Quote from: Allyda on July 30, 2014, 03:52:59 PM
I sympathize with you Birkin and know the feeling all too well as I too am currently suffering bad bottom dysphoria. I can't even stand to look at that awful abomination in my nether regions let alone touch it. So when it comes to relationships I know how you feel all too well.

Best wishes!
Hugs
Allie

Thanks Allie. I hate knowing that someone else feels that way but it is nice to know that I am not alone at the same time.

I lost my blindfold which I wear to keep the light out of my eyes so that I can actually sleep

Quote from: birkin on July 30, 2014, 06:51:14 PM
Thanks Allie. I hate knowing that someone else feels that way but it is nice to know that I am not alone at the same time.

Yea, I posted in another thread how I keep a large dish towel by my toilet so I can cover my crotch when using the bathroom to avoid seeing what's there. If all goes well though I just have to hang in there til December. You have all my hopes Birkin that you won't have to suffer too long with this. Mine can be almost crippling. I can only imagine how uncomfortable your makes you feel.

Allie

Quote from: birkin on July 30, 2014, 03:35:38 AM
I am having bad bottom dysphoria. I know not all women care about the lack of penis but I just feel bad about it. I don't even like my vagina, you know?

If I could I would swap with you Hun. I feel for you xx

  Loosing more hair every day , mental struggles continue with seemingly no end , loneliness , lack of money , no real prospect for the future , ...
  I wish they were what made me unhappy today , yet they are my usual ' partners ' in life 

Quote from: Emily.T on July 31, 2014, 01:45:39 AM
If I could I would swap with you Hun. I feel for you xx

A swap meat! 

Wanting to go outside to clean my windows..I had everything ready and took a deep breath, openened the door and saw two guys sunbathing on the opposite flat in plain sight. I'm not sure if they noticed but I fled inside immediately...theyre gone now, Ill try again in an hour or so

My anxiety is really causing transition issues and I know it

Quote from: Shantel on July 31, 2014, 09:57:31 AM
A swap meat! 

Um, yea, with emphasis on the "meat," lol!!

Quote from: Claudia_FF on July 31, 2014, 05:36:57 AM
  Loosing more hair every day , mental struggles continue with seemingly no end , loneliness , lack of money , no real prospect for the future , ...
  I wish they were what made me unhappy today , yet they are my usual ' partners ' in life 

Claudia I really feel for you in your situation and really wish there was something I could do. I was having a hair loss issue before starting my hrt, and every day when I saw my hairbrush after brushing or looked into the mirror I'd break into tears. Luckily for me my hrt has reversed my issue and I'm getting my lost hair back (Avodart{Dutasteride} is a godsend for me) and my hair is healthier than it's been in years. Just please know that I and everyone here are with you in spirit and give all our hopes a solution will come a long for you soon.

All my hopes.
Hugs
Allie

Being stupid enough to read some radical feminist psycho going on about they believe in humans rights but we need to be ignored and thrown away.

Paranoia
Frustration with being trans

I had a bad reaction to anti-inflammatory medication prescribed by my GP. My blood-pressure dropped to the point where I lost vision and motor control before collapsing. I regained consciousness slumped against a wall I can safely say I'll never take Naproxen again!

Seeing those dangly bits.

Missing my 8/9 hours of steady sleep

I can sleep 7 hours but just got out of bed after 5 hours and lying awake

Ughh, HRT side effects :\

was given the choice last night. either i get my new name or i keep my wife..... I love her with all my heart and i can make the choice easy enough..... but it hurts so much to have to wait as long as she wants before i can take that step.

Quote from: Sheala on August 01, 2014, 01:10:34 AM
was given the choice last night. either i get my new name or i keep my wife..... I love her with all my heart and i can make the choice easy enough..... but it hurts so much to have to wait as long as she wants before i can take that step.

I hope this changes for you without too much damage to either of you. When I first came out I was prepared to wait years for my daughter to be on board before making major changes, but luckily children are simpler in their beliefs and she was more confused by my hesitation than by my identity itself. With attached adults you have to be so much more patient. Good luck in your progress.

Odd anxiety and depression stuff, sleep issues again

I really don't like one of my two jobs. At least so far. I feel so grumpy this morning because I am tired and I feel like my job is trucking someone around all day, rather than actually helping this person.

My three children decided not to be with me. Although they had been transitioning with me they seemed to have a bump. My wife says calm down and they will come back to us. It hurts my wife as well as she can't see her grand babies. Sad

I don't know but I think they think if they punish me into who I used to look like.

Ugh, this shift was truly hellish lol. What's worse is that I have to do a night shift tonight, followed by a day shift immediately after...followed by another night shift/day shift combo 7 hours after that.

Whatever...my eyes are on the surgery prize. My client today works at a Target and I swear, it takes so much willpower not to blow a ton of cash there. I saw like ten things I wanted, fortunately I was too busy making sure he didn't get distracted and walking around with him. And after the shift, my body was so tired from everything that I didn't have the will to even purchase the items I wanted. I headed straight home.

What's the point on having SRS if I can't date or even have sex? Why have surgery if my genitalia is not a part of my life?