Okay, so this morning didn't do much. This afternoon started out the same way.

Oh, did make a call to Time Warner, but using the phone, because I forgot how to make calls on Google Voice (details on this later), thankfully it went much smoother than last time I had to call those ->-bleeped-<-s (I say this because my last experience was so bad it got me crying and so flustered that if it were just myself I would've canceled the service completely). Since we've had them we've been paying for wi-fi, but hadn't actually used it, if fact I don't think it was even working, didn't when I tried it. It was mom's idea for us to have it, I wanted to save the extra 5 bucks. I told her the laptop would not be moved around, that's how she damaged her's a while back, moving it around too much, ruining the power cord and keeping it on unventilated surfaces like her lap or couch, wasn't going to be happening with mine, no way. So I called them up to get rid of the wi-fi, now we'll be $5 and some odd cents richer, yay! Every little bit counts.

Spend some hours on the internet, doing nothing really, was bored and didn't feel like really doing anything, probably because it was so damn hot, even with the air on. After I showered, cooling me down, I felt better, more awake.

Actually spent some time looking up bathing suits. I know I'm not ready yet, can't trust that pecker to stay down, still it tries to poke its ugly head up, mostly mornings, but still once in a while sometime during the day, didn't help me looking at bathing suits either, was getting excited just visualizing myself in one of them. Stay down dammit!







Love both of these, and I think I may have the confidence to wear one out of the house, eventually. Both are really cute and playful, ruffles and bows to bring out the fun girl in me, I did plain and simple too much of my life. But its not like I'm going to go out and buy me a bathing suit anytime soon, sure the skirt would help conceal that embarrassing thing, but still having issues with that spitting cobra down there. Maybe next year I'll be ready, it would be nice. In the meantime I can dream, window shop on the internet. 

Later, early evening, I decided to stitch, got me a new project:



Today instead of stitching in silence or listening to music I decided to watch some Disney. First up, Hercules, seen this one once before, enjoyed it, good fun action scenes. After that something new, Lilo & Stitch, never seen before, very funny, I especially like the whole thing about mosquitoes. 

Oh, almost forgot, a couple days ago I decided to try something new, something that sparked my curiosity, Google Voice - can talk to people using my laptop like a phone. Ooh, gotta try that! So, set it all up, called myself. Hello? Hello? Hello-hello-hello-llo-llo-lo-oooo? Echo-echo-echo-cho-cho-ho-oooo! Hahaha, that's great! Love the echo effect! Okay, so probably because I'm talking to myself and too close. Hmm, who the heck am I going to call? I had ideas but too phone shy for conversation with anyone. But, tonight with me having been off work for several days, truck coming in tomorrow, had to give a call to find out when it'd be and when I'd need to be there. So, made that call with Google Voice, it rang, someone picked up, one of the cashiers that I don't know, I asked for the manager, got what time I needed to be in, for 1pm, truck comes at 2pm. Oh, I can say this, oh, finally I can hear clearly like I'm standing right there next to the person, loud and clear. That's one of the reasons I've always sucked at using phones, no matter how loud their volume was turned up, can't hear well enough with one ear alone and if put on speaker things just sound garbled like the speaker can't handle the highest volume setting. Well now, I know how I'll be handling calls from now on. 

So, this morning I get this from my doctor:

"So Megan, you have hashimotos thyroiditis. This means your immune system has recognized your thyroid peroxidase as being foreign and has made antibodies against it. Right now you have enough thyroid hormone in your bloodstream but over time you will have less function of the gland as your immune system attacks and destroys it. You will probably need thyroid hormone replacement in the future, maybe this year, maybe 5 years out. There are many things you can do to support your thyroid gland. One big one is stopping eating gluten as this molecule is shaped like the thyroid hormone and can cause cross reaction in your immune system. I'll send you an attachment with thyroid recommendations on it."

Yeah, I kind of figured that myself as I'd been looking a lot up on this subject lately and Hashimoto's thyroiditis seemed the closest to how I'd been feeling for much my life as far back as I remember. I was in my early teens when I started getting anxiety, depression, sleeping a lot, circulation problems and no matter what always ever feeling run down, low on energy, and so many other assorted issues, thyroid glands swelling, heart fluttering, feeling like loss of breath at times, jitteriness, allergies to too many things, chronic bronchitis, sensitivity to chemicals, low tolerance to heat, aches and pains for no apparent reason in muscles and bones, digestive problems, plus hearing and vision problems (cataracts - years ago optometrist told me that I was probably born with it) that may or may not relate to that. I had tonsillitis so bad when I was little that mom said I'd get fevers exceeding a few degrees over a hundred, doctors refused to remove them then, told her that I'd outgrow it, I didn't, still bothered me into adulthood, swelling up so bad it'd make it difficult to swallow, then I got strep throat several times, and now my tonsils just look like a mess. I've been a mess but being as I've lived with it so long it was normal for me. And finally after all this time I now get the answer to my problems,at least most of them.

My mom says her younger sister doesn't even have a thyroid, most likely due or similar to same thing that's causing mine to deteriorate. Said she got so sick that she could've died from it. When finally someone decides just as my doctor to check her thyroid. My mom has issues too with energy and assorted problems similar to me, especially lately, I'm thinking once she finds herself a doctor she should probably get that tested too. So, going to be making some changes in my diet, cut out the gluten (that'll be tough) probably still won't solve the problem, body will probably still attack itself but it could slow the devastation.

Got to go to work in a little bit. Ugh. I don't look forward to it. Its very hot outside, sunny and sun will be facing into the dock the whole time during the truck unload.

I'm very sorry to hear about your thyroid challenges, Megan.  When I was told that I have hypothyroidism a couple years ago, the doctor told me that there is nothing I can do to support the thyroid except medication.  I did not accept that analysis.  Upon researching thyroid health on my own, I learned that the thyroid requires iodine in order to function.  I also learned that one of the best sources of iodine is a seaweed called Bladderack.  When I was retested 6 months later, it turned out that the Bladderack had resolved my hypothyroidism.

Well, when I was tested a few weeks ago, the doctor told me that I now have hyperthyroidism.  So I've cut back on the seaweed, and I'll be tested again in the fall to see how it looks.

The human body is amazing!

I laid down in the bedroom just to rest for ten minutes. I woke up a few minutes ago and saw that I had been asleep for an hour and a half. I swear, even though I have been able to get some sleep again (since my panic attacks and the severe insomnia that resulted from that has been resolved). My actual sleeping patterns are really screwy and all over the place.

I finished my audio book, "The Hunger Games".  That book is awesome!  I can hardly wait to start book 2 of the Hunger Games trilogy.  The library is holding the audio book, "Catching on Fire" for me for the next 72 hours.  I'll pick it up on Sunday.

In the meantime, I've begun listening to "The Time Traveler's Wife".  So far I'm loving it!

I've also begun "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo".  It's a very complicated story; I'm having some difficulty getting into it.

Quote from: Miharu Barbie on August 01, 2014, 02:49:48 PM
I finished my audio book, "The Hunger Games".  That book is awesome!  I can hardly wait to start book 2 of the Hunger Games trilogy.  The library is holding the audio book, "Catching on Fire" for me for the next 72 hours.  I'll pick it up on Sunday.

In the meantime, I've begun listening to "The Time Traveler's Wife".  So far I'm loving it!

I've also begun "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo".  It's a very complicated story; I'm having some difficulty getting into it.

Read that too, there's a trilogy but haven't read the third yet. I should get audio books, that appeals to me since I have to wear reading glasses.

Quote from: Miharu Barbie on August 01, 2014, 02:43:32 PM
I'm very sorry to hear about your thyroid challenges, Megan.  When I was told that I have hypothyroidism a couple years ago, the doctor told me that there is nothing I can do to support the thyroid except medication.  I did not accept that analysis.  Upon researching thyroid health on my own, I learned that the thyroid requires iodine in order to function.  I also learned that one of the best sources of iodine is a seaweed called Bladderack.  When I was retested 6 months later, it turned out that the Bladderack had resolved my hypothyroidism.

Well, when I was tested a few weeks ago, the doctor told me that I now have hyperthyroidism.  So I've cut back on the seaweed, and I'll be tested again in the fall to see how it looks.

The human body is amazing!

The human body is amazing and given the right opportunity it can resolve a lot of it's own problems without a lot of drastic chemical intervention from "Big Pharma". When I de-transitioned for a two year period several years ago, I went without any hormonal base and became really ill. My healthcare provider and the entire VA system misdiagnosed my problem but a little lady Naturopathic doctor found that my thyroid had practically flatlined due to no hormonal base. I wasn't taking HRT and had been neutered years earlier. She put me on a natural thyroid booster "Nature-Throid" and back on HRT and I'm feeling great again.

Quote from: Shantel on August 01, 2014, 06:16:16 PM
The human body is amazing and given the right opportunity it can resolve a lot of it's own problems without a lot of drastic chemical intervention from "Big Pharma". When I de-transitioned for a two year period several years ago, I went without any hormonal base and became really ill. My healthcare provider and the entire VA system misdiagnosed my problem but a little lady Naturopathic doctor found that my thyroid had practically flatlined due to no hormonal base. I wasn't taking HRT and had been neutered years earlier. She put me on a natural thyroid booster "Nature-Throid" and back on HRT and I'm feeling great again.

interesting, I think I remember some detransitioner saying that they had thyroid problems and thought it was due to HRT, but maybe it was due to the lack of HRT...actually I think I've heard a few people say that. Can't remember for the life of me where though.

I'm late to the spider convo, but that story was something. I normally like having spiders in the house (ours are tiny), but there was one the other day that came down from the ceiling a couple feet away and then inexplicably went straight for my face and landed on my glasses. I jumped up and flapped my arms around with no self-control whatsoever, and then of course I couldn't find it and had to pace for a few minutes before resuming my spot in front of the computer. Wherever that thing is, I hope it is eating gnats. I feel like the abnormally high spider population this year probably accounts for the abnormally low fruitfly population.

Today we went to appointments, got bus tickets, waded through tourists, paid bills, went to the library and also the library store across town, and added to our sunburns because I forgot about sunscreen again. No major incidents.

Quote from: birkin on August 01, 2014, 10:29:30 PM
interesting, I think I remember some detransitioner saying that they had thyroid problems and thought it was due to HRT, but maybe it was due to the lack of HRT...actually I think I've heard a few people say that. Can't remember for the life of me where though.

It seems to be more prevalent in genetic females than genetic males and what it really boils down to is a problem with imbalance. The pituitary gland is the major control center, the thyroid works for the pituitary as the monitoring and distribution module and it appears that too much or too little sex hormone produced by the gonads or lack of them will throw the thyroid out of whack.

I'm trying to set new records for laziness. I took a shower and cut my hair, but that's probably going to be the peak of my productivity today. I'm still sore from yesterday and it's so hot that every time I get up to cook or clean I kinda just sigh and sit back down. I wish we could rearrange our lives to be asleep in the sunniest hours and do most of our living at night this time of year.

Don't feel like going over the details of last night. Went to sleep shortly after getting home from work, awoke around 11 something at night, couldn't get back to sleep until sometime after 3am.

Woke up this morning 3 and a half hours or so after falling asleep to get ready for work, oddly, I felt okay, not too tired. Took a shower, got ready for work, putting on one of my pretty dresses (work clothes were in my locker at work, but I wanted to dress nice on my way there and after I got off), ate a bowl of fruit I had thawing in the refrigerator since shortly before I went to sleep.

At work I started out okay but then some bitch (sorry, can't help it) stunk up the store with her perfume, I had to retreat to the back for a good bit, 15 minutes or so until the air cleared enough that it wouldn't cause me any breathing problems, eyes burned though from what remained in the air for all too long. I was in a foul mood after that for the rest of the time there. So today I did a lot of cursing, had the dropsies too, just couldn't hold onto anything, and so jittery. At least I know what's causing it. Not that I can do a whole lot about it right now.

Anyway, worked out housewares today. Mom came and picked me up. After we went to pick up a belated birthday gift that a friend sent me. Then headed over to Michael's so I can pick up some more black aida for stitching on for any upcoming projects I want to work on. Got a Silhouettes challenge now at Sprite Stitch that I may stitch something for - have me a few ideas. Then we went into Target nearby. I looked at the bathing suits, but being in such a grumpy mood aside from looking I couldn't get myself to try anything on, would've probably ended up depressed. Mom wanted to get some bread and chips, but prices at this store are way too high, hell, I don't even know why we went in there, we left with nothing. So we went to Randall's to pick up a little bit of food, even though HEB overall is cheaper its too much a nuthouse midday.

So looking for foods that are gluten-free, or at least don't have wheat in them, yeah right. At one point when mom was down another aisle I'm over at the tuna fish and just start crying, but trying to hold back so tears were just a thin layer of wateriness over my eyes. <not allowed> it, I'll eat whatever the hell I want. Damn thyroid'll probably go on me anyway. I'm not rich, I can't afford this so called gluten free diet, ->-bleeped-<- costs too much. Just like all that natural organic food, out of my league.

Many years ago I had a dream one night, nightmare I suppose I could call it, in this dream I died, what from I don't know but what I did know from it is that I had died at the age of 43. Why this number, who knows, random thing my brain picked or maybe foreseeing my future, but since then I've never been able to shake it. So here I was reading food packaging trying to find things without gluten and getting frustrated, and then this remembrance of that dream popped into my head, and that I was already in a bad mood, I'm surprised I didn't have a huge breakdown.

We got the usual food stuff, all containing wheat. Only thing saying it was gluten-free were the tater-tots. 

So rest of day, not much. Did just a little bit of cross-stitching. Wash day today, so mom and I did the laundry later. After that we watched a movie on Netflix, The Grey, that was really good, very exciting, suspenseful. It was about a bunch of oil riggers that after their plane crashes they are stranded in the Alaskan wilderness trying not only to survive the harsh cold but also a pack of wolves. Well worth the watch.

Damn mosquitoes are eating me up, several days ago one in the apartment took a half dozen jabs at me, leaving me still with itchy bites on my left foot and several places on both my legs, and each day I get a few more added to those. Last night, sitting there getting ready to get back into stitching (prior to laundry), minding my own business, feel a sharp sting on one of my toes, look down, damn ant is poised there stinging my toe repeatedly. I flick it off, lost it in the carpet fibers. Then noticed Snickers looking down at the carpet, got the flashlight out, started scanning the carpet for more ants, sure enough, all over the place under my table. Ant here, ant there. I hate ants. And I hate Texas because of them. I never had to live with ants ever before until we moved here, and no matter what you do its a never ending battle, can never be rid of them, they are everywhere.

Quote from: Megan Joanne on August 02, 2014, 04:51:34 PM

At work I started out okay but then some bitch (sorry, can't help it) stunk up the store with her perfume, I had to retreat to the back for a good bit, 15 minutes or so until the air cleared enough that it wouldn't cause me any breathing problems, eyes burned though from what remained in the air for all too long. 

I don't understand why some women, and it's usually older women who think they have to bathe in perfume, maybe a little soap and water would suffice! I've been stuck on an elevator with one old gal that made my eyes smart, nose run and I could feel my bronchial tubes constricting so that I could hardly breathe. Then there are some perfumes that clash with certain women's body PH and though it smells nice in the bottle it smells like skunk juice on the woman, that's why the perfume comes in tiny samplers so that a woman can take it home and test it for awhile before buying an expensive bottle of it. I like a very subtle flowery scent on some women that is simply applied with the finger tip very sparingly behind the earlobes and between the cleavage and nothing more.

Quote from: Megan Joanne on August 02, 2014, 04:51:34 PM
Many years ago I had a dream one night, nightmare I suppose I could call it, in this dream I died, what from I don't know but what I did know from it is that I had died at the age of 43. Why this number, who knows, random thing my brain picked or maybe foreseeing my future, but since then I've never been able to shake it. So here I was reading food packaging trying to find things without gluten and getting frustrated, and then this remembrance of that dream popped into my head, and that I was already in a bad mood, I'm surprised I didn't have a huge breakdown.

We got the usual food stuff, all containing wheat. Only thing saying it was gluten-free were the tater-tots. 

Sometimes trying to deal with preventive measures can be more stressful on your mind, body and nerves than the problem itself. Try not to go overboard with all that stuff Megan, just live your life normally and if it becomes a real physical problem, get a second opinion and consider the possibility that you will have to take a thyroid booster like millions of other people, it's not the end of the world and it's not going to kill you sweetie.

Quote from: Megan Joanne on August 02, 2014, 04:51:34 PM
So looking for foods that are gluten-free, or at least don't have wheat in them, yeah right. At one point when mom was down another aisle I'm over at the tuna fish and just start crying, but trying to hold back so tears were just a thin layer of wateriness over my eyes. <not allowed> it, I'll eat whatever the hell I want. Damn thyroid'll probably go on me anyway. I'm not rich, I can't afford this so called gluten free diet, ->-bleeped-<- costs too much. Just like all that natural organic food, out of my league.

We got the usual food stuff, all containing wheat. Only thing saying it was gluten-free were the tater-tots. 

Meagan with a little creativity going gluten free (even partially) can be done as part of a healthy habit. You can avoid the pricey convenience crap. But the pasta's aren't too much more expensive. I recomend the Bionaturae brand if you can find it. I get it at WholeFoods.



Taste, texture and firmness is pretty much identical to semolina wheat pasta. I cannot tell too much of a difference in sauces. It's pretty darn good actually.

Might I suggest:
http://glutenfreegirl.com/recipes/

I'm not gluten sensitive per say, but I tried it pre-hrt and my life long mild back acne cleared up. Needless to say I was surprised. But I'm consuming a little wheat nowadays in moderation.

And if you have nothing to do, watch this video:

Quote from: Shantel on August 02, 2014, 05:45:59 PM
I don't understand why some women, and it's usually older women who think they have to bathe in perfume, maybe a little soap and water would suffice! I've been stuck on an elevator with one old gal that made my eyes smart, nose run and I could feel my bronchial tubes constricting so that I could hardly breathe. Then there are some perfumes that clash with certain women's body PH and though it smells nice in the bottle it smells like skunk juice on the woman, that's why the perfume comes in tiny samplers so that a woman can take it home and test it for awhile before buying an expensive bottle of it. I like a very subtle flowery scent on some women that is simply applied with the finger tip very sparingly behind the earlobes and between the cleavage and nothing more.

Sometimes trying to deal with preventive measures can be more stressful on your mind, body and nerves than the problem itself. Try not to go overboard with all that stuff Megan, just live your life normally and if it becomes a real physical problem, get a second opinion and consider the possibility that you will have to take a thyroid booster like millions of other people, it's not the end of the world and it's not going to kill you sweetie.

Its the heavy perfume wearers that makes it difficult for me to be around too many people, well, one of those things anyway. Crowded in a place with no place to retreat to and I'm screwed. When we first moved to Austin I started taking public transport buses for the first time ever, did this the first week while here, but there were a couple times that I had a hard time, having to cover my nose and mouth because a person or few had too much perfume on. Couldn't do anything about my eyes, burned, itched, and I felt sick afterwards. I can't ride buses. I can handle the crowds, even though shy of large groups of people I do well enough pretending they don't exist, until I have to smell them. And when I worked as a cashier at my job in North Carolina, there were more than a few times that I had to step away from my register because I was wheezing, my boss was never happy with this. At least stocking shelves I can retreat for a little bit, go do something in the back for a bit or work another section until the air clears. But on register, you are forced, especially if really busy to just deal with it, and if you can't, that can cause problems. So many times I had rude, insensitive people tell me, "If you are like that, or if its that bad, you shouldn't be working this job!" Getting pissed at me because I started having breathing issues because they caused it and I made it known it was their perfume that was doing it.

I'm not going to worry too much about that gluten-free crap, I think regardless my thyroid is going to eventually go. I can't be stressing myself out over it. Though I'm sure my doctor will make it difficult for me, they always do, after all, you're in their care and if you aren't doing as they suggest then they may not want to treat you, which would mean difficulty in getting more scripts for continued hormone therapy. Will deal with it all as it comes.

Anyway, he gave me this attachment in email:

THYROID RECS – all are listed as options, not requirements........

- Basal body temperature is an easy diagnostic tool to determine if you are
hypothyroid, or producing too little thyroid hormone. Put a thermometer at the bedside
and upon awakening, put it firmly under your armpit. Rest in bed for 10 minutes and then
take reading. It should be between 97.8 and 98.2. Repeat the next morning and if you
have 2 readings below 97.8, call your doctor, you may not be making enough thyroid
hormone.

- b vitamin complex, selenium 200mcg daily, zinc 20mg daily, copper 2mg
daily, vitamin A 5,000IU daily, vitamin D 5,000IU daily, Iron 50-100mg daily,

tyrosine, all can be found in thyroid support multivitamins
- Mixed fatty acid supplement, 3/6/9 blends, or fish oil, Green pastures High
vitamin fermented cod liver oil is rich in vitamins A and D as well, which are also
shown to be beneficial

- Flax seeds daily, ground, or their oil, Cataplex F is a supplement which contains
them, 3-9 daily

- Probiotics with prebiotics, refrigerated is best, 20% of t4 is modified to t3 in your
gut, if poor gut bacteria, this doesn't happen

- Dec sugar, white flour, eat vegetables, olive and fish oils, low fat proteins

- Avoid raw cruciferous vegetables and concentrated soy

- Boost metabolism by resistance ex, weightlifting or pilates

- Get 7-9 hours of sleep and do yoga, meditation, or deep breathing to reduce
stress, your body will lower thyroid output on purpose to protect you from high
metabolism in chronic stress where you might be too fatigued to handle the higher
metabolism

- Avoid chlorine, fluoride, bromine (found in baked goods) to avoid competition
with iodine at the gland, heavy metals are also unhelpful in thyroid dysfunction

- Birth control pills, supplemental estrogen and supplemental testosterone raise
thyroid binding globulin which will keep t3 and t4 from being available for use

- The liver converts 40% of t4 to t3 so boosting liver function by liver detox and
gall bladder cleansing will allow for better thyroid hormone function

- Elevated cholesterol, blood sugar, depression, reflux/heartburn, gluten issues and
chronic constipation are all associated with hypothyroidism and should correct
when thyroid is corrected, avoidance of gluten is also recommended

- Often, thyroid is blamed in cases of fatigue when the adrenals are often the
culprits and should be addressed first, the same goes for hot or cold flashes/sweats
which can be caused by female hormone changes as well as thyroid

- Thytrophin PMG 1-2 slowly

- Symplex M/F 1x3 daily

- Trace Minerals B12 1x3 daily

- Magnesium Lactate 2x2 daily

- Hypothalmex 2x3 daily

- Thyroid complex 1x3 daily

- Bladderwrack 6ml daily

- Coleus 10ml daily

- Eleuthro 1x3 daily

Its all too much for me. Ready all that just raised my stress levels. I stress out very easily. 

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Thank you Evelyn, but recipes aren't my thing, I don't cook to that extent. The most preparing I ever do with any meals is pasta, that requires scrambling, cooking the beef, boiling the pasta, heating up jar of sauce, mixing it all together, that's it. For other meals, instant rice, mashed potatoes, everything else microwaved. I'm a lazy cook. The simpler, and faster the better. I did see some pasta while we were in Target, made with quinoa, that's gluten-free naturally, I didn't buy any though. I know there's other options too I just wasn't in the mood to deal with it.

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Woke up this morning at 5 something, been sleeping on the couch lately and Snickers sometimes sleeps with me. This morning I feel her jump up and off the couch, see her looking at her ass - its always something with her butt. So I got up and took her out, she had to pee. Came back in, was going to go back to sleep, decided to stay up, cross-stitched some more, what I was going to do last night before an ant rudely interrupted me.

Created a Facebook account, not sure how much I'll do with it, but since one of my friends is on there and wanted me to see some pictures, I decided why not, may as well.

Quote from: Evelyn K on August 03, 2014, 05:32:46 AM


And if you have nothing to do, watch this video:

I watched that, it's long but what an eye opener, everyone needs to watch it for their own good, thanks for sharing I will no longer be such a skeptic!

^ I meant to listen to that video today while cross-stitching, totally forgot when I put on a Disney cartoon.

So I cross-stitch just a little bit today while watching The Emperor's New Groove, but mostly I slept, a lot. I don't know if there's much worth typing about today.

Played flashlight game with my doggie, recorded it using my digital camera, started uploading it an hour and something ago, it still has a long way to go, according to the time remaining another hour and a half. Damn avi files take forever.

We keep getting these big ants crawling around, saw one carrying a little ittie-bitty piece of food, I grabbed it up with a piece of paper towel and pressed together, felt a pop. Oh god, that somehow turned my stomach. I folded it again, another pop. Geez, you were supposed to be squished already. That didn't make me feel to good. Really bothered me, could feel a sickly sensation all up my arms. Usually I'll spray 'em with some dish liquid that I have in a spray bottle, kills them pretty quick, but this squishing thing felt too personal. Like sticking a knife in someone. I don't know what's with me lately, I'm extremely jumpy, especially at work, and now get all messed up over feeling an ant pop between my fingers.

And as I'm typing this, felt a tickling between my toes, a little ant scurrying all over my foot til I shook it off. I so much want to evict myself and move to another state. The heat here sucks, the ants suck even worst (my dog don't like them either, if one crawls on her she jumps up then turns and watches it crawl away, then tries to find another place to lay and I'm sure they are stinging her too), and I'm sure the skunks will eventually be back in force as they were this past winter when the air stunk of them at least every other night hours on end, so bad it seeped into the apartment waking me in the middle of the night. Carpet is a bad idea for apartments, all it does is house bugs, gives them more places to hide. Snickers is sitting there watching them. All pest control does is come in and spray as was done some weeks ago in the kitchen when we had them in there, a few seconds, poison all along the wall and edges of floor, the ants still come back, just a different location as they are now.

Seems I got nothing to do tonight but bitch.  And to think, earlier this morning out walking my dog, I thought to myself, "What happened to that smile that you had before?" I don't know, guess it'll be back, I tend to flip-flop like this, be pissy for a while, then suddenly everything is wonderful, then back to bitchin' about everything. I haven't even taken any recent pics of myself since the day I cut my bangs, nor any videos of my doggie and I playing, well actually did tonight, still waiting on that one. I think I better stop here, as so far this has been one of the most negative posts I've had.

Okay, here goes:

I got unlazy all over my comic. And got two pages of layout done! I also printed out more layout pages and have really started to get moving on my comic, which is something i haven't been able to say for years... since i was like 16 i think?

And! I posted more. And got more pokemon to fill my dex! .... Sounds silly, but it's really hard with like over 700 pokemon now. Ridiculous.

Quote from: Megan Joanne on August 04, 2014, 12:13:32 AM

Seems I got nothing to do tonight but bitch.  And to think, earlier this morning out walking my dog, I thought to myself, "What happened to that smile that you had before?" I don't know, guess it'll be back, I tend to flip-flop like this, be pissy for a while, then suddenly everything is wonderful, then back to bitchin' about everything. I haven't even taken any recent pics of myself since the day I cut my bangs, nor any videos of my doggie and I playing, well actually did tonight, still waiting on that one. I think I better stop here, as so far this has been one of the most negative posts I've had.

Uh-huh, probably time for a little spanking now Sweet Pea! 

 

Forgot to take my pill before going to work today, very late on it, oh well, better late than never. Dissolving under my tongue now as I type.

So worked out HBC at work today, took my time. Had a crazy amount of socks to put out so had to reorganize things to make them fit. Still have a whole u-boat of stuff for this area in the back but being as I don't work again until Friday, oh well, I'll get to it when I can, not even going to worry about it. I did my job, did it to the best of my ability, got done what I could with the small time frame, going home.

Beware next paragraph, really gross ->-bleeped-<-...

So at one point I go into the restroom at work to pee, ->-bleeped-<- all over the toilet seat, paper roll across the floor. Thank goodness I can squat just fine. Once I do everything I have to do in there I step out, bottom of my shoe slips a little. I look down, f'in great, its bad enough that I have to always be weary of where I step outside when walking Snickers because I'm really good about stepping in dog doo, but human ->-bleeped-<-, that's even nastier. Yeah, so there was a glob of it on the floor right outside of the restroom door, and sure enough I had some on my shoe, in two different places, so must've stepped in it on the way in as well as upon exiting. Smelled like a child's poo-poo, and not solid turd, nope, a glob of mush. Just disgusting. Oh I hate working with the general public.  So I had to go back in, wash the bottom of my shoe which just Saturday night was cleaned really good, mom sprayed 'em and tossed them in the washer when doing laundry that night, and my shoes were dirty since I work in them and walk a lot. So they were just baptized with human feces, not even two days after being cleaned. Then I had to get something to clean up the glob and smear of ->-bleeped-<- across the floor just so I or someone else don't step in it again. Washed my hands really good. Tried not to touch my face the rest of the day. Must've been a reason for this mess and me stepping in it, gave me something to talk about. Though I'd preferred not to had to deal with something gross like this.