't your ordinary b-day you know. My sis didn't wish me a happy b-day till the following day which was via email I'll add and she made an excuse for not doing so on my b-day, my Dad & his wife didn't send me a card or wish me a happy b-day at all. (I'd told them if it misgendered me, or said anything that goes against who I am and such then to not give me one) The rest of what little family I have didn't call me, send me a card or email/etc. me at all. Not to mention, I didn't get a single b-day present from anyone. The only b-day wishes I got was from one online friend, and b-day wishes in a video game. As for cake and the like, I knew if I didn't bake myself one then it wasn't going to happen so I did just that. Heck, I even bought myself a present or two and wrapped them up, which I later on my b-day opened by myself, yup, spent the day by myself practically. So, I get how you feel, it sucks when this sort of stuff happens on your b-day but hey, there's always the next one! Oh and, though late, Happy birthday Marcel!

Quote from: paula lesley on June 15, 2014, 11:50:42 AM
It pains me to say; because I'm a happy person. I feel like SH*T I feel like death warmed up. I'm on week 10 of " T " blocker ( sub-derm implant 12 week term ) It does not last 12 f**king weeks  From week 9 my joy just slides away. I  just feel  terrible    ... Ad infinitum...  I don't like this I really don't. Sorry.

Poor Baby, perhaps it's time for a conversation with your hormone provider and try a different route!

The consultation for the BA just had the effect of increasing my dysphoria and worsening my body image.

Quote from: Shana-chan on June 15, 2014, 11:46:46 AM
It'll be ok Marcel. I too had a crappy b-day this year, and it was my 25th one too! That isn't your ordinary b-day you know. My sis didn't wish me a happy b-day till the following day which was via email I'll add and she made an excuse for not doing so on my b-day, my Dad & his wife didn't send me a card or wish me a happy b-day at all. (I'd told them if it misgendered me, or said anything that goes against who I am and such then to not give me one) The rest of what little family I have didn't call me, send me a card or email/etc. me at all. Not to mention, I didn't get a single b-day present from anyone. The only b-day wishes I got was from one online friend, and b-day wishes in a video game. As for cake and the like, I knew if I didn't bake myself one then it wasn't going to happen so I did just that. Heck, I even bought myself a present or two and wrapped them up, which I later on my b-day opened by myself, yup, spent the day by myself practically. So, I get how you feel, it sucks when this sort of stuff happens on your b-day but hey, there's always the next one! Oh and, though late, Happy birthday Marcel!

I'm sorry to hear that. Looks like I'll have to treat myself to Olive Garden and eat alone.

I woke up and was immediately hit with dysphoria. And it's the kind of dysphoria that surgery won't entirely fix.

pmsing

My girlfriend made me feel dysphoric in front of other people and seems like she can't understand how much she hurt me.

If talked to her, I'm really sad because I love her but I'm considering about breaking.

The fact that my posts rant worth commenting on I know that I am still pre everything and not as cute as most of the girls on here but I am doing what I can with what I have got sometimes I don't really know why I bother,  apart from seeing the transformations on here that give me hope that one day I will be able to pass and be happy with myself I feel as though I am seen on here and that is all.

Sorry for the rant but I am really annoyed

Scrolling a seller's item's for sell on Ebay for games and the dude was also selling some saw a dvd an image of some demon I can't get out of my head.  :/

Season 4 game of thrones is over

just not a good day.

My kids, and sister texted HFD to me, mom called, left voice msg on my phone, crying.  Then the b1tch, texted to wife at me.. oh, I'm sorry, I meant... the wife, texted to b1tch at me, that the kids were upset about it being FD, and I'm 1) not home, and 2) not wanting to be a guy anymore.  Yeah, welcome to the dark side of my moon.

Threw my back out earlier today    It hurts to move, it hurts to breath, don't even bring up coughing, sneezing or itchy, watering eyes... Yes, it is also allergy season 

Quote from: V M on June 16, 2014, 01:12:10 AM
Threw my back out earlier today    It hurts to move, it hurts to breath, don't even bring up coughing, sneezing or itchy, watering eyes... Yes, it is also allergy season 

Sounds like time for a warm bath and a 'clean' room, hepa filter style.

the thought when all is said and done, my possibilities of making my transition is virtually zero

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 16, 2014, 02:49:10 AM
the thought when all is said and done, my possibilities of making my transition is virtually zero

I don't believe this. For one thing, you are young and have time to sort things out. Two, you have us to help.

Quote from: LordKAT on June 16, 2014, 02:54:37 AM
I don't believe this. For one thing, you are young and have time to sort things out. Two, you have us to help.

i just dont think i have the enough energy to do both. my emotional stability comes first over everything else so i have to do my treatment over the idea of transitioning. thats why i dont think its possible at this time. maybe in the next few years. yes, i said it, i'm putting my stability first though i may not like it, it has to be done