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Started by Edge, May 06, 2014, 04:39:13 PM

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Bombadil

Poor guy.

I just gave floyd his. It's not working yet. He's hiding under the table. But the bind, brain-damaged, 3-legged pup. She's fine. lol. You just never know






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Felix

All the people who don't like spending holidays alone, I wish I could say something to make it better. I was going to point out how much I always wish I could have a holiday alone so I could make it not a big deal, but the fact that someone needs me and is always around probably sounds like a weird thing to complain about.

But I'm not happy about this holiday. The kid doesn't do well with loud noises, I don't do well with adapting the rituals I grew up with to the food and social habits I live with now, and seeing strangers having fun everywhere is a little frustrating. And I have a cat. He's at least 12 and doesn't enjoy surprises. :laugh:

I'm often logged into world of warcraft whether or not I'm playing, and I'm currently a little weirded out by all the npc fireworks I'm hearing. I should probably spend more time on servers that share my timezone.
everybody's house is haunted
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Bombadil

that makes sense felix.

the reality is holidays are just hard for a lot of people.






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Evelyn K

average and frustrated people...

haters gonnuh hate.

:D

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Blue Senpai

My best friend and I are barely talking much these days...
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King Malachite

Quote from: immortal gypsy on July 04, 2014, 06:38:02 PM
Friends and I have always said pictures or it never happened. It always made us so hard to blackmail.


I actually wanted to take a picture last time, but I couldn't reach my pants pocket, lol.


Quote from: Felix on July 04, 2014, 08:05:01 PM
All the people who don't like spending holidays alone, I wish I could say something to make it better. I was going to point out how much I always wish I could have a holiday alone so I could make it not a big deal, but the fact that someone needs me and is always around probably sounds like a weird thing to complain about.

But I'm not happy about this holiday. The kid doesn't do well with loud noises, I don't do well with adapting the rituals I grew up with to the food and social habits I live with now, and seeing strangers having fun everywhere is a little frustrating. And I have a cat. He's at least 12 and doesn't enjoy surprises. :laugh:

I'm often logged into world of warcraft whether or not I'm playing, and I'm currently a little weirded out by all the npc fireworks I'm hearing. I should probably spend more time on servers that share my timezone.

I'm not a big fan of this holiday either.  Firecrackers used to terrify me.  Plus, I personally just can't justify spending money to see it burn in the air.  I can just do watch others do that, lol.
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Bombadil

I think I'm staying home with the dog. I could go and hang with my friends and watch the fireworks but even if my dog stays calm, being home sounds better. I'm a boring guy.

I do kind of want to go next door and talk to the people cleaning up the house and tell them about the creepy ass fort and how it's a fire hazard and just.. creepy.

not going to do that either. I been doing waaaaay to much socializing for my introverted self.






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the old mare

Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2014, 07:28:14 PM
Hang in there hon, been thinking of you!
things are fine now. Got power back a little bit ago. That last post of mine last night was from my phone, the power had gone out a little before that. I only had a few pieces of soffit get blown off, the roof and everything else was fine on mine. Glad I put the extra effort into doing it well when I rebuilt it. They said the highest clocked wind for us was 102 mph and the eye did go right over us.
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Felix

We actually took the hour-plus each way trip to Toys R Us to get a pseudo-fireworks device that we'd seen in the past, but when we got there she said she didn't want it because it only works inside. They had cone-style fake fireworks that work outside but they didn't look anywhere near as cool. There were a couple other fake ones that looked neat, but they shot small objects into the air, and I just can't see that going well. Even the nearby parks are busy enough (and have enough trees/fences/buildings) that I don't think I want to shoot rockets that we would need to retrieve.

I'm not willing to go downtown, which is our usual place to view fireworks, and I don't want to go to vancouver, so I told my kid that I was not up for traffic and we would be walking around on foot after the sun sets. There's tons of fireworks visible within walking distance, and fewer cops or inebriated revelers than downtown. I think just walking and looking is the only way to celebrate without feeling unsafe. Her current habit of running away makes most parties and gatherings just look like deathtraps to me.
everybody's house is haunted
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Umiko

my hair is now officially 2 inches long xD covers the top end my ears when i brush it down. finally xD
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alabamagirl

I've been thinking a lot about killing myself... Imagining all the different ways I could do it... Sometimes I really don't know what's stopping me. Not much, I don't think. Sometimes I think the only reason I don't go through with it is because I don't live alone, and I don't want to put anyone through the trauma of finding my corpse. I'd feel bad about that. Too bad there isn't some way to completely disappear without a trace.
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V M

The main things to remember in life are Love, Kindness, Understanding and Respect - Always make forward progress

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Bombadil

Pikachu - please take gentle care of yourself. I know suicide can seem like the only way out but things really can get better.






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Shantel

Quote from: Pikachu on July 05, 2014, 08:32:13 AM
I've been thinking a lot about killing myself... Imagining all the different ways I could do it... Sometimes I really don't know what's stopping me. Not much, I don't think. Sometimes I think the only reason I don't go through with it is because I don't live alone, and I don't want to put anyone through the trauma of finding my corpse. I'd feel bad about that. Too bad there isn't some way to completely disappear without a trace.

That's not an option, you are a gentle soul and will be sorely missed, and besides being an entirely too finale means of dealing with temporary problems it is the ultimate act of selfishness toward those who love you and count on you. Don't consider it any further, feel free to pm me anytime sweetie!
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Shantel

Quote from: the old gray mare on July 04, 2014, 09:44:32 PM
things are fine now. Got power back a little bit ago. That last post of mine last night was from my phone, the power had gone out a little before that. I only had a few pieces of soffit get blown off, the roof and everything else was fine on mine. Glad I put the extra effort into doing it well when I rebuilt it. They said the highest clocked wind for us was 102 mph and the eye did go right over us.

Good, glad you are safe! 102 mph is pretty intense. I recall a 100mph windstorm on the Washington coast several years ago, there were a lot of trees going through roofs.
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Bombadil

that storm you remember, shantel, hit my neighborhood hard.

oh man, what did I come here to think.......hmmm....

oh! I am wondering if trans* people have a higher rate of abuse histories. And I'm not talking about those related to being trans but more coming from families that should not have been allowed to breed.






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Adam (birkin)

I wonder if people who grow up fat, and people who get fat later in life, are effected differently by their social experience of fatness.

I am also thinking that this cold totally blows.
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Miss_Bungle1991

Quote from: Pikachu on July 05, 2014, 08:32:13 AM
I've been thinking a lot about killing myself... Imagining all the different ways I could do it... Sometimes I really don't know what's stopping me. Not much, I don't think. Sometimes I think the only reason I don't go through with it is because I don't live alone, and I don't want to put anyone through the trauma of finding my corpse. I'd feel bad about that. Too bad there isn't some way to completely disappear without a trace.

I've had those thoughts before too. They were always very persistent and quite strong. But I decided to just keep fighting them off since I felt that was all I could do. I didn't want to hurt my family with having to deal with the aftermath. (Finding the body, reading the final words). I do live alone, but my mother calls me at least every other day, sometimes a couple times a day, just to say "hello", so I know that she would sense that something wasn't right. Then having one of my other family members being sent over to discover the horrible truth.

No way. I can't do that to them.

Also, I went through some very scary medical stuff in the last few years. I had one night when I literally saw my life flash before my eyes. It was like watching a home movie in your mind on fast forward. One thing I had always heard was this happens right before the end and I was totally freaked out. After going through a long, long period of worrying that I was never going to wake up if I did go to sleep. (Going two and three days with no sleep as a result of this), it changed my outlook on suicide forever.

I haven't considered it ever since that time. Not once. Even if I've had some really bad days. (Which are now very far and few between)
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Shantel

Quote from: birkin on July 05, 2014, 12:27:35 PM
I wonder if people who grow up fat, and people who get fat later in life, are effected differently by their social experience of fatness.

I am also thinking that this cold totally blows.

I dunno, but I do know being fat is an esteem killer. Others have less esteem for someone who is fat than they do those who are trim, and fat people also have less self esteem because of being too fat. I was always a chunkster and have battled it for years, I like to eat, have slow metabolism and am not big on exercise. That combination did me in between the age of 30 until my late 50's when I intentionally addressed it and turned it around. Family and friends would invariably make comments using the word "FAT" and even if it was like, "You are looking slimmer these days" what they really meant was you don't look like such a lard ass lately.  :icon_peace:
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Ltl89

What am I doing with my life?  I often reflect on this with so much self disappointment.  All the things I wanted to accomplish.  All the things I wanted to overcome.  All the things I wanted to experience.  The life I wanted for myself.  At 25, it all seems so much more far away and unlikely for things to change from my current course.  Sometimes you come to realization that this is what life is and you just have to accept it.  And the worst part is no matter how messed up my past was and no matter how many people hurt me or took advantage of me, there really is no one to blame other than myself.  Sure, there were things and people that set me back, but it was inability to overcome things that lays everything all on me.  When it's all said and done, the life I wanted doesn't exist because of me, not just cause of an unfortunate set of circumstances.  And despite this realization, I don't see myself changing for the better.  I'm just going to live in the moment as usual and wonder where my overall dreams and hopes went knowing all too well they died by my own hand and out of fear of change and the unknown. Sorry just had to get this out somewhere.
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