Quote from: Miss Demoness on June 18, 2014, 04:07:11 PM
I don't see why so many of you have insecurity issues with yourselves. Women come in all shapes, sizes, personalities, and physical characteristics. Beauty is relative thus subjective to each individual person. Everyone is always beautiful so someone no matter how much disdain we have for our personal appearance.
Yes, you're right, they do. My insecurities is that I am not a woman in the same league as those born of the right body. My very first insecurities with myself started down below with that thing between my legs around puberty, later once I knew what the issue was a started addressing it as well as trying to accept it, and trying to fit in with societal norms as a woman, yet not quite in physical form, all other insecurities emerged, adam's apple firstly and always, but other things such as too much muscle (arms as well as too bulking shoulder muscles in particular), not enough ass, not wide enough hips, still very small teenage breasts that most of the time look more like man-boobs than anything, and the constant plucking of hair, and other things like my voice. The way I see it, hmm, all those worries aren't much different than the average cis-gender woman, so I guess I'm okay.
The last place I had worked back in North Carolina, one of my coworkers, while she did have a cuteness about her, she was built like a girly tank, had no hips, a small butt like a guy, but big wide shoulders, if I hadn't known her before hand and she were wearing guy clothes I'd had thought she were a dude if I had seen her from the rear first. But she wasn't, all girl (and mother of two) all the way. Also had a manager lady (somewhat older but still kinda pretty) that wore a mustache all the time on her face, I had always wondered why she never shaved it off, but I guess it simply just didn't bother her, she was comfortable with herself. See, but they are complete, always ever being right inside and out, so no dysphoria over not being accepted, or just not feeling right with themselves when looking in the mirror.
I actually like my appearance for the most part, I couldn't ever think now of having someone else's face, just mine. I could handle my body shape, and well that can be shaped a little more with certain types of exercise or body wear. But its those things that are male that keep me in that constant state of insecurity, always that fear of being discovered for what I was, not how I live my life and feel on the inside. I am female living within a shell of a man, I think that is good enough reason in itself for any issues I have regarding my body.
I have had tons of guys over the years ask me out or tell me how pretty I am, as well as others such as on this very site, but no matter how many compliments I get, its still not easy to accept that I am wrongly built, so all I see on those times that it does bother me are the flaws.
