Last weekend I told my parents that I am trans* and today I went over to my parent's house and talked to them about the questions that they had this week.  It was amazing.  My mom told me that there is no reason to hide my painted toenails, so we all went into the pool and had some long conversations about life and such.

Now we are all (my mom, me, and my dad) going to get pedicures in the near future.  I can't get my manicure on until I am fully vested at work (about 2 months from now) but I am so ready to just come out with everyone. 

There is no reason for me to hide who I am, and there never was! 

Girls, we gotta just do us, and let the rest of the world do them.  They can coincide but you have to let them.  Don't be afraid of the unknown... just let it be known and then react accordingly!

<3

cant really say i got over my self hatred but i can say i like the fact i finally just let go so i'm a lot more tolerant of myself o: so i guess that could count as a start

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 20, 2014, 11:35:22 PM
cant really say i got over my self hatred but i can say i like the fact i finally just let go so i'm a lot more tolerant of myself o: so i guess that could count as a start

OMG!  That is definitely a start!  It is way bigger than you can imagine right now.

My aunt just recently came out as lesbian, and I was talking to her earlier and we both agreed that accepting yourself for who you are is one of the hardest things to do.  After you reach that point, there isn't anything you can't achieve! 

Self-hatred is no way to live, babe.  You need to embrace whatever makes you the most uncomfortable and go with it.  I've changed so much in the past few months because I realized that I am living my life, no one else's... I'm just unlearning all of the things that I did to make myself appear manly.  There is no feminization going on, it's just me undoing the things that I taught myself to make me more masculine.   It's truly amazing and I am so excited about everything in the future!

Quote from: FilaFord on June 20, 2014, 11:46:10 PM
OMG!  That is definitely a start!  It is way bigger than you can imagine right now.

My aunt just recently came out as lesbian, and I was talking to her earlier and we both agreed that accepting yourself for who you are is one of the hardest things to do.  After you reach that point, there isn't anything you can't achieve! 

Self-hatred is no way to live, babe.  You need to embrace whatever makes you the most uncomfortable and go with it.  I've changed so much in the past few months because I realized that I am living my life, no one else's... I'm just unlearning all of the things that I did to make myself appear manly.  There is no feminization going on, it's just me undoing the things that I taught myself to make me more masculine.   It's truly amazing and I am so excited about everything in the future!

ehh, i guess your right lol. now a days i go to sleep smiling waiting for the next day to come along, though my exhaustion has finally hit me. battle fatigue maybe? o:

When I finally worked up the courage to do the following things (in chronological order):

Finally being honest to myself about who/what I am
Coming out to my wife
Calling myself Jill
Making an appointment with a therapist
Making appointments with a psychiatrist and an endocrinologist
Showing up to said appointments
Actually taking the estrogen
Leaving my house fully dressed
Figuring out that this is who I really am
Going full time
Coming out to the world
Getting a court date to change my name
Getting a surgery date
Knowing I will live the rest of my life out as my true self instead of that knucklehead I pretended to be

Realizing/remembering that I stood no chance for me to learn the good things I've learned from transition without transition. That has led directly to the last three days and for the first time since I went full time, finally feeling secure in my womanhood.

I saw myself in the mirror sans penis?

I finally see just a woman in the mirror. No more, no less.
I couldn't be happier.

My neo-vagina that I've just put 2 weeks ago

Quote from: Evolving Beauty on June 21, 2014, 08:41:29 AM
My neo-vagina that I've just put 2 weeks ago

Congratulations! And my wishes of no complications :-) .

Gradually since my first visit to the therapy my quality of life started to slowly improve from negative numbers. And since like half of May I started to get self-confidence. Still I mostly confined myself to existing routines as I felt safe. Which pretty much meant staying at home and going outside just to get to work.

I don't know what happened in my brain this Monday but since then I started to truly love my life. I started to explore the streets around my Prague flat and have to almost constantly smile. I guess it's related to the sexist looks I started to get when walking past men and similarly not being talked to like I'm a man for like 3 weeks or so :-) .

Quote from: ZoeM on June 21, 2014, 08:00:58 AM
I saw myself in the mirror sans penis?

I finally see just a woman in the mirror. No more, no less.
I couldn't be happier.

I'm so very happy for you Zoe it's hard to put into words. Congrats. girl!

I can't wait until I have this moment. I've waited sooooooo very very veeeeery long for it so when it happens next year I probably won't be able to contain my happiness and elation. For now though as I see my face change and my boobies grow even feeling their soreness I love myself more and more each day! This is coupled by everybody addressing me with the proper pronouns. Even the hardcore holdouts no longer call me a "he" anymore because of the way I look now. I think they're afraid of looking foolish.

One instance that comes to mind is I got in the checkout line behind one of these men a week ago at out local Citco, and he didn't recognize me at all. He even held the door for me on my way out. I laughed all the way back to my truck.

Ally

For me it was being happy. After a life of depression and self hatred I finally know what it's like to be happy. I tell people this all the time but I didn't realize that I could be this happy about my life all the time. I'm not trying to say that everything is perfect. It's not, but now when I face an issue in my life I have hope that it can be resolved and I can see a clear path to solve.