hello all ,

i would first like to congrats you all for the amazing Susans website, it is such an amazing feeling to be around you all and feeling " normal"

My name is Ali , i am from the Middle East 30 yrs young trans

like many other ppl like me who challenge the gender binary scale societies all over the world adapted we are faced so many challenges both internal and external . I'm here to hopefully find some answers to so many questions and maybe answer some of your questions

I have been on E for 10 wks , changes happening slowly but it is a waiting game. I felt so good starting my journey to true me and i am excited and ready whats coming . one thing i didn't expect to happen tho . it been a week or so i am not feeling my best, depression episodes and lower self-esteem plus my anxiety is at highest now. i was wondering if this is normal for trans to happen or is it just because it is almost time for my E pellets to be injected ?!!

thanks in advance for your help and support and i am honored to be part of this 

Ali

Hi Ali, Welcome!  I am new here myself.  I am not an MD, but I can share with you MY experiences during 3 and a half weeks on estradiol valerate and micronized progesterone.

When last night I didn't my female hormones for the first time in 3 weeks because of a possible employment exam blood test later this week, around noon today I felt REALLY frustrated by some time delays in some routine work matters.  I didn't FEEL right.

So at 1 pm at my house during lunch hour, I simply took the normal dose I would have taken last night of female hormones.  In about 15 minutes I felt great again, calm, and feeling SO wonderful that I can handle any of even the hardest things at work or otherwise with confidence and intuitive feminine calmness.

Hope my sharing of my experience can help you...maybe you will feel normal again when you body receives again the female hormones it craves and needs...

Hugs,
Johanna

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Welcome to both of you. 

thanks a lot Johanna i hope that all went great with the new job thing
maybe it is the lack of E in my system that is making me and you feel that way. I like how the inserted pellets of E works but i don't like this feeling as the pellet almost empty . i am thinking of adding E pills to my HRT just in case of this happening again

thanks for the warm welcome VM and GingerMaxim 

Well, E and P sure make ME feel divine.

Yes, well, sure, if your program is supposed to include full pellets and they aren't full enough and it makes you anxious because of your lack of E in your system, then I would suppose it would helpful for you to take the necessary steps -- whatever those steps might be -- to assure that you aren't running "so close to empty."

I find the emotional effects quite strong, and the E and P missing for just half a day caused me to feel weird, with a lack of calm and lack of patience...within 15 minutes or so of taking the dose I missed 12 hours earlier, I felt normal and fine again, and within 1 hour of taking them again I felt great and fantastic.  Wow.  I was surprised at the emotional power of this. 

Thanks a lot for sharing your experience, I think that's what is happening to me and because of that I started doubting the whole transitioning :-/ I know it is the right thing to do deep inside me but all those concerns and what ifs are popping from no where ( or from the lack of hormones )
Had couple of hard weeks already and surviving them was not easy at all , I have two more weeks to go and I am trying to stay busy with whatever just to keep my head clear but it isn't easy at all specially bed time
Deep inside I know this roller coaster will come to stop   

Quote from: JohannaJohn on July 09, 2014, 10:48:38 PM
Well, E and P sure make ME feel divine.

Yes, well, sure, if your program is supposed to include full pellets and they aren't full enough and it makes you anxious because of your lack of E in your system, then I would suppose it would helpful for you to take the necessary steps -- whatever those steps might be -- to assure that you aren't running "so close to empty."

I find the emotional effects quite strong, and the E and P missing for just half a day caused me to feel weird, with a lack of calm and lack of patience...within 15 minutes or so of taking the dose I missed 12 hours earlier, I felt normal and fine again, and within 1 hour of taking them again I felt great and fantastic.  Wow.  I was surprised at the emotional power of this. 

Yes, I can understand how it could be a roller coaster ride of emotions.

In the area of employment I suppose is where I have at least some concerns.  I mean, most of what I do is teaching and there are actually more female teachers than male teachers usually depending on what you are teaching and at what level, so maybe it can be okay if I have to sometime "come out" due to breast development that is substantial.

Some people who do this absolutely hate to be male.  I cannot say I absolutely hate being male...it is just that being female seems very right and opens up parts of me that have been hidden for so many years.

This progesterone sometimes makes me feel almost euphoric.  WOW, it is amazing.

Hi Ali, welcome

I am not from the Middle East but as you can see from my profile the art is really a passion of me; I have been mesmerized by eastern women's clothing and jewelry, music and artstyles like Arabesque since I was young and visited museums and festivals with my mom. I definately want to add a little touch of that to my looks and carreer if possible as long as its compatible with where I live (Netherlands)

It's a shame I'll probably never be able to visit some of those places because I know people there are generally not very fond of people who are LGBT and punishment can be severe, even as a tourist
MAybe it's just my perception about it.

Anyway, sending you hugs, cherish your E whenever, wherever

Thanks a lot YinYanga for your wishes 

That is a very interesting artwork you have in your profile , me likey
I know it is very sad how people in the Middle East thing and treat anyone who is different than them. I had to live that ( fearing for my safety and life ) and to make it worse even family won't accept you :-/

I would say in Netherlands you have a lot of Moroccans so you might be able to get a lil taste of its like. Yet Moroccan style is different from middle eastern but it's very beautiful too

Let me know how can I help and will be more than happy to

Kisses 

Quote from: YinYanga on July 19, 2014, 05:33:35 AM
Hi Ali, welcome

I am not from the Middle East but as you can see from my profile the art is really a passion of me; I have been mesmerized by eastern women's clothing and jewelry, music and artstyles like Arabesque since I was young and visited museums and festivals with my mom. I definately want to add a little touch of that to my looks and carreer if possible as long as its compatible with where I live (Netherlands)

It's a shame I'll probably never be able to visit some of those places because I know people there are generally not very fond of people who are LGBT and punishment can be severe, even as a tourist
MAybe it's just my perception about it.

Anyway, sending you hugs, cherish your E whenever, wherever