i can't believe its finally happening. no seriously i really can't believe it. i always got the short end of the stick in everything but this time i'm actually getting rewarded. although i'm not entire sure of myself, i finally feel like i'm getting something good instead of scraps. it only seems like yesterday my wait began and now look where the time has gone. maybe this well finally heal me enough that i can find my footing, or maybe this would destroy me even further to the point i may as well stay on the ground to rot away. only time will tell. 1 more day to go!