This is how i feel ppl who do not know what / who they are. They alwas say what does your heart say? what if you do not know what your heart says or know or youe mind is fighting what it says and you get confused. any who i get the feeling that most TG / TS do not like ppl who do not know who they are and tend to like MTF more then CD or FTM even ppl who are Androgyny. When ever i say i do not know who i am or thinking about who i am they alwas say go with what your heart says what if its not that easy and you just do not know and hurting and conused inside it just gets very anoning and other then the mods ppl seem to very offish to ppl who do not know who they are inside and trying to find who they are and copeing with all the these new feelings they are haveing.


song that seems to fit how i feel

I totaly understand Ducky, it is really difficult when you come looking for answers yet the only answer you get is what does your heart say. Makes you feel like replying "I don't know, that's why I'm asking!". Often the confusion can be so bad you can't see a way clear. Sometimes it is like trying to find the grains of truth within a pile of sand. But the only real answers come from within, nobody else can give you the answers. Nobody is saying it is easy.

I feel bad when you say you feel like people are offish. I don't have an answer to this as I have not experienced it. All I can offer is that I will try to listen to whatever you have to say, answer to the best of my knowledge and wish you all the best in the world.

 Thank you ducky, I won't go into my feelings of late. All of this as a newbie...God, I needed to hear this song!!! Wish I could express better here, I apologize...just, thank you!!! I want a CD copy of this song.

Seether, eh? Didn't they do a song with Amy Lee? Great song here though. *jealous*

Funnygrl, love the avatar! She's hot....in a scary kinda way.

I understand what that is like to truly be confused inside and to have people tell you that it is what is inside.  Only you can determine who you are, however if you need an ear or a shoulder we hear at susans will gladly give you whatever answers we possibly can to aid you in your journey.  However; As stated before, only you can determine who you are.  People used to tell me to go with my gut, well my gut said one thing and my brain said another.  But over the past few years and more recently, the past year I have discovered alot about me and who I am, both through the internet, frieinds and counseling.  I am a pre-op mtf but It has just been this past year that they had a name for my identity.  I just hope that you can use this to find some peace and maybe some answers.

                                                                Kira