Losing friends can be expected. I'm still not out but when I finally do I'm sure I'll lose some friends. As far as making new friends, I guess the best way is to find a trans support group. If you're in an area like me that may be difficult due to distance. Other than that you may have to rely on those in this forum. I know that face to face is the ideal connection, but some, even if local to you, simply may not want to interface. The relationship question will be a tough one I think. There are guys out there that would be interested, but they may not be interested in the same type of relationship you are looking for. That doesn't mean you won't be able to develop a meaningful relationship with someone, only that it could be difficult. I'm 60 and have a male friend that has an interest, so I imagine it's not too late for you (I don't know how old you are). I guess all we can do is hang in there and take it a step at a time. Getting out is probably the best thing even with the risks of "discovery". I'm not as far along as you and think about these things too, all the time, I'm sure we all do. I'm sure you'll be fine, just keep moving forward. Hugs.
Kathy
