Hello,
My name is Trinity, I am male to female. I'm currently living with my mom in Arkansas. I have always felt as if I were different from other guys my age. Whenever I was younger, I would wear my mom's skirts, pantyhose, and high heels around all the time. I grew up in a Trinity Holiness Pentecostal Church (no this is not why I chose the name Trinity). I never liked trucks, hunting, or anything like that. I would instead play with Barbie dolls, house (as the mommy), and things in that area. My dad absolutely hated it, one of my grandmothers bought me Barbies all the time and he would throw them away. I have not started hormone replacement therapy.
For a while, I just thought I liked guys and was just super gay. I later started searching online for answers, and figured everything out. I have a really good support group of friends, my family not so much. I don't talk to any of my family anymore besides my mother (I live with her). My brother passed away in April of 2008 at eighteen years old. I have had years of counseling for major depressive disorder, but nothing seems to work. I am currently still going to counseling, and this is why I am here. She recommended me to start talking to people with similar issues and things going on with me. I came out as gay after my parents separated in January 2013. I came out as trans in March 2013.
I was sent to a behavioral hospital for gender identity disorder and major depressive disorder in March 2013 as well. I was in for a week, I got out a little less than a week for my birthday on the thirty-first. I just need someone that understands. Everyone besides my mom and people at my school call me Trinity, there I go by Cody. I did feel better about myself once I was out, but everything seems to be getting worse. I try to be happy, but people are just so judgmental, especially in this state. The town I live in currently has a population of almost 3,000. Everyone here is a Christian and I'm so you know like the Antichrist around here, so yeah.
I am currently in the court system due to staying at home from school for being so depressed over everything. This is my second time being in the court system, I should be out in October. I start school Monday and if I don't miss a day they should close my case. Once my case is closed, I'm dropping out and getting my GED. Then I'll be going to college earlier than my peers for youth social work.
Anyways, that was probably more than anyone will read lol, but I look forward to my time on this forum.
