Well, I've finally found what seems to be a steady therapist and she's really sweet too. Anyway, I've only had one session, but it went well. Last one I saw knew nothing of trans issues and pretty much lied about having experience. Plus, I sort of felt uncomfortable talking with a man about these things.

I pretty much made it clear that I'm totally positive of being trans and am sort of having a lifetime of regret come to a head. Also made it pretty clear that I hate my body and everything that comes with it. Didn't ask her if she thought I'd be a good candidate, but she never shot it down, so that's good I guess. I still have no idea if I could pass (still a big deal for me) but I guess I just have to make the best of it and hope.

Now, things can change, but we pretty much set a date for September as far as hrt. Ill be 26 1/2 by then, which will hopefully be young enough to still see results. Over the next couple months or so we'll have a few sessions and speak over the phone.

Just thought I'd give an update. I posted maybe a couple weeks back and I was in a pretty manic state, sorry if I alarmed anyone.

I am happy for you that you have made the decision to go forward and you have a gender therapist.

I would be uncomfortable too... I hope mine is a woman! Still, it's so hard to open up about this stuff with someone I hate this part of transition! I wish you the best of luck with your therapist

mines is a male but he is a part of the LGBT umbrella so i'm comfortable with him. congratz

Quote from: TheQuestion on July 04, 2014, 04:07:32 PM
Well, I've finally found what seems to be a steady therapist and she's really sweet too.

Congratulations!  It's a huge relief, isn't it, once you finally find someone who fits and you can finally talk about all the things swirling around in your head.  This is (in my opinion) one of the most important parts of transitioning, and a good therapist will allow you to approach the craziness of transition with a calm mind and rational thought processes.  She won't have all the answers for you - although she'll have plenty of information to share - but she'll help you find out all the answers you're looking for.  I don't think I've met anyone who has gone into therapy with an open mind who has felt that it was a total waste of time or a step that didn't need to be taken, even those who were sure they wanted to transition from the outset.  It's a fun, revealing process at times too: there's plenty you can learn about yourself and how you think about yourself, and much of what goes on in therapy you can apply to other aspects of your life too.  Stick with it, even when it seems frustrating or difficult or pointless.

Quote from: Emily29 on July 04, 2014, 04:18:03 PM
I would be uncomfortable too... I hope mine is a woman!

Quote from: Vampire Brianna Terryal Onyx on July 04, 2014, 04:23:41 PMmines is a male but he is a part of the LGBT umbrella so i'm comfortable with him.

Interesting.  Mine is female, and I don't think I would have been comfortable seeing a male therapist about these things.  I had a male therapist lined up before I found my current therapist, but I canceled the appointment; something seemed just not right.  Not entirely sure it was because he was male (although I'm pretty sure it was because of that), and I'm 100% glad I found a female therapist in the end.