I've often wondered if I should post in this thread... I dream almost every night, and most times remember them... unfortunately. They're rarely good dreams... Maybe it would make me feel a little better to get them off my chest.
I dreamt I ran into my ex in a place we used to frequent. I don't know what I was doing there, because I hate that place, but she was there, having the time of her life. Doing all the things she always tried to force me into doing (not going into detail on this). She was happy. I guess. I knew those people she was hanging around didn't care about her. They don't care about anyone. But she seemed happy. And it made me think that maybe I should give up on the hope of anyone ever loving me, too, and just settle for pretty lies and willful ignorance. No matter how hard I try, how much I give, no one ever loves me...
I woke up terrified, with my heart racing... I wanted someone to hold me and tell me everything was going to be okay, but there was no one to do that, as usual.