I started shedding hair and developed thinning,balding spots on top 2 years ago. It might be male pattern baldness. I would consult your GP/Dermatologist as soon as possible to rule out or confirm it

The sooner you start hormones or for example Finasteride(I used that as a stop-gap before hormones) the better the results will be. I barely developed bald spots but was very close, now my hair is thickening again due to the HRT, so thats a little relief

It really tears your self-confidence and social life apart from my own experience


Vivien

Finally managed to talk to my (hopefully) endo's secretary. She told me she didn't have my HRT letter which was emailed on 7/8. She gave me the fax number and my therapist asked me to fax it because she has no fax machine. I did that 2 hours ago. Hey, at least I found out, but if she had called me back any time in the last week and a half I could have fixed this sooner!

The new spiro that I bought over a month ago must have been a bad batch. I broke out all over my face, my facial hair seems to have woken up, higher libido... Awfulness.

Got my tst checked today, the norm was 0.5 till 3, mine was 37 sth...

I am paranoid at the moment. Breakouts and hair can be taken care of, I'm being paranoid if something else might change/have changed :/

Came back to taking my old spiro batch that I never had issues with, double.

:/

I am having bad bottom dysphoria. I know not all women care about the lack of penis but I just feel bad about it. I don't even like my vagina, you know?

Angry with quite a few things at the moment so in a fowl mood.

Not happy.

*throws butterflies and hugs around*

Hope you all feel better soonish

I did something and tweeked my back a bit. It hurts, but not to where I can't do the stuff I have to do today, just annoying as heck.

Looking at old webcam pics of myself. At one time, years ago, I was kind of pretty, now, not so much.


sigh...

Quote from: Jaime R D on July 30, 2014, 11:37:50 AM
Looking at old webcam pics of myself. At one time, years ago, I was kind of pretty, now, not so much.


sigh...

You should come over on Sunday and I'll share a piece of my birthday cake with you and we can commiserate with one another.

Cake. Someone say cake?

Quote from: Cindy on July 30, 2014, 12:10:15 PM
Cake. Someone say cake?

Carrot cake my fave!

Tooo healthy

Where is the chocolate and cream?

Quote from: Shantel on July 30, 2014, 12:08:26 PM
You should come over on Sunday and I'll share a piece of my birthday cake with you and we can commiserate with one another.

Your birthday comes the day after my little sister's birthday. I can't recall what my schedule is for sunday, if I have to go in, I don't think I'll have time to drive there and back by Monday morning...

my depression has become stronger over the last few months. I just don't feel like even getting up most of the time.

One of my friends (another MtF girl) overdosed on medication last night trying to kill herself. Her sister contacted me this morning (referring to my friend as male as she did, even though she knows better...) and told me she was now in the hospital. I really want to visit with some of my other friends that are part of our board game group to check on her and try to cheer her up, but I don't know when I'll be able to. I'm really worried, but also glad that she's still alive.

Are you able to talk with someone about it Zoot? Don't want you to become a reclusive staying at home. I've had 5 years of seasonal depression when I was a teen, Ive always carriedthe scars with me

Quote from: Eevee on July 30, 2014, 02:08:10 PM
One of my friends (another MtF girl) overdosed on medication last night trying to kill herself. Her sister contacted me this morning (referring to my friend as male as she did, even though she knows better...) and told me she was now in the hospital. I really want to visit with some of my other friends that are part of our board game group to check on her and try to cheer her up, but I don't know when I'll be able to. I'm really worried, but also glad that she's still alive.

Phewww. Sometimes its so tempting to give it all up because of this. See her soon, hope she recovers ok

Quote from: YinYanga on July 30, 2014, 02:09:23 PM
Are you able to talk with someone about it Zoot? Don't want you to become a reclusive staying at home. I've had 5 years of seasonal depression when I was a teen, Ive always carriedthe scars with me

i am a recluse.

not because of my depression.

it's partially my character and partially my aspergers.

i am in psychotherapy and other therapy, but nothing helps. i've been taking antidepressants for over two years now, but they don't help. I'm unstable with and without them. I'm just more emotional without them and can actually feel love without them.

What works best for you....medication or none? If you look at the whole picture?

I have social anxiety for example, meds didnt do enough for me so I cut them and figured I need to 1: accept it'll always be a little bit part of my life 2: challenge myself and keep doing things to improve  my wellbeing, not doing anything solves nothing for me

My motto: Whatever the choice, make sure you make it

Quote from: birkin on July 30, 2014, 03:35:38 AM
I am having bad bottom dysphoria. I know not all women care about the lack of penis but I just feel bad about it. I don't even like my vagina, you know?

I sympathize with you Birkin and know the feeling all too well as I too am currently suffering bad bottom dysphoria. I can't even stand to look at that awful abomination in my nether regions let alone touch it. So when it comes to relationships I know how you feel all too well.

Best wishes!
Hugs
Allie