I don't know, I've dreamt about it all my life. It's be a long road just getting to where I am now with the transitioning and changes. I'm very happy that I made it at least this far. I dream and fantasize about being complete every day all day. I think there is hope for me in the near future to get it done. On the other hand I am able to cope and use a very colorful imagination which the HRT is helping immensely . I happen to be hard wired bi so I am able to manage without the complete anatomy , but it definitely would be incredibly blissful to walk down the street in a beautiful dress and be totally complete. Or to be sitting in a bar  and get hit on by a handsome man and end up naked in his arms.

Very. It's for myself and for whoever I'm dating.

I'll definitely be getting the surgery because I need to have a vagina, I can't live with a dick my whole life tbh

But I also want it because I wanna have sex with guys, you know? I don't tell people that as much because the last time I did, my trans friend shamed me for it and later told me she wishes I'd become a lesbian

Sigh

Having spent my formative years as an outcast, for me transitioning has always been and still is about acceptance. I have since learned that self acceptance is so much more an important aspect then having achieved my life long dream of being seen as and accepted as a woman. Without some measure of self acceptance I have never been able to accept, much less appreciate, any of the gifts I have received in my life.

The dangly bits were never a driver in my life. Sure, I wish I never had them. Yet, we have had some good to great times together. For now I believe GRS is not in my future. Yet again, a few years ago I would have said the same thing about thoughts of transitioning.

As for me when the time comes and I'll get a paper with title like "Informed Agreement with Sex Reassignment Surgery" I'll 100% ask for vaginoplasty. I simply can't withstand that mess between my legs to be satisfied with orchidectomy which is sufficient for a legal sex conversion here in Czech. Plus how could I start a relationship without the correct parts? That will the challenge number 2 after this is done :-) .

Also once all is nicely healed up the first thing I'm going to do is taking at least a two week vacation in a certain aquapark in eastern Slovakia as swimming is one of the activities I also truly look forward to :-) .

Still, all that will have to wait. My guess is I'll get my SRS during fall in 2015 and the corrective labiaplasty 2-4 months later. So everything will be all ready for spring 2016 :-) .

I don't know how I feel about it, like I want it... but I don't know his much of that feeling is what I actually feel and how much of it is just... well as embarrassing as it is to say... a sexual fetish. I've kinda given myself fur years to decide/ save the money to try and figure it out :/


I know that ^ sounds weird, but Its my honest opinion

My FFS is more monumental and I'm having that done this year or early next year. From certain angles I'm passable, but I need some work done. SRS/GRS is a close second, and I have recently been doing research on surgeons here in the US based on cost and travel distance.

Quote from: Christine Eryn on June 21, 2014, 10:50:19 AM
My FFS is more monumental and I'm having that done this year or early next year. From certain angles I'm passable, but I need some work done. SRS/GRS is a close second, and I have recently been doing research on surgeons here in the US based on cost and travel distance.

there are two female surgeons in the US that I'm going to choose from

Any doubt, don't.

Quote from: stephaniec on June 21, 2014, 10:55:32 AM
there are two female surgeons in the US that I'm going to choose from

Do tell! I had Dr. Bowers in the back of my mind for years as I visited Colorado many times, that was until she moved to San Francisco! I recently discovered this doctor:

http://www.srsmiami.com/MTF-male-to-female.html

Although I haven't heard too much buzz about him. Also considering Dr. McGinn, but she's way up in PA.

good to know

It got more and more important the more I fixed about my life and body - once I was fully transitioned and everything else was what I'd hoped, it began to really gnaw at me. Of course, I only had the one surgery (GRS) so I guess by definition it was priority 1.

I did have some doubts, actually, but I know myself well enough to know I second-guess myself about *everything,* and that I'd be happy afterwards. (Which I am, blissfully so.)

It's very important to me, but like Christine FFS is even more important. It's going to be hard for me to feel comfortable integrating socially as a woman when I don't feel like I pass as one.

I tell myself I don't care what others think, but I know that to some extent I do. I realize it's by far more important to being accepting of myself and loving of who I am. But isn't a part of our identity derived from our relations to the others around us? Sometimes the perceptions and reactions of others will break through and affect the person I have inside no matter how well I've protected myself.

Because of this GRS is definitely on the long term goals list, but FFS is the more pressing. I don't want to have to worry as much about whether others are clocking me or whether I'm going to be in danger of ridicule or violence because they aren't accepting of who I am.

I have to have it! No if's, and's or nut's!

i'd say it'll become important to me in the next 5-7 year unless.......well you get the picture 

Not important at all. I've learned to appreciate what I have, like I think many people my age do the deeper into transition we get. Who I am is not what's between my legs. And hey, more guys want the MtFs they date to have what I have than a vagina. And I'm not the type of person who would feel comfortable keeping my history a secret from partners

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on June 21, 2014, 02:15:07 PM
unless.......well you get the picture 

Not really. Decline of the Western Economy, zombie apocalypse or what?

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on June 21, 2014, 02:38:56 PM
Not really. Decline of the Western Economy, zombie apocalypse or what?

hahaha! zombie apocalypse, thats a good one  but no, i just dont think its important to me enough to go full-time immediately with that goal in mind only to find out that i would do more damage instead of easing in and taking one step at a time

I am getting a bit too obsessed with the FFS budget, I have a lot of bills, and want to get it done ASAP, say next year. I feel it's so important, I've to do whatever under legal and healthy limits to get the $$ ready. I really want to go full time and pass full time, I think it's paramount to me, and I will never get there without proper FFS. SRS, well, IDK, I guess it can wait, let's go one thing at a time.

I'll be honest.  I don't know the answer yet.

I am currently 98% sure it's happening.  If there's a chance I can get by without it, then great.  I can spare myself the money, hospitalization, risk of complications, dilation schedule and regular maintenance.

I won't know until after the orchi.  If that can be enough for me, then that's great.  End of story.  I will just buy a new car to replace my 2003 Honda Pilot or get some more vintage Fenders instead.

The thing is that I still think about wanting it done several times every day.  If my figure goes from 98% to 99.9%, then I plan to get it done in early 2016.  I think that's more than enough time to mull it over and have the funds set aside.

It was pretty important and alleviated my gender dysphoria issues almost immediately.