Hi guys
Just out of curiosity and a "lesbian past" thing, my ex and I bought me a wig for me to go to the gay parade in. I have no objections...even though I always knew I was a man on the inside, I don't have anything stopping me from playing a girl part once in a while - note, once in a while xD.
So, I put the wig on, makeup and all, and compared to an old picture of me no T and 100% fem (forced to adapt to "normal" standards of society). Well...same face, except thicker nose and eyebrows, and slightly more masculine, sharper look in the eyes. It's like maleness is emanating from it. BUT. It looks 90% similar to how I used to look.
I find this pretty cool. I'm 1 year 8 months on T, and if I shave my face entirely, put a wig and makeup on, I look almost identical to how I looked back then...except I look a lot more middle eastern (I am 1/4 Armenian). I look like a 100% Armenian hairy chick xD
What about you guys? I know a lot want to have NOTHING to do with their past. I was like that too in the beginning...but now I'm like hey. I was born female-bodied, and now I have a male brain in a somewhat male body. It's something different... I'm unique. Dysphoria is starting to go away the more I'm on T...and now that I uncovered a slight interest in males, I feel suddenly comfortable with my own genitals, how I look... cuz hey. We're all people. I'm proud to have a vagina and be a true man on the outside, it's not that common!!! xD Of course, I still wish I'd wake up one day with a real penis. Life would be much easier.......or would it?

Maybe it's because ya'll cheered me up the other day...made me think straight. I still have to thank each of you separately for reading and replying to my long rant.