Quote from: Aisla on June 21, 2014, 11:55:27 PM
Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today.  Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever.   The Universe has blessed my life.

Aisla

Happy anniversary!!!

Thank you Sylvie.  It really does feel like a real achievement and cause for celebration.  For so long I thought that my wife was my problem when in fact I was the issue.  She is very supportive and loves the improvement in our relationship.   I consider myself to be very, very fortunate.  She even defends me from criticism.  Speechless.   

Aisla

Quote from: Shantel on June 21, 2014, 09:55:08 AM
She is, but knowing Cindy she had an ulterior motive like when my spouse gave her iron away to some missionary who needed an iron, I knew that she hates ironing with a passion, shortly after that all the clothes that needed ironing went to Goodwill and were replaced by wash and wear no ironing needed clothes.

Lol sounds like something I would do

Even with my chest (I was shirtless) I looked in the mirror and saw a guy, albeit a guy with big hairy boobs. That's about as close as I'm going to get to happy without surgery up there lol. My beard is also improving but still fails to fill out on the cheeks the way I want.

Looking in the mirror while eating a peach.

Looking in the mirror while eating a bowl of ice cream.  Oops, got some on my nose. 

This is something that made me happy just a few moments ago.

I've been feeling down as of late. It's mostly cause my mother does some times doubt my being trans, blaming it on other things. It's hard when she calls me a she and such. I mean, the name we use [Chris because I can use it even with still being physically female], but there's still a lot of treating me as a girl.

Now, I was talking to my friend, [by talking I mean messaging on Skype] and we talked about a lot of things. Now she's known me for a little over a year and I've lived with her for about three weeks before I moved up with my mom. We were talking and she actually already knew there was something wrong. She has mom senses, cause she has her children, and I'm like a son of sorts to her. We talked and just telling her made me feel better. Knowing I have someone I can tell things to helps a lot and makes me happy.

Quote from: birkin on June 22, 2014, 12:52:27 AM
Even with my chest (I was shirtless) I looked in the mirror and saw a guy, albeit a guy with big hairy boobs. That's about as close as I'm going to get to happy without surgery up there lol. My beard is also improving but still fails to fill out on the cheeks the way I want.

Not all guys beards fill out on their cheeks mine never did thank goodness

I think my friend likes me since she keeps complimenting me saying that I'm caring, funny, helpful, awesome and easy to talk to. She also really believes that I'll look great as a guy once I start hormones and says I'll be super hot and super amazing. Am I just imagining things or does she have a crush on me? O////o

I feel really good today.
I love being me.
I am starting to see myself when I look in the mirror. I look good and closer to how I want to look. I am able to see myself how I want in my mind's eye.
I love being me. It's one of those days where I feel like saying that repeatedly. I mean, it's true everyday, but some days, it hits me harder than others.

I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.

Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme.  It will be my first time out in public.

Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on June 23, 2014, 06:30:16 AM
I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.

Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme.  It will be my first time out in public.

Congrats Kimberly first time out is always the hardest just embrace the real you

Thank you, Emily.  I'm spending the next two hours getting ready before going.

Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on June 23, 2014, 06:30:16 AM
I just discovered something I definitely want to do before I die: kill my own lunch.

Also, I've got an appointment with a counselor tonight and I'm going en femme.  It will be my first time out in public.

You'll do fine if those photos you showed us is any indication of how good you can look en femme Kimberley, good luck!

Quote from: Aisla on June 21, 2014, 11:55:27 PM
Celebrating my 29th Wedding Anniversary today.  Never thought we would get this far, but we have, and we are now better than ever.   The Universe has blessed my life.

Aisla

Happy anniversary hon, keep on doing whatever it is that is working!

Shantel

Thank you.   Still can't believe that we have made it this far, and that it is better than ever.  Perhaps you need the bad times to really enjoy and value the good times.

Quote from: Aisla on June 23, 2014, 09:38:21 AM
Shantel

Thank you.   Still can't believe that we have made it this far, and that it is better than ever.  Perhaps you need the bad times to really enjoy and value the good times.

Yes that's probably true, thing is if you can weather through the bad times that becomes the cement that holds you together, because if it's real love and not just sex then you will find the strength to overcome the awful moments. Too many people have the whole thing backwards putting the cart before the horse and hop in the sack right away, get married because of "really good sex" and find out later that they don't really like each other that much when "the thrill is gone." A good relationship starts out as a solid friendship. Yup, ask BB King he's tell you that when you do it ass backwards what happens when the thrill is gone. 

Congratulations again! 

A friend who I hadn't spoken to for at least a year got in touch today, she was the first person I came out to & super supportive.
For the first 6 months after I came out she would get several phone calls from me in tears each week as I dealt with the aftermath of coming out, she would stay on the phone for as many hours as it took to talk me into a calmer state of mind, she's got the patience of a saint & I wouldn't have survived the first year without her help.
It was great to catch up.

Today also marks one week free of anti depressants with no depression feuled tears. Now that i'm free of these emotion blocking pills i'm experiencing the full range of female emotions, i've cried tears of joy this week & i've shed tears when something touches me deeply but none of the tears have been from depression.

Quote from: Jayne on June 23, 2014, 01:07:59 PM
A friend who I hadn't spoken to for at least a year got in touch today, she was the first person I came out to & super supportive.
For the first 6 months after I came out she would get several phone calls from me in tears each week as I dealt with the aftermath of coming out, she would stay on the phone for as many hours as it took to talk me into a calmer state of mind, she's got the patience of a saint & I wouldn't have survived the first year without her help.
It was great to catch up.

Today also marks one week free of anti depressants with no depression feuled tears. Now that i'm free of these emotion blocking pills i'm experiencing the full range of female emotions, i've cried tears of joy this week & i've shed tears when something touches me deeply but none of the tears have been from depression.

Great friends like that are precious!

Way to go hon! My personal view of anti-depressants is that sometimes the side effects offset any good they may do. I was on effexor aka (Venlafaxine) several years ago and it caused me to have brain shorts and I developed a bad tic from it. I don't do any of that stuff anymore.

So far so good, pads are definitely helping the appearance down below. Now to try it with shorts.