Hello all
I'm Zack, a Pansexual with Masculine lean FtM. This is honestly a very recent discovery for me, though looking back there are a LOT of clues to the contrary.
I suppose I should start at the beginning and move forward.
When I was young I was scared to death of getting breasts, I actually attempted to remove them at one point. I was always boyish and hated wearing anything too girly (Though summer dresses were fun.) I kinda just coasted along like that for a long time, avoiding mirrors that showed anything below my neck and trying to keep away from mom's makeup and all the girly things she wanted to put me in. As I got older I got to puberty...and that was hell for me. I remember breaking down into sobbing tears every time the "time of month" was mentioned. When it finally happened...well lets just say I didn't come out of my room for a while. Every time it came and went I desperately prayed for it to go away or calm itself...so maybe I could get some peace. Well, I managed to get some reproductive issues from mom that silenced it for months at a time. In middle school I was constantly teased for being lesbian and manly, but it wasn't that I didn't like men, I just didn't approach them as I "Should". So fast forward to High School which was a complete blur, I remember little to none of it....and what I do remember sucked. Then in college I met my now boyfriend who at the time was still female. Now after 6 years (With him making progress on his for about a year) we are on this journey together. It's rough.
I know it'll get better though, now that I understand too.
Anyway, I suppose I came here for the support and understanding that I don't get at home...besides from Tyson.
Thank you very much for reading and feel free to ask any questions of me you like, I'm a pretty open book.
