This is the first one I got through without crying. Any details I left out, I will include in the accompanying email where I send the link.


http://tinypic.com/m/ie4dq1/4

Such an inspiring video, you're a very brave and beautiful woman April! Btw, your voice sounds great. I hope all goes well with your friend. Thanks for sharing this, it put a smile on my face which I really needed.

I am really proud of you

April my dear, What a truly inspiring coming out video.

I want to quote you:

"Over the years, while I was chasing all those girls, half the time I wanted to BE those girls."

Wowowow, EXACTLY how I feel, April.

I am 6 1/2 weeks into HRT with great initial results which you can read more about in my various posts on this website, such as my current "partial male fail" thread.  But this post isn't about me, it is about YOU, and to share with you that I feel just like you do.  I suspect you are further along on HRT than I am to this point, but I hope to be at your stage very soon.

I just want to tell you, I am still strongly attractive to the breasts of my beautiful cis girlfriend and to the breasts of other cis females...but now I want to HAVE those breasts...

My beautiful cis genetic g/f has size 32B boobs...and I told her I want to have boobs bigger than hers very soon...she laughs and smiles about this, wow it is great she is so accepting and says she might move into my apartment in mid-August...

My heartfelt congratulations on your great progress, your coming out video here, your coming out in general, your total open honesty with your friend John, your great progress on voice feminization, and your courage to post this publicly...

I gave you a +1 applause for your inspiration video...this inspires ME, and I hope it inspires many other gals to align their bodies with their true female minds...

Hugs,
Johanna.

"I await Part 2, but I sincerely hope you're not thinking of a sex change or something similar...   "

John, Part 2 will clear everything up. It contains a little video I have produced just for you. But to respond to your comment, the picture below is me reading your email.

Do I honestly look like I am planning a sex change?

April I did really good until the end. When you said I am April, I lost it. Tears started streaming in gallons. I know how hard that was for you and what it took to do it and I am so proud of you. <wipes tears> You are amazing and I hope your friend will continue to be in your life. Just the look of new life in your eyes should make him happy for you. You go girl!! 

Well, we will see. I don't know if it is clear from the exchange above, but I believe he was completely joking. He didn't have a clue yet, as to what I was about to tell him. Up to that point in my emails, I had just told him that I had gone through a personal crisis that was decades in the making. I was just setting up the context for the video I was about to show him. But I took advantage of that line to come completely out to him.

I haven't heard back from him yet, and he is two time zones ahead of me. This guy was actually at the top my list, as most likely being the most understanding. It all goes down hill from there. Last night I became a transsexual for the first time. I once thought going on HRT was the key moment, but I can see now that I was wrong. Up to now I hadn't really put it all on the line with anybody. That changed last night. I am strangely calm but sad. I once said I might need to destroy every last thing I have built to get to where I want to go. I might have just started the process of destroying things. But today something dramatic has changed. There is one person on the earth who knows me from my old life, who now knows who I really am. I am not completely invisible anymore. April Lives!

Quote from: April Lee on August 01, 2014, 09:29:09 AM
Well, we will see. I don't know if it is clear from the exchange above, but I believe he was completely joking. He didn't have a clue yet, as to what I was about to tell him. Up to that point in my emails, I had just told him that I had gone through a personal crisis that was decades in the making. I was just setting up the context for the video I was about to show him. But I took advantage of that line to come completely out to him.

I haven't heard back from him yet, and he is two time zones ahead of me. This guy was actually at the top my list, as most likely being the most understanding. It all goes down hill from there. Last night I became a transsexual for the first time. I once thought going on HRT was the key moment, but I can see now that I was wrong. Up to now I hadn't really put it all on the line with anybody. That changed last night. I am strangely calm but sad. I once said I might need to destroy every last thing I have built to get to where I want to go. I might have just started the process of destroying things. But today something dramatic has changed. There is one person on the earth who knows me from my old life, who now knows who I really am. I am not completely invisible anymore. April Lives!


Words of true beauty April!  April is losing her "Fear of Flying" as a fearless female, to borrow a title and a phrase from genius female author Erica Jong.

You are super duper gal -- yes some of this of MY transition I have a little fear of coming out -- at my work at the University, with my clients, at my apt. building ---

But you are freeing yourself ---

Brave girl -- keep it up -- you go girl ---

A big hug to you,
Johanna.

April - "I took advantage of your joke in my last email, and because I did, this email will be considerably shorter than originally planned. I have just told you something that nobody who has known me, knows. Yet it has been a part of me my entire life. I actually thought I could make it to the grave without acting upon it, or ever revealing it. Only in the last 6 months have I done a single physical thing about it. Before that, I had always kept it in the deepest recesses of my mind, although at times it absolutely screamed to get out, as it should, because it is the authentic me. For years, I went around trying to act just dead opposite as to what I felt inside. I ask you now, as somebody who knows me about as well as anybody: Did you not ever see glimpses of my inner turmoil over the years? I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it, but I don't think I managed to completely hide it from you. I suspect that you could never guess the real source".



John - "I worry about what you face, should you look to move forward
I fear for your life, that this direction may end up ending your life sooner than if you "stay the  course"...
This, we should discuss.

Your friend who always holds you in the highest esteem,
John"



April - "I am crying now. I seem to mess up my mascara all the time these days. 6 months of estrogen can do that to you."

Your voice is really good, great progress!

Very clear, concise message, good luck!

Quote from: April Lee on August 01, 2014, 01:10:53 PM
April - "I took advantage of your joke in my last email, and because I did, this email will be considerably shorter than originally planned. I have just told you something that nobody who has known me, knows. Yet it has been a part of me my entire life. I actually thought I could make it to the grave without acting upon it, or ever revealing it. Only in the last 6 months have I done a single physical thing about it. Before that, I had always kept it in the deepest recesses of my mind, although at times it absolutely screamed to get out, as it should, because it is the authentic me. For years, I went around trying to act just dead opposite as to what I felt inside. I ask you now, as somebody who knows me about as well as anybody: Did you not ever see glimpses of my inner turmoil over the years? I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it, but I don't think I managed to completely hide it from you. I suspect that you could never guess the real source".



John - "I worry about what you face, should you look to move forward
I fear for your life, that this direction may end up ending your life sooner than if you "stay the  course"...
This, we should discuss.

Your friend who always holds you in the highest esteem,
John"



April - "I am crying now. I seem to mess up my mascara all the time these days. 6 months of estrogen can do that to you."

April dear, Some tears came to my eyes when I just read John's reply.  You have a treasure of a friend in John.  What a gallant and elegant reply from your John.  Wow, April...he is so precious for you, and it is obvious he cares SO much about you.

May your twin souls continue to care for each other...

Wow, you are great to do all this so heartfelt and genuine...you merit only the best girl...go for it.

A big hug,
Johanna.