Quote from: Shantel on July 28, 2014, 10:27:31 AM
Yes you should have, the changes are like night and day! Most of us don't realize how much we have changed over a few years because we look at ourself in the mirror every day and think we see the same old face. This was a pretty astounding revelation wasn't it?
Yeah, even my mom upon hearing my old voice, she didn't realize it was me talking, she thought it was the news guy on the tv. I don't even remember when and how my voice changed, but after looking at a video of Christmas 2003, my voice was already (mostly) what it is now. I'd like to had shown more such as I was with my early transitioning but other people in the those videos around me wouldn't want their faces up on the internet, especially around me.
Last night watched a couple more episodes of Bates Motel, so far so good, only a couple more to go on this season. I went to bed early, after midnight which is early for me. Got up this morning struggling to respond to my alarm, was hearing it in my sleep but was having a hard time snapping out of it. Got in the shower, very tired. Epilated my body hair (legs, butt, stomach, breasts), spending all too long on this, at least 40 minutes as I had a lot of hair growth from last time which was just days ago. Plucked facial hair, then quickly got everything else ready that I needed before leaving out for work. Took Snickers out to do her bathroom business, rushing her to hurry up, giving her only 5 minutes, she got it all out though, thank goodness, otherwise she'd have to hold it. Dashed out the door.
Today at work, continued where I left off over the weekend with HBC, did not get it all done though, problem came with the make-up, got Maybelline products in now and everything is packed in mini-cartons 2 per, so took forever getting them all out, 10 minutes just on that for 2 cases and didn't even get a chance to put them out, just packed them back up loose, will have to get back to another day as with the rest of the make-up, mostly nail polish, lots of new stuff, that I'd also have to find a place for. It wasn't a very productive day. I also didn't care. That's what happens when I'm away from work too long, by the time I get back I don't even feel like being there.
Also, my right eye has been twitching a lot lately, has been since that time I was having problems with my face getting numb, well after that went it away it was replaced with this occasion twitching on my lower eyelid, today was especially aggravating because it wouldn't stop. Plus, I was kind of in a foul mood, kind of shaky too. My left hand and arm always shakes (has been like that since my early teens at least), but when my right does too then something is wrong (I'm usually not feeling good), still have to get those other blood tests, maybe then I'll find out more, might have something to do with my thyroid or other glands. By the time I got off work, I just felt like crap, jittery and almost like I had a lot of toxicity in my body, which is common for me when I get like this.
So this one custom, I'm hearing her saying hello several times behind me, thought she was on a cell so didn't turn around, then when I do she there beside me saying hello again. Then asks me if I remember her, that I had helped her before. Uh, no. She appeared to be insulted that I didn't. I had no idea who the hell she was, didn't care. Its always a wonderful thing when a total stranger comes up to you, claiming to know you but you don't them. Well she then asks me about a shower curtain liner that she had in her hand, if it had magnets in it. I don't know. Though thinking probably not. Then asks me about if I have one at home and if it has magnets to weigh it down. How the hell am I supposed to know! I don't know, my mom does the shopping for that kind of stuff, I've never paid any attention to whether it does or not. ->-bleeped-<- like that isn't important to me. We only got a shower curtain I say. Then she asks of its plastic or cloth. What the hell does it matter what I have at home!? Geez, weird lady, get the hell out of my face! I wasn't rude or anything, most of this with the cursing were just my thoughts. She went away, I back to my work.
Later when I'm in the back, the receiving area, I hear someone calling out hello! Hello!? Yeah!? I call back. Then I see this lady again, standing in our stock room. At first I thought she was going to ask where the restrooms were, since that's a usual mistake, customers tend to find the doors back here first. Nope, she asks me my name. I look questioningly, but reply, Megan. Well, Megan, she (I can only assume my boss since I did see them up front at the registers talking) told me you'd probably have a box of these back here, holding up a little notebook thingy (a planner, address book, whatever) for me to see. I look it over then ask her if she had looked out on the floor for more. Then she goes, never mind, I'll come back later. In my mind if I weren't so frustrated I would have been scratching my head at her odd behavior (I don't even know how to describe it, but she acted weird). Instead I'm muttering out curse words aloud while going back to looking for what I was back there for. I was in an even worst mood after that. She really pissed me off.
So skipping past the rest of the unnecessary details of the day. Back at home, oh, mom's car is still there, duh, you got off earlier today that's why (I was only scheduled for 4 hours today instead of the usual 5). She was on the internet watching something, Snickers greeted me with her usual jumping around. I told my mom that I was feeling a bit moody today, bitching about my day. Then made myself a big sandwich (ham, mozzarella, greens, tomatoes, ancient grains bread, mayo). I was still eating it when she left out the door to go to work. Now, food eaten, feeling better, calmed down significantly, anger subsided, not so jittery. Food, well the right food will sometimes make me feel better. But other times I'll eat something that should make me feel good and feel like I'd been poisoned shortly after, so I don't know. Maybe I have some sort of deficiency.
While at work I had thought about going next door to the video store and see about filling out an application there, but by the time I got off of work, I just wanted to be home. The way I am out there, seriously, while I have done it before, I can't stand working with the public, sometimes all it takes is just seeing people and it pisses me off. That's on my bad days, on my good days I'm fine, but its those bad days that worries me, I tend to show all of my emotions all the time, and in these kind of jobs, they only want to see you happy, even if you aren't. <not allowed> that.
Called my doctor's office up moments ago to make payment for bloodwork. That part finally done. Now, as soon as I get my receipt emailed to me I'll be able to get those tests done. I figure go out early tomorrow morning for this.
Spent the later part of the afternoon watching The Avengers, took a bit to really kick up the action but once it got going, all the super heroes fighting together against the alien invasion, yeah, pretty cool.
Later, watched the rest of Bates Motel, ending just as I thought it would. No dinner for me tonight, have to fast, gotta get blood drawn in the morning.
