I wrote this along the way to and from my destination. This was kind of the tipping point of how I would feel
dressing/being male. I may not have been macho, but me passing gave me the utmost hope.
Without further interruption here's my experience unedit and honest:
I dont know how to feel about this adventure
I'm going on my own....on a quest I know
nothing about.
Life is too short to stay as curious as I am.
I doubt anything terrible is going to happen.
I just feel nervous of what to expect.
I don't where I;m going to explore.
I know my first stop is Christopher street.
I'm moving in with my partner in less than a month.
Taking deep breaths.
"go jake, treasure hunt." It was a message to me just now
Guess it's like the spirits saying, "Do it."
Funny how I used to work at a movie theatre and now I'm a
teacher.
Interesting trip there so far....I'm happy that I'm having a day out
with myself. I think I needed some alone time.
Now that names are between Cody and Shawn.
I'll message once I hit a destination.
Just got back from Stonewall and Duplex
I feel kinda out of place, but everyone welcomed me with open arms.
I was call male pronouns and it made me more giddier than usual.
I haven't had a one on one convo with ppl yet.
I also had a male stripper flirt with me.
Today way pretty relaxing and Im grateful for taking such a leap.
I want to take my partner there so we can have a grand time together.
would love to see them happy and in a new enviroment.
It was so friendly...but I new one.
this guy flirted with me, I couldn't get my voice at the time so I
didn't speak. He kept giving me a sing to join him and his partner.
I guess people do see me as a gay guy?
well I gotta get back, its late.
One final note, I FOUND the packer I've been looking for.
20 bucks, no shipping+handling
I was tempted to but it, but I would need a harnest first so I can use it.
I got a lil turned on at the imagination being a step closer to being at my
desired apperance.
I would kill to drop this dysphoria.
I spent more than I wanted to....but I'm in ->-bleeped-<-IN NEW YORK!
The hell did I expect, discount city? LOL
I really cant help but have that itch for it.
Plus there's a metaphysical place here. I feel like home.
The prices are UGH!, but The have a reason for it.
And the energy was STRONG in there. I would kill for it again.
i feel like I'm in the movie with the music and enviroment.
I;m just gonna take in the night....
Nameste
~Someone NEw
