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going through a strange period in transition

Started by stephaniec, July 06, 2014, 12:59:52 PM

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stephaniec

I just turned 9 this month and the effects of estrogen seem to be becoming more noticeable to the point where if I put make up on people just smile or ignore me. If I go without makeup I get the most curious looks. People I've know for a long time in and about my neighborhood are excepting the changes quite well. Some are even starting to make playful jokes about my breasts. I think some are indirectly hinting I should wear a dress in the three places I haven't done so yet out of fear of the reaction when I finally do it. This one waiter in a restaurant I go to all the time keeps go crazy emphasizing young man knowing very well  I'm looking pretty far removed from a manly face because he's known me for 10 years. I get the  feeling these people are just helping me make the final leap. The kid radar is on full alert too when I'm without make up , I don't think they understand what's going on and they just stare. It's fun going through these changes because luckily I live in a very liberal area. Has anyone experience the weirdness of your physical changes to other"s that you only know from the street.
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Jessica Merriman

Quote from: stephaniec on July 06, 2014, 12:59:52 PM
Has anyone experience the weirdness of your physical changes to other"s that you only know from the street.
My experience has been with people I grew up with that know, but have not seen me yet. When we do meet they look like they are trying to make up their mind to approach me or turn and act distracted. It kind of hurts they can't see how much happier I am and living life for the first time. Some eventually come around and when they do relax fairly quickly when they see I am not contagious. Same old me (sort of) just a different wrapper. Being a total femme girl myself maybe that is what throws them off. I admit it is a lot to take in for some.  :)
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stephaniec

It's definitely a challenge for people that know you but you haven't come right out to tell then. they have to kind of dance around what their seeing
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Jessica Merriman

It is kind of amusing the old "Deer in the headlights" look though.  ;D
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stephaniec

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on July 06, 2014, 02:31:33 PM
It is kind of amusing the old "Deer in the headlights" look though.  ;D
It can be fun. there's these people that work in my favorite restaurant waiting for me to make a move. I dress in shinny jeans and a tight stretchy light running jacket that shows my breasts. There just waiting for me to be brave enough to walk in there with a dress on
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Dianne

Do all the women from where you live wear makeup ?. Why do people look at you funny if you don't wear it ?.
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stephaniec

Quote from: Dianne on July 06, 2014, 04:03:48 PM
Do all the women from where you live wear makeup ?. Why do people look at you funny if you don't wear it ?.
it's just that my face is changing not totally female just more of a becoming .without make up it's noticeable with make up you really can't tell
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Jessica Merriman

I waited 40 years to be the real me. Makeup is not a requirement for me, just an expression of who I am and I am loving a lot. It is so fun to be able to change your look depending on what mood you are in.  It is also totally fun to mess with people who THINK they know you from somewhere, but can't place you. Artistry well done! :)
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Ms Grace

I live and work in high population areas, most local people wouldn't know me from a bar of soap. I look substantially different when I'm in girl mode compared to guy mode...so no, not an issue for me. I could walk into a shop on two consecutive days as two different genders and I doubt anyone would notice. I think in part it's because, as a guy I learned how to blend into the background and "not exist" in a physical space...the less people noticed me the happier I was. That's a different story with being Grace.
Grace
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Transition 1.0 (Julie): HRT 1989-91
Self-denial: 1991-2013
Transition 2.0 (Grace): HRT June 24 2013
Full-time: March 24, 2014 :D
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