OK...so i'm just trying to figure myself out a bit more...

So, I started transitioning in March 2013 with hormones. I am definitely an MTF transgender, but...lately I have also been identifying as bi-gender. I feel like I am both male and female because well, I have parts of both (female breasts and male penis) and of course I definitely have the female brain thing going on. Funny thing is i still prefer female pronouns, but would be fine with androgyn ones too...i've not figured out what this means yet but I guess this is a start.

Quote from: Kira Phoenix on August 12, 2014, 09:06:55 PM
OK...so i'm just trying to figure myself out a bit more...

So, I started transitioning in March 2013 with hormones. I am definitely an MTF transgender, but...lately I have also been identifying as bi-gender. I feel like I am both male and female because well, I have parts of both (female breasts and male penis) and of course I definitely have the female brain thing going on. Funny thing is i still prefer female pronouns, but would be fine with androgyn ones too...i've not figured out what this means yet but I guess this is a start.

I think if you asked MtF folk, you'd hear this a lot. I've gotten rid of the male parts down below, but I still feel like there is male in me. Maybe residual of living 50 years as one, and maybe because so many of the structures in my brain are male.

In the end, my therapist tells me, it doesn't matter what we "feel like". It matters how we want to live and see ourselves and the changes we want to make in our lives.

I wouldn't be too concerned.  A large percentage of the trans* community feel less than 100% M or 100% F and even if they identify as non binary they may still choose to physically transition to their non birth binary.  For some it is less challenging than presenting as NB , while for others they may feel predominantly M or F so they transition accordingly.  As Suzifrommd says, at the end of the day it comes down to how you wish to live, any outcome or presentation is a legitimate option or choice.

Aisla

I'm non binary, but I identify as a woman because it's a label that's close enough. It's not related to any physical thing for me, it's just who I am.

I think one of the unspoken secrets of the ->-bleeped-<- is that regardless of one's identity or even your outward appearance, a genetic male is never going to become simply "a woman". You are your biology and all of your experiences up to this moment. Transgender people often seem to feel a great need to make themselves entirely resemble a female and struggle to leave their masculine life behind. Sadly, this struggle is rarely entirely successful. I've often thought we could be much happier if we can find a way to accept ourselves as something more than just a women or men. Some of the happiest TG people I've run across are those that have come to accept themselves as "transgender" rather than as "woman" or as "man".

~ Lyric ~

I just made a thread about this, but I can't decide 100% if I'm trans or genderqueer. I've thought I was genderqueer for a while, but thinking about it I could just be a trans woman who is usually somewhere between tomboy and soft butch, and occasionally dresses in drag.

I used to tie myself in knots over this.  Now I try not to sweat.  I trend towards androgyny and if I can feel and present authentically then this is enough and this is a good thing.

Aisla

I like being in between but somedays I desire to not be in between at all. It comes and goes for me.